Class of March 2020 Part 5
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Evening all. I'm lying out in the garden in the cool of the evening...lovely.
Interview went as well as it could have done. I felt confident and actually quite enjoyed it. I'll find out Friday or Monday whether I'm successful or not...I always doubt myself after interviews, thinking of things I could've should've said. But it's done now.
I had strong drinking thoughts before and during the interview, of my normal 'reward' type. I didn't get anywhere near acting on them, I'm just acknowledging they were there.
Night all, see you tomorrow
Interview went as well as it could have done. I felt confident and actually quite enjoyed it. I'll find out Friday or Monday whether I'm successful or not...I always doubt myself after interviews, thinking of things I could've should've said. But it's done now.
I had strong drinking thoughts before and during the interview, of my normal 'reward' type. I didn't get anywhere near acting on them, I'm just acknowledging they were there.
Night all, see you tomorrow
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Pleased interview went well Be. I think our brains go into auto pilot at times like those as we told ourselves for so long alcohol was a good reward. Of course we now know it wasn't but takes time to learn new rewards i think.
Had nice long walk today enjoyed sunshine and feel tired so hopefully i will sleep well.
Had nice long walk today enjoyed sunshine and feel tired so hopefully i will sleep well.
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Originally Posted by Be123 
Thanks billy and Tink. Thanks Venus - I mean I'm in a long meeting tomorrow morning (virtually) so should have time to search the internet and think about questions I may be asked whilst the meeting goes on.
I don't know the protocol for a missing month-mate but it seems wrong not to say I am concerned about Bilr and hope he is doing ok. I hope he's had internet issues or something but the group isn't the same without him
I don't know the protocol for a missing month-mate but it seems wrong not to say I am concerned about Bilr and hope he is doing ok. I hope he's had internet issues or something but the group isn't the same without him
Good work on interview btw, really get where you're coming from on the reward front, it's a hard mindset to shake even if you don't act on it.
Hope everyone had a good day
Love Billy x
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Hi all, sorry I haven’t been on since last week but had friends here and didn’t open my iPad for a week. Then the last few days I had a stomach bug so didn’t feel like doing anything. All is good here and I will post more in the next couple of days. Just getting my stamina back because nothing knocks me out more than stomach issues. It almost feels like a bad hangover that won’t go away. Better every day though, so looking forward to the weekend.
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I’m glad the interview went well Be 
I hope you’re feeling better soon.
Bilr good to hear from you, I hope you’re feeling a lot better soon too
Enjoy your time off Billy
A nice long walk in the sunshine sounds lovely Tink
I’m enjoying the beautiful weather here at the moment, it’s our winter, which is beautiful, generally lovely sunny days around 25C and cool nights around 20C.
Much cooler than our summer which is hot, humid and rainy!
I hope you’re feeling better soon.
Bilr good to hear from you, I hope you’re feeling a lot better soon too
Enjoy your time off Billy
A nice long walk in the sunshine sounds lovely Tink
I’m enjoying the beautiful weather here at the moment, it’s our winter, which is beautiful, generally lovely sunny days around 25C and cool nights around 20C.
Much cooler than our summer which is hot, humid and rainy!
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Hi Bilr, glad your ok (ish) - I've had a stomach bug too but I think mine was food poisoning as the fever and also aches and pains were terrible. But this morning I feel quite a lot better.
Friday, nice day, have a good one everyone
Friday, nice day, have a good one everyone
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Hi Bilr!
Great to hear from you sorry about your stomach bug, rest up and eat bland food
Good morning to everyone! looking forward to another sober day and a nice day chilling in the sun
Love
Billy x
Great to hear from you
sorry about your stomach bug, rest up and eat bland food Good morning to everyone! looking forward to another sober day and a nice day chilling in the sun
Love
Billy x
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Well everything has just kicked off here and i need to vent, sorry might be long.
went to visit my parents and straight away my mam started that she was going to sell up and move to spain as she was sick of trying to please everyone. I said i was going not putting up with it anymore and had couple minute rant about all the hurtful things she has said to me over years and left. Got home and she has rang me 3 times left horrible voicemail then i answered phone and she still continued to tell me all the stuff i did as a teenager alot not even true. Then she said she will tell me son i stopped him seeing his dad (his dad, who was abusive, left us when he was one and never tried to see my son, he died last year of alcohol, she also said if id been nicer to him we could of had a good life !!?) Anyway when she said she would tell my son that i completely lost it, just screamed down phone, saying did i, did i stop him, at which she said look how your attacking (ex) was probably scared of you. I then called her a bitch and told her to stay away from me forever.
I really have had enough of her and honestly think id be better never seeing her again but am annoyed i let her provoke me in to losing it.
Not going to drink because of her but im so upset and angry.
went to visit my parents and straight away my mam started that she was going to sell up and move to spain as she was sick of trying to please everyone. I said i was going not putting up with it anymore and had couple minute rant about all the hurtful things she has said to me over years and left. Got home and she has rang me 3 times left horrible voicemail then i answered phone and she still continued to tell me all the stuff i did as a teenager alot not even true. Then she said she will tell me son i stopped him seeing his dad (his dad, who was abusive, left us when he was one and never tried to see my son, he died last year of alcohol, she also said if id been nicer to him we could of had a good life !!?) Anyway when she said she would tell my son that i completely lost it, just screamed down phone, saying did i, did i stop him, at which she said look how your attacking (ex) was probably scared of you. I then called her a bitch and told her to stay away from me forever.
I really have had enough of her and honestly think id be better never seeing her again but am annoyed i let her provoke me in to losing it.
Not going to drink because of her but im so upset and angry.
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