Purplrks3647

AK and Sam, can't wait to see the avatars you'll have picked out for Casey!

Well thanks a lot BBG ~ I ended up getting Hardees for lunch today! Now I'm ready for a big fat nap.....

I think I have a class list somewhere; I'll see if I can find it

Purplrks3647

Oh, you said emoticon for AK, not avatar. I'm still not awake yet!

Applekat

Yup I got my emoticon from Casey!!! Sam still owes her avatar. Wonder what she is thinking of.....hehe. I say a picture of a hairy Canadian.

Caramel

Aloha, folks - hope you are all safe and happy, stay well.
All good with me xx

Purplrks3647

ROLL CALL!!!! Class of March 2016 (sorry if I missed anyone?)

Applekat
AutumnLover
Beerbgone
Bobbieka
Caramel
Casey
Clearlyheaded
Dee
Fred
Immri
Jemma
Kayak
Keets
Kiki
LadyBug
LillianGish
MITA
1Stepup
PeacefulRain
Pelagic
Phoenix
Samantha
Spacegoat
Thirteenth
Upstairs

Purplrks3647

HEY Caramel!

CaseyW

Caramel! Glad you checked in. Don't be a stranger.

Better an avatar of a hairy Canadian than one of a non-hairy one like Sam's neighbor Bieber. Oh wait, I mean I LOVE Bieber. Having an avatar of him wouldn't bother me in the least.

I was taking a nice nap when my stepmom called with a dumb computer fix-it question. Now I gotta go take care of that, I guess. Ugh. I don't wanna.

KiKi0615

Hey guys! We just planned a last minute mini vacation with the kids so I won't be checking in until after the 4th of July. Just didn't want you to worry. Have a safe & sober 4th! Love u all!

CaseyW

Have a safe trip, KiKi. Don't drink. No matter what.

Purplrks3647

Thanks for checking in, Kiki! Have fun!

Thirteenth

Checking in. Hope all continue to be well. I read everything even if I don't post. That is all.

PhoenixJ

live long and prosper, 13

CaseyW

Love the watch inscription, Phoenix. Very fitting.

Pull up a chair and stay for a while, 13th. We don't bite. Well some of us might if we don't get our morning coffee. Not naming any names.*









*Purplrks

Applekat

Hi Thirteenth! Good to see ya!

Purplrks3647

samantha14

Checking in tonight. Feeling drained. Will be an early night for me.....shocking I know - lol. Work in the morning so just going to pack my lunch and hang out. Lots of celebrations happening everywhere. My neighbourhood is alive with the sounds of people talking and enjoying themselves (aka drinking) We have had two sets of neighbours knock on the door with an invitation to "stop by". Meh. I don't really feel left out....okay yes I do. I also know I could still go and not drink but I don't trust myself yet. Double meh.

MITA - enjoy vacation!! Sounds like you have a pretty solid plan in place.

Kiki - I love last minute trips! The spontaneity is exciting! Have fun making amazing, sober memories with your family!

PJ - the inscription sounds perfect. Hugs. (also hope you're sleeping right now)

Thirteenth - always glad to see you check in. Stick around for a while but watch out for Casey...he bites.

Casey - still working on my avatar choice...hmmm...gotta be sure it's perfect

Hi Caramel!!

Bobbie - hope your day was full of babies....with good smells

AK - how was your day?

Purplrks - how was your first day back at work? Vacation hangover is still better than an actual hangover!

Sorry if I missed anyone! Gotta go throw some laundry in!

Thirteenth

Hi PJ, Casey, AK.

Sorry for the terseness. Trying to run again and didn't want to face myself. My recovery is nonexistent. Don't know if I'm worse, but I do know I'm not better.

I have some time off and though that's a major concern, it's not like I'm doing well anyway. I've already written out 16 things I need to do to assist my aim for recovery. It's daunting but it must be done. I am still/again drinking. I don't know why except it's what I know. We've all been there. So, another revamped plan but with some down time to rest after two years of underappreciated work.

I'll head off the no apology zone comments by simply saying that I feel that I must. This post is self indulgent. So, I'm sorry that this post is all about me and I don't mention how cool PJ's watch is and what it represents, Casey's incredible book collection, Sam's win in the contest and so much more.

samantha14

I'm the third chattiest?!? Who da thunk it??

PhoenixJ

I have a request of all who cares to comment... this works on the assumption you all have 'been here' for the last half of my life changing events, thoughts/feelings/actions.
I have created a version of CBT strategy...in that I play the tape forward.
I am very good at hating myself. When running through a conversation with myself- I role play the other person in a conversation as hating me. Playing the tape..I then work on what are the best responses to make, being the one who is hated...showing compassion, objectivity and realism. With this I change- and feel a little more at peace with me.
Hope for the best- assume the worse. It works we.., except for one question...which haunts me.
If at some point my sons decide to meet with me- and their attitude is one of people who only know me from memory, how would I respond?
So if I begin with how well I am doing and the reasons why, without going into 'evidence' and their reactions are basically saying they are angry, mistrustful and hurt..that this meeting is all about them. Yes I do know I cannot change them that mere evidence probably will not work. That mindshift is hard and perhaps the meeting is to alleviate guilt, see to e doing so as o rationalise 'well at least I tried'.
BUT also the fact there IS a meeting...kinda like a person shouting very loudly they refuse to go to AA meetings, 'cos it is all god crap- and go toa meeting to say this. Mixed messages?

Thirteenth

Bobbie, I'm so sorry for your losses. Suicide is brutal for all involved in every way. I hope you and the families are seeking assistance to grieve if needed.