Class of March 2016 part 41
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90 minutes- thanks every one... Got 2 hours sleep (?). Staff do not quite know what is going on. Not a prob- it'll happen. Not acting like pet dog waiting to go for walkies- emitting a high pitched whine- yet.
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Phoniex please be cautious! Highs and lows are a part of life and I know you're on a high right now.
Normal people handle highs and lows with no problems. Us alcoholics have to battle the ole hag AV in those situations.
I'm really proud for you. But I'm scared for you at the same time!!!
Normal people handle highs and lows with no problems. Us alcoholics have to battle the ole hag AV in those situations.
I'm really proud for you. But I'm scared for you at the same time!!!
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See you after you get settled, PJ. Enjoy your new digs.
Another fairly stressful day at work. I brought some work home with me to finish up tonight so I don't have anything hanging over my head on my days off. I used to not be able to do work in the evening because I would be drinking. Ordered pizza for dinner...yum!
Another fairly stressful day at work. I brought some work home with me to finish up tonight so I don't have anything hanging over my head on my days off. I used to not be able to do work in the evening because I would be drinking. Ordered pizza for dinner...yum!
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Good luck PJ - as BBG mentioned, try to keep some balance - but heck, Congratulations, too!!
Good day so far for me - reasonably productive at work and a trip to the gym.
I like that "no TV" decision Purp - mostly junk anyway (except for BBT, of course).
Good day so far for me - reasonably productive at work and a trip to the gym.
I like that "no TV" decision Purp - mostly junk anyway (except for BBT, of course).
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Thankyou all. Am here- unpacked every thing. Do not worry Iam very aware of emotional rushes. I have replaced the crappy prints on the walls with my crappy originals. Not a bad unit. Meet staffy person this am. Still counselling, but much less intense. Here for about 3 months- then get long term, apparently.
All for now- time for toast and vegemite.
I've got my own toilet.
All for now- time for toast and vegemite.
I've got my own toilet.
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Hey friends....checking in tonight....
PJ - so excited for you!! I hope you have a great first day/night in your new home!! Remember we are here for you whenever you need!! Hopefully you have found the perfect places to show off your masterpieces
CH - enjoy your super long week-end!! Imagine how refreshing it will be to go back to work after a few sober days off
LB - I love your new avatar!!
PR - hope you enjoyed your day!
Purplrks - love the no TV idea!! What are you doing instead?
Hi MITA and Bobbie!!
BBG - how are you?
PJ - so excited for you!! I hope you have a great first day/night in your new home!! Remember we are here for you whenever you need!! Hopefully you have found the perfect places to show off your masterpieces
CH - enjoy your super long week-end!! Imagine how refreshing it will be to go back to work after a few sober days off
LB - I love your new avatar!!
PR - hope you enjoyed your day!
Purplrks - love the no TV idea!! What are you doing instead?
Hi MITA and Bobbie!!
BBG - how are you?
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I struggled quite a lot today with various things. I talked to some good friends and then I came home and I journalled....this is my entry for today...just had the urge to share it here...
I often feel like a fraud...like I don't belong, like I am not good enough. This translates into my personal and my professional lives...I mean how could it not? I function daily with a "fake it til you make it" mentality...this allows me to exhibit self confidence, self love and self-worth all under the pretense of figuring it out eventually. You put your best face on for the world but then have nothing left for the mirror.
Anyone around me would tell you that I am the fun one, the happy one, the successful one...but underneath the shiny exterior I am also lonely, unhappy and tired. I think I learned to behave this way from a very early age...I lost my Dad when I was 13 and was pretty much on my own from then. People who knew me, like family friends and relatives didn't want to hear that I wasn't okay...they wanted to hear that I was adjusting, getting good grades and moving on...and so it began....
But....I am working on being the real me a little more every day...discovering my authentic self and learning to be okay with not always being okay. And funny enough all the things I have been trying so hard to be.....well they fall into place when you're not so busy pretending.
I often feel like a fraud...like I don't belong, like I am not good enough. This translates into my personal and my professional lives...I mean how could it not? I function daily with a "fake it til you make it" mentality...this allows me to exhibit self confidence, self love and self-worth all under the pretense of figuring it out eventually. You put your best face on for the world but then have nothing left for the mirror.
Anyone around me would tell you that I am the fun one, the happy one, the successful one...but underneath the shiny exterior I am also lonely, unhappy and tired. I think I learned to behave this way from a very early age...I lost my Dad when I was 13 and was pretty much on my own from then. People who knew me, like family friends and relatives didn't want to hear that I wasn't okay...they wanted to hear that I was adjusting, getting good grades and moving on...and so it began....
But....I am working on being the real me a little more every day...discovering my authentic self and learning to be okay with not always being okay. And funny enough all the things I have been trying so hard to be.....well they fall into place when you're not so busy pretending.
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Thankyou Sam. No one but me to show them to at the mo. Independent, for all intensive purposes- but first 3 months is no visitors. People do- abuse the rule, but I will not. Worked too long to do silly things.
I got my own toilet
I got my own toilet
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Posted at the same time Sam. Thankyou for the journal bit. I agree- it is about a balance. I tried so hard to be a creation of my imagination. Part of the difficulty is booze of course. It just adds a whole new dimension of crud.
I got a toilet
I got a toilet
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Sam - Yes. The whole reason I took time off is because I need some rest and relaxation. I love my job, but it is go-go-go. I usually only take 15 minutes for lunch and work from 8:30-5:00. I like keeping busy because it makes the day go by fast, but it wears me out too. So, early bedtime and solid sleep are on the docket. If I start to get bored or antsy, there is plenty of catching up around the house to do 
PJ - glad you have arrived. It's got to feel good. Talk to us if you need an ear.
Got my work done and pizza is eaten. DD finished all of her homework. So it's time to veg in my pjs! My favorite.
PJ - glad you have arrived. It's got to feel good. Talk to us if you need an ear.
Got my work done and pizza is eaten. DD finished all of her homework. So it's time to veg in my pjs! My favorite.
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