Class of March 2016 part 41
Happy Thursday!!
Bobbie, thanks for posting those thoughts and prayers. Personally, I enjoy them and I take the "God" and "AA" references and use them in a way that fits my philosophy.
The transition to the new digs is going well, but maybe a little slower than I'd like. I'm still spending a little too much time holed up in my makeshift office and not enough time outside. We've met a few people in our condo complex who are nice, and I've found a nice gym to go to and have connected with a few people there. Still, I don't have nearly the social network I need - but that takes time.
Can't complain about the weather or the surroundings. Scottsdale has always been one of my favorite places - I'm happy to be here.
Bobbie, thanks for posting those thoughts and prayers. Personally, I enjoy them and I take the "God" and "AA" references and use them in a way that fits my philosophy.
The transition to the new digs is going well, but maybe a little slower than I'd like. I'm still spending a little too much time holed up in my makeshift office and not enough time outside. We've met a few people in our condo complex who are nice, and I've found a nice gym to go to and have connected with a few people there. Still, I don't have nearly the social network I need - but that takes time.
Can't complain about the weather or the surroundings. Scottsdale has always been one of my favorite places - I'm happy to be here.
Hi everyone. Checking in. On my way home -I have a tea in hand and the sun is shining. What more can a girl ask for? Lol.
Haven't caught up on all the posts but I will tonight.
Today at work I became the "champion" of a new but archaic (DOS based) computer system that we are installing and I certainly could not wrap my head around it if I was drinking and/or hungover. So that's a positive that I am focusing on today.
Love you all!!
Haven't caught up on all the posts but I will tonight.
Today at work I became the "champion" of a new but archaic (DOS based) computer system that we are installing and I certainly could not wrap my head around it if I was drinking and/or hungover. So that's a positive that I am focusing on today.
Love you all!!
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So I have to fess up. I haven't been honest. I've been pretending I'm ok but I'm not. Remember the ex, the baby daddy I struggled so hard to get out of my house? Well, I let him back in in September. Things have not been good. I let him in because he was suicidal. And he has since been ok. Remodeling my bathroom, helping with our son. But still abusive. Just found out he is reading all my posts. Because apparently I told him to when I was drunk we got in a bad fight on New Year's Eve, I physically attacked him and the cops were here though I did not get arrested. I attacked him because he was harrassing me all night long via text horrible messages. But oh well what's done is done. Wanted to come clean because he is making me.
Jemma - hugs.
No one here cares what you've done. I care about you and your baby and want you to find a way to be happy. And Safe. Safe is important. You're one of ours, I hope you could find a way to let someone know if you are in trouble.
Love you.
No one here cares what you've done. I care about you and your baby and want you to find a way to be happy. And Safe. Safe is important. You're one of ours, I hope you could find a way to let someone know if you are in trouble.
Love you.
Jemma - Ditto what Bobbie said. Love you.
Bobbie - thanks for the daily reflection posts. Love seeing them!
Sam - what tea do you have today?
I laid down to take a nap after taking DDd to school and didn't wake up until after 2:00!! Feels like a wasted day, but I must have needed it. It was deep sleep. Out running errands for DD's birthday now. All in all a pretty good day to myself.
Bobbie - thanks for the daily reflection posts. Love seeing them!
Sam - what tea do you have today?
I laid down to take a nap after taking DDd to school and didn't wake up until after 2:00!! Feels like a wasted day, but I must have needed it. It was deep sleep. Out running errands for DD's birthday now. All in all a pretty good day to myself.
Home from errands and picking up DD. I had to go to the grocery store, and although AV tried to wiggle in, I shut that B down. I picked up more seltzer water instead. If you haven't tried LaCroix's passion fruit flavor, I highly recommend it. That, and if you like flavored water, Sweet Leaf has a line of Water Drops that are sweetened with stevia and are dye free. Peach mango is my fav. Having some in ice water now and left over pizza for dinner.
Thanks for those water recommendations CH. I WANT to like tea so much right now but jeepers there's three reasons running around my house as to why I can't drink a cup when it's fresh and hot.
I am definitely a sparkling water girl!
I am definitely a sparkling water girl!
Checking in class.
Had a bit of a war waging inside my pea-brain tonight and I literally had to talk myself off the ledge. Seems having the day off tomorrow and having no plans for dinner means that my AV goes into full on battle mode. So instead of going to a sit down restaurant where ordering a glass of wine would be perhaps too difficult to pass up, we went to the food court at the mall and had Subway...lol.
I guess I am starting to settle into the idea that this really is going to be a lifelong battle...where there is always a trigger waiting and that damn AV is somewhere in the wings singing her seductive love song.
Feeling annoyed but heading to bed sober so I will take it. Night all <3
Anyways battle done for tonight.
Had a bit of a war waging inside my pea-brain tonight and I literally had to talk myself off the ledge. Seems having the day off tomorrow and having no plans for dinner means that my AV goes into full on battle mode. So instead of going to a sit down restaurant where ordering a glass of wine would be perhaps too difficult to pass up, we went to the food court at the mall and had Subway...lol.
I guess I am starting to settle into the idea that this really is going to be a lifelong battle...where there is always a trigger waiting and that damn AV is somewhere in the wings singing her seductive love song.
Feeling annoyed but heading to bed sober so I will take it. Night all <3
Anyways battle done for tonight.
Jemma- stay safe. You cannot control others. The suicidal bit- you cannot heal him, stay safe. Keep posting. You do not need that shite.
aLL OF US- be mindful AND POST.
Settling in- readjusting . Here for 3 months- then another for 6 then my own place b4 xmas. A LOT of very hard work- because I choose to. Other around me just cruise- nope.
There is a Adelaide wide community project where people leave books at little drop offs- like a mild box, except cute, depending on creativity. Leave, borrow others books. I thought that is something I would have done- living in my nice family home. Checked on where to be involved. They have started one about 90 seconds from my family home. I was way cool this morning. Had first formal counselling- I got that all sorted. In my control
BUT THIS? Now I am a teary, sad mess.
Crap. I miss my sons.
aLL OF US- be mindful AND POST.
Settling in- readjusting . Here for 3 months- then another for 6 then my own place b4 xmas. A LOT of very hard work- because I choose to. Other around me just cruise- nope.
There is a Adelaide wide community project where people leave books at little drop offs- like a mild box, except cute, depending on creativity. Leave, borrow others books. I thought that is something I would have done- living in my nice family home. Checked on where to be involved. They have started one about 90 seconds from my family home. I was way cool this morning. Had first formal counselling- I got that all sorted. In my control
BUT THIS? Now I am a teary, sad mess.
Crap. I miss my sons.
I think it is a lifelong deal sam but it's not a lifelong struggle - it does and will get easier
I'm very sorry to read whats been going on Jemma - are you and your littl'un safe now?
I'm very sorry to read whats been going on Jemma - are you and your littl'un safe now?
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