Incontrol15

Thought I'd share a video posted on another forum. Serves as a nice reminder

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUngLgGRJpo

Angie247

Hi everyone. Day 80 today. Feeling great after a good nights sleep. Hope everyone is having a wonderful day.

Incontrol15

WTG day 80!

Cauliflower

I just love this group! I am feeling good today. A friend sent me a message asking me to pop by, share some wine, and spend the night. Nothing but an excuse to get drunk. Not going there!

Energy levels are back up there these days. I start feeling pretty restless in the evenings now, so last night I went for a long walk in the neighborhood, and this was after knocking two baskets of balls at driving range. I did pretty good, I am going to try to get out to the golf course more often!

OMD

Hi all,
Thank you all for the good wishes. I too love this group. You guys have REALLY kept me anchored for the last 3+ months.

Glad you're feeling better IC and WTG Angie on the big 80

Writing in haste - ton of work on. Catch you all later.

OMD

Dee74

Congratulations Angie

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SwimKim12

Angie, congrats on 80 days! I think I'm close too.

Been irritable the last few days. AV has also been loud. Just trying to make it through one day at a time. Had a long day at work and ready for bed! Looking forward to having another alcohol-free, relaxing weekend. Hope you all are well!

ZaBoozer

Good morning all, catch up laggers.

amp123

Morning Zab! Have a great day!

Cauliflower

Morning! This morning I woke up to a spider in my water glass. I just about drank it, yuk! I hate spiders...but I saved it. It was playing dead, because every time it thought I wasn't looking, it would struggle, otherwise it was just curled up floating. So I poured it out in a small puddle in the bathroom sink, sopped up the water with a wad of toilet paper and it crawled into the safety of the folds. I don't know why I didn't just flush it, spiders are my phobia. But, I guess I felt like being kind first thing in the morning. I will find out if it pays off during the rest of my day and report back! Have a good day everyone.

Cauliflower

80 days! Congrats to both of you. I pulled out my "Plan" for sobriety yet again just to be on the safe side. The 3 month mark is a tought one for some, so I want to dig my heels in a bit deeper. My plan is a binder in which I keep my clippings, journal, and ideas that I have regarding my recovery.

Incontrol15

Cauliflower....very funny! Playing dead...lol.
You saved a life today. Gotta feel good

I am starting a new part time job to get money flowing better. Started training today. Min wage, but the hours fit perfectly with what I do. I'll just be working even more than I do already, but at least there's guaranteed money coming in.

Feeling pretty good today. Been posting in drug addiction / marijuana group. Hooked up with somebody who is trying to quit.

Casey (May), sent me a nice PM yesterday after hitting a new record (70 days). And Cauliflower said something real nice too. Both messages were very well timed and brought me back to center. I've been too caught up with my issues and have been posting less and less, which ultimately lead to my MJ cave.

Getting back to picking out some newbs and cheering them on. I think that goes a long way for them and I know it helps strengthen my defenses.

Off to my normal sales gig now.

Have a great day!

amp123

Hey Inc! Good to see you taking positive steps. A little financial security may be just what you need!

So exciting to see so many of us passing important mile stones these days. I've got 90 days coming up on Sunday. Someone told me recently that if you relapse after 90 days it's not called relapse anymore. It's called a choice. I found that kind of a interesting.

Hope you're all enjoying a beautiful sober day!!!

A

OMD

Hi all,
Just checking in. I agree, Amp. It's now a choice. By coincidence, or not, people who don't know me that we'll keep telling me how well I look these days. Feel a bit sick when I think how much I have drunk on a daily basis, and looking back on my posts...grim. Really grim.

So I have my daughter all weekend and I would have been thinking what time she would go to bed so I could hit the bottle. Now I'm thinking I'm going to let her stay up late and we'll do some baking. Compare and contrast. Some choice.

On that happy note, I wish you all a wonderful weekend.

Best wishes
OMD

Incontrol15

Funny thing, I've been going day by day and not counting how long it's been until today. I noticed 90 days no alcohol on Sunday. I feel proud of that feat, but I feel I cheated with MJ. Don't know what to make of it really.

I do know this....I was severely addicted to booze. Drinking all day and night every single day towards the end. I'd say I was an (almost) every day drinker for 5 years or more. I was a heavy every day drinker for the last 3yrs, and an all day drunk for about 1.5yrs....eh...probably more like 2.

Bottom line is, I AM proud that I stopped and I AM proud of myself that I have said NO countless times.

I'm only disappointed that I said yes to another mood enhancing substance. Some times I feel I can't stake claim to 90 days. Other times I feel I deserve to.

SwimKim12

Hey Inc, I think you definitely deserve to give yourself credit for 90 days without alcohol. Alcohol is one of the most addictive substances out there, and to go 90 days without it is an absolute accomplishment. Your last post made it clear that you were in a bad place before you quit, and you should be proud of yourself. Cheers to you!

amp123

Hey Inc, it's a number. What you've achieved is so much bigger than that. Whether you "count" it or not is your call (though I think I would as in this section we're talking about alcohol) but I feel that the real proof of what you have done is in your actions and attitudes.

Should you feel proud? I doubt anyone outside of here or another specialised organisation has any idea just how proud you should feel. You, my friend, are literally saving your life all on your own. You are amazing and your will and desire to be the best possible version of yourself deserve the utmost respect!

Stay well all!

OMD

Absolutely 100% you have every right to feel proud. You did not cheat. You stopped for 90 whole days and that is amazing. If anything you should feel even more proud that you abstained while under the influence of another drug. Kudos to you IC. This is a massive achievement, exactly the same as anyone else on here who has achieved that. There is nothing that will detract from that fact. Your sober date is over 90 days ago. Wear that medal.

OMD

SwimKim12

Hi, All. Doing well now, but boy was the AV loud the last two days. It felt like the very early days, or even the days when I was drinking. But I kept visualizing the hangover. I didn't want to feel like crap tomorrow morning because I knew it would ruin my weekend. I visualized having to tell you all that I drank and that helped me too. And to start all over on Day 1 when I'm at Day 87 just doesn't make sense. Spent some time on SR and I'm happy to report the AV is back in it's cave (where it belongs). I found one of the books on the list that is at my library so I'm going to get it tomorrow. I'm just glad I made it through! These battles have to be helping my sober muscles get stronger. I hope you all are having a peaceful weekend. Thank you for being here.

Angie247

Congratulations on your 90 days incontrol!!! Be proud of that, it's amazing. :-)

OMD, that sounds like a wonderful night with your daughter. :-)

Glad to hear you're feeling better SwimKim. I've had the same thoughts as you about starting over again on day one. Have had dreams about drinking and then coming here to tell everyone. Hope you enjoy your book. :-) I've got one from the library, "mommy doesn't drink here anymore: getting through the first year of sobriety"

I'm doing very well. I had to give myself a pep talk at work. There are these two women in the office that are considered the mean girls of the office. They took off together today and it was nice and peaceful. I actually had a little panic about them coming back on Monday because they always make some comments about us not being as fast or something we did wrong while they weren't there. I thought to myself, who cares what these two women think, they are not the bosses and are not better than anyone. I have to be professional and work with them but I don't have have to deal with certain things that they do anymore. One even made fun of me about a year ago when I was sitting next to her working and I didn't tell a supervisor. She thought I had both headphones in and/or didn't care that I was listening. I'm finding a strength that I didn't know I had. It's coming little by little. I've been quiet for so long, bullied and kept quiet but I've also made so many mistakes and I have only myself to blame but maybe there is a person underneath who isn't afraid to stand up for herself. Learning to like myself is a slow process but it's coming along where it wasn't advancing before. Sobriety rocks, y'all Sorry, I had to add the y'all. I know I'm living in California now but I'm a southern girl always. Hope everyone has a great weekend.