exitingstrategy

Day 38. I'm becoming pretty annoyed with small things that are going on in my life and my inner voice keeps telling me to have some drinks relax and stuff. But I know if I do that is just the start of another bender and have to fight the urge. My sister n laws 30th birthday is next weekend and she is throwing a huge party and asking me why I might not go with an annoyed look in her tone. I've told my wife (who is going) that it's best for me to not being around people that are drinking right now. She gets it but others don't. I feel alone being the only one In my family and friends that is trying hard to be sober. If I end up going to be social I'll be in a bad mood the whole time so it's best I don't go. Now that the kids have a sitter for the night and wife is gone to a party on a Friday night I'm stuck being alone and don't know what to do. Ugh. Stay strong people and welcome newcomers!

exitingstrategy

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CaseyW

Starting day three now. Yesterday was a good day. No thoughts of drinking or cravings of any kind. Work went very well, which was nice since last week was absolutely horrible every single day. Went straight from work to a meeting that I had never attended before. Glad I went. Saw a few people I knew already and lot of new faces as well, heard some good things. I will be going back to that meeting on a regular basis, I think.

Today is more of the same. Have to go into work an hour early so I've already been up and about for a while now. Did my morning meditations and just got done lifting some weights and going for a very short jog.

Congrats to everyone who made it successfully thru another day sober and welcome to all the newcomers. I look forward to getting to know each and every one of you!

lilsmum

Today is day 3! Yesterday was a big step for me, work was crazy nuts and I left feeling so bummed at getting nothing accomplished. For once though I didn't go home and stress about what I couldn't get done, For once I didn't go pour myself a shot then another then another just to forget and not have to be in control for once. Instead I participated in my family. I spent my evening not at the bottom of a bottle but with my family. What a huge step for me. I am going to keep this up and keep working towards finding a positive outlet for my stress no more drinking for me. I spent 13 years drinking and now 3 days not. I see the uphill battle facing me and I accept this challenge. That being said my kids are getting ready to go to their dads for a week, this will be the hardest time for me since usually I drink more lots more when they are not home. Any suggestions on what to do with my time when they are gone?

Jsbodhi

Oh! You're so cute telling AV to shut up! Xoxo.
Boredom is a huge trigger for me too.
Keep up the good fight!!

Jsbodhi

Get some tea, takeout, and come on here and post on every thread. I also read the success stories. It's actually a pretty fun night. More than drinking surprisingly.
Maybe get your wife some flowers for when she gets home, she'll be thrilled and you'll get spoiled.

Jsbodhi

There was something in the air last week! My work week was a disaster, all outside forces too.
This week has been much better.
Glad to hear you're doing well.

Jsbodhi

My drinking has caused a lot of relationship problems too.
But you can stay sober and show him, I'm sure he'll come around and love the new denise.

forabetterlife

Well after a rocky start on Monday, I guess I am on day one. I had one beer yesterday (in an attempt to settle a hangover) and decided I had enough of this and dumped the rest out. I went to bed at 8, so I feel a million times better. It feels like day 2 even though technically I guess it's not. In the end, does it really matter?

There are two major things that almost always work to keep me from caving. One is to eat something satisfying and the second is to come on to Sr (or other recovery book) even if just to read. If I do
both of these things, my AV will slink back into the shadows, usually for the rest of the night. When I fail I don't even let myself do one or both of those and I'm drinking or going to the store before I know it.

While alcohol hasn't destroyed anything in my life visibly YET, it is destroying me physically and mentally. Sober me is mostly happy, healthy, responsible, and in control. I appreciate my life and all the good in it, and work through ways of solving my problems. Drinking/hungover me is cloudy, messy, confused, tired, bloated, disorganized, irritable and disconnected .

I'm over it. I seriously cannot and will not live one more day like that. Looking forward to bonding, helping , and sharing with all of you.

Here's to a sober holiday season. No more excuses.

Falsepremise

Well said forabetterlife 👏

1stepup

Hi all, Im a member of the August class, managed about 11 weeks of sobriety and then I caved when I met an attractive girl on the bus, I couldn't get honest and say I didn't drink and I paid the price.....

Went on a 5 day bender with her spending a fortune, the first night was ok but I NEEDED to drink in the morning and it went on from there, she got tired of it and went back to her ex, I couldn't stop and matters were made worse when my ex told me shes been dating a younger guy for over a month and that my two girls who are 4 and 6 have met him and even stayed over at his with my ex I couldn't handle this and decided to try and drink myself to death. It didn't work and I ended up in hospital on my birthday,

Got off it after that for 3 days, took my daughters shopping and stuff but when I took them back to ex's she made it clear that they were all staying over at the new guys again that night and I caved again and drank, tried to stick to pints of cider instead of spirits and that's how its been until about a week ago when I tried to taper off.

Went back to AA last Friday but drank 2 pints the next day without telling anyone even my sponsor. Didn't drink Sunday, or Monday but caved in again last night and had 7pints doing a pub quiz with a mate, feel so guilty as no-one knows, but feel too ashamed to tell anyone.

So its ANOTHER day 1, need to fight this, a friend text me wanting me to go out tomorrow night with them and its so hard to say no even though I know its killing me, I miss the social side and will find it especially hard over the x-mas period, so that's where Im at.

Feel like an idiot but have no other option but to try again....

MissOverIt

1stepup, you're not an idiot, this is hard. Have you thought about telling people? It might help. I've told my family and some friends that I don't want to drink anymore. Didn't give them all the details but it was really helpful for me developing my new life and habits. Hugs.

Dee74

I agree 1 step you're not an idiot...but you need to accept you're an alcoholic or this thing will kill you man.

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FacingFuture

I'm right there with you! I gave in yesterday to anxiety and a hangover. I stopped halfway through a bottle of wine and poured the rest out. Feeling better today (new day 1). Crap, now I have to edit my Signature

JayEl

Well my work day is over, just need to feed the family and get the house settled. Pretty yuck kind of day but I did not drink and will not drink today. I need to pop out of this negative mood, feeling really down on myself for past actions. Guess that's to be expected.

Welcome to everyone new and keep hanging in there to all of us!

I will not drink today.

FacingFuture

Try and forgive yourself for your past actions, and get positive. I think attitude have an incredible effect on our ability to recover. You can do this!

JayEl

Thanks! I'm going to work through it. At least I'm sober! Thanks for responding.

Medion

hi

please can I join December class - just scraping into Day 4 and feeling pretty good

1stepup

Thanks MissOverIt and Dee, my family and friends all know I have a problem with alcohol, Ive admitted to most that Im an alcoholic and have been in and out of AA since my late twenties (Im 34 now), the majority of my non drinking friends in AA and out and family don't realise that I have been sneaking a few here and there over the past week, haven't been blackout drunk in that time but know Im lying and deceiving people who care about me.

Ive had several warnings from doctors and hospital specialists that I need to stop drinking totally for at least 6months for my body to heal but yet I can't seem to do it, managed about 11weeks before the last slip in end of October and apart from a few days here and there Ive drank since.

Made it through today sober so I have a chance just find it hard to deal with regret shame and guilt and they all intensify when my head clears from the drink so its a vicious circle- I drink to avoid emotions I don't like but know deep down its making everything worse.