Day 38. I'm becoming pretty annoyed with small things that are going on in my life and my inner voice keeps telling me to have some drinks relax and stuff. But I know if I do that is just the start of another bender and have to fight the urge. My sister n laws 30th birthday is next weekend and she is throwing a huge party and asking me why I might not go with an annoyed look in her tone. I've told my wife (who is going) that it's best for me to not being around people that are drinking right now. She gets it but others don't. I feel alone being the only one In my family and friends that is trying hard to be sober. If I end up going to be social I'll be in a bad mood the whole time so it's best I don't go. Now that the kids have a sitter for the night and wife is gone to a party on a Friday night I'm stuck being alone and don't know what to do. Ugh. Stay strong people and welcome newcomers!