MrFixit63

Toddle sometimes when we fix things we have to make sure we have the right tools and are prepared to do whatever it takes to fix it. It will get better what you gonna have to work at leave the pills and drink alone we're here to help you as much as we can but you have to find some new tools for your sober toolbox

toddle118

but there is no box, im so angry, no tool would help, but i understand this is for recovery,so maybe i blab somewhere else

MrFixit63

No Toddle please stay here

Dee74

If you want things to change Toddle, there's no better support than SR

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MrFixit63

I will now shut up

Dee74

Your advice is golden Mr F

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toddle118

no not shut up, but we are all struggling so i dont want to make ppl feel worse, because i care about sr marchers, that all

enfinthechange

Hey toddle... Don't leave us, and we won't shut up I promise, unless u tell us to!!! Just keep talking, chatting, asking questions, getting answers and use us!!! What do u think will help you just one tiny weeny bit... Chocolate??? A song??? Screaming?? Walking?? Posting the longest post ever on here...

Just do it, but you know booze won't help, it will make everything screwy and more pants!!! Xx

Sparkos

Feeling pants myself too Toddle.
For me, it's far too easy to sit and dwell on things.
I have no job, no money, threatening letters and arrears from everywhere, father recently diagnosed with the big C etc. etc. So a pretty pants time.
I've been on lexapro for a few years, but add alcohol to the mix and I may as well been on smarties!

I do understand depression.

I simply HAVE to stay sober to have any chance.

So today I'm tilling my veg patch with a tiny fork and it's going to take me all day.
The problems will still be there at the end of it, but I won't drink.
Tomorrow, hopefully, I may feel better and attend to some of the issues I can change in my life. I just KNOW I won't if I drink.

For now, today, just try and do something, anything.
Cup of tea, walk, wash your hair, tend to the pussycats.

You will feel better. Can't promise when, but you will.

Peace and hugs.

toddle118

gosh am like the most depressed person on here

KimsFriend

Toddle, I have no words to ease the pain you are feeling.
But I do know that drinking and pills make the pain much worse. I know you know that too.
Just for today - put the drink down and the pills down. Just for today. Worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes - but just for today be sober.
You deserve this.

KimsFriend

Truer words have not been spoken today.

toddle118

thank you sparkie, try not be blue, cant have bath as no water, still never mind x

Sparkos

I also made bread today.
Stupid AV thought was......... Hmm yeast, they make alcohol out of that!!!!!

KimsFriend

Since I quit drinking I have:

- Played on the floor with my two year old and enjoyed myself
- Listened to another persons story with genuine interest in what they said
- Answered the phone when my brother called me instead of sending it to voicemail
- Thanked my mother for a box of toys she sent my son instead of ignoring her
- Resolved a major issue at work without screaming and anger
- Tackled some outstanding bills instead of shoving them in a corner hoping they would go away
- Planned a Good Friday full of Easter activities for my son and family - none of which include drinking

So grateful to be sober. I hope that anyone still suffering can see these lists and know that this gift of sobriety is here for anyone willing to grasp it. It does get better.

KimsFriend

LMAO - I was cleaning my bathroom cabinet out and found a mini bottle of mouthwash. I read the ingredients and saw there was alcohol in it and thought "hmmm... so if I drink this would I get a buzz?"
I didn't try it.

adams

Yea, I have a bad sore throat and congestion and by 2am was standing in front of the medicine cabinet eyeballing the Nyquil. Can't say I was really nervous but I did give it a good second thought, hmmmm this is like 25% alcohol.... Plus the medecine part,...careful will Rogers. Tines past I would have been very much looking forward to the high coming from medecine. It was all good thou, end up getting a couple hours of shut eye and no boogeyman under the bed came out and shoved a bottle of vodka in my mouth.

adams

I hear that. Taking an actual interest in life outside the radius of our drinking arm is pretty coo.

enfinthechange

Poor you sparky,sounds like a whole lotta crap to deal with... You always give out such kind words and wisdom on here, I wish you a whole lotta luck n strength! Xxx

enfinthechange

Kim's friend, you doing soooo well, awesome....
Toddle, U might not be the most depressed person on here, but I'm sorry u are depressed at all,my mind is a total **** up, but hoping more normal will be occurring once I give the brain a chance!!!!
Adams,medicine has had me thinking ... Is it OK if 2 TSP of 25% alcohol... Hope so, as I had cough meds...didn't make me drink the lot or anything!!!!
Going to make a beetroot cake methinks