Class Of March 2014 Part 9
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Keep posting Toddle! It's fine, truly it is. We've all been through some crap and I for one am happy to hear from you. Saying you're putting it on us all is something I used to do and believe me, from this end, it is no bother! 
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I'm closer than you might think Toddle, about 3 years ago I spent 8 days in London at an all time low having split up from my wife, waiting for a plane back to Aus. Man that was a tough week. I wasn't far from Camden Town either.
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Join Date: Mar 2014
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Hi all,
Just been catching up on posts after a night out at a music forum I chair. In a pub and the lime and sodas went down well.
Toddle - you gave us a bit of a scare there. Really, really glad that you're back posting. I'm in the same time zone, others are and others aren't far behind. Those links that Dee sent sound like they could be useful? But use us as well eh? That's what this support network is all about. When does your Mum get back?
Sean
Just been catching up on posts after a night out at a music forum I chair. In a pub and the lime and sodas went down well.
Toddle - you gave us a bit of a scare there. Really, really glad that you're back posting. I'm in the same time zone, others are and others aren't far behind. Those links that Dee sent sound like they could be useful? But use us as well eh? That's what this support network is all about. When does your Mum get back?
Sean
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Originally Posted by Ilya 
But higher power? Well I have always felt drawn to math and science to make me sense the higher power and the vastness of the universe. Feeling small and like my problems are in a wash of infinite little problems or celebrations or nosehairs or blades of grass or geologic movements... takes away the importance of the issue and is massively relieving to me. Because my subjectivity is removed and I'm not the focus and there is no focus. Just the grand chaos clock churning in fractal directions... That's god and higher power to me. Maybe that's what they mean -- to take away the importance (so to speak, I mean hierarchically) of you and remind you of the bigger picture, thus releasing a lot of worry and control because we really are just so small Oy. What a day.
For me, the acceptance of a higher power was out of the low point that I had gotten to. All of my life I was so controlling and manipulative. I believed in God, but I had no spiritual connection to Him. I wanted to do things my way, on my terms.
I have mentioned before that this is the first time I have truly attempted quitting drinking in over 20 years. And I mean that. All those years I had plenty of reasons to stop, but I did not want to. I wanted things my way. Even if it meant total chaos.
When I woke up 24 days ago and my husband was standing over me telling me he was done, that he was not going to raise our little boy in this house with this drunk of a mother, something in me finally broke. I can't say what it was. I did not cry, I did not argue back. I just broke.
I cannot do this on my own because I am not strong enough to battle my "self". I have to hand it over to God. It's the only thing that is going to work for me.
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I'm feeling better every day I hope everyone else is feeling the same. It's hard to believe how much of our life we have missed for drinking it almost seems like there's more hours in the day when you're sober. Hope everyone's having a great week
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Good morning. I am out of milk.
Can someone run some up, please and thank you.
Glad toddle came back. I don't know what to make of the posts from last night, but I'm glad she came back and sounded somewhat better for a post or two.
Can someone run some up, please and thank you.
Glad toddle came back. I don't know what to make of the posts from last night, but I'm glad she came back and sounded somewhat better for a post or two.
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Originally Posted by biminiblue
Good morning. I am out of milk.
Can someone run some up, please and thank you.
Can someone run some up, please and thank you.
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Originally Posted by KimsFriend
I actually run a milk processing, packaging and distribution company. So yes - I could help out on this one! LOL.
Wait. How long will that take? I'm just selfish enough to run to the store instead of waiting for your generous act of kindness.
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I just used my sober wallet and bought this I'm so excited lot better than a hangover
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Originally Posted by biminiblue
ha ha. Love it. Asking for help never fails me.
Wait. How long will that take? I'm just selfish enough to run to the store instead of waiting for your generous act of kindness.
Wait. How long will that take? I'm just selfish enough to run to the store instead of waiting for your generous act of kindness.
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Okay, I now have proof. I cannot moderate my drinking. I made it to 15 days sober and decided to see if I could moderate. Nope, can't do it. So now that's out of the way.
I'm back and in it for the long haul. Just spent time catching up on all that I missed during my experiment. Missed you guys! I don't have any kitties as my husband is very allergic to them, but I do have 2 pups. I'll try to post some pics...
I'm back and in it for the long haul. Just spent time catching up on all that I missed during my experiment. Missed you guys! I don't have any kitties as my husband is very allergic to them, but I do have 2 pups. I'll try to post some pics...
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Originally Posted by Boobeary
Okay, I now have proof. I cannot moderate my drinking. I made it to 15 days sober and decided to see if I could moderate. Nope, can't do it. So now that's out of the way.
I'm back and in it for the long haul. Just spent time catching up on all that I missed during my experiment. Missed you guys! I don't have any kitties as my husband is very allergic to them, but I do have 2 pups. I'll try to post some pics...
I'm back and in it for the long haul. Just spent time catching up on all that I missed during my experiment. Missed you guys! I don't have any kitties as my husband is very allergic to them, but I do have 2 pups. I'll try to post some pics...
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