liss74

Year ago I started my journey smack bang worse off thanx dee love you V x

Dee74

Some journeys take longer than others liss - mine took 15 years.

Don't ever give up hope. It's completely possible for you to be sober. I believe in you
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venuscat

I do too liss, with all my heart.
My journey has been very different than anything I had imagined.
Tough year.
I'm hoping this one can be better. .. We can do this!

Love V xx

liss74

Thanks went to meeting broke down then came home to drama omg anyway try try and try again much love to u all x

venuscat

That's all we can do liss, keep trying....and know you have tons of support hun.

V xx

SereneEdition

Happy Valentines Day!!!

liss - sending you hugs

Once again, so thankful to have you all on this journey.

Back to Mel's question - I think I would tell my future self - take the vitamins and start exercising. I know that sounds lame, but I started to feel much better once I started getting the right nutrients.

venuscat

Hello Serene love ♥

Doesn't sound lame at all....my cleaning work (as much as I hated it) made a huge difference for me...I was so out of shape, and getting in better shape and taking care of myself physically gave me the strength to cope with the cr*p life threw at me last year...now, I'm more dedicated than ever to living a healthy life.

Now I crave fitness and health like I used to crave alcohol. Nice huh?

V xx ♥

SereneEdition

That's Awesome V - Health and Exercise are the secret thing to crave in all of this I think. I'm still getting there. I'm still craving food and coffee, although the cravings are way less intense now that I know how to recognize my emotions, and don't feel the need to drown them out as the only coping mechanism.

To my previous response, I think the HALT tool combined with recognizing the AV as just the AV self talk early on were my 2 key tools that made the difference.

1stepup

Hi friends, hope all is well with you, well its a year or there about since we met and wow what a journey! Unfortunately I slipped again last weekend and although sober now im gutted after going nearly four months sober.

Been thinking of all those of us that started in pain and fear and came together in joy or sadness, I remember Ub3, newlifeforme, Precious Kitty ,Starbaby and many, many more.

It was a light of hope in place of desperation and darkness, a place of unity, and a place of safety. There have been many laughs and many tears but it was mainly good fun!!


Ive decided to have a break from the whole alcoholism subject for a while, think my mind has been obsessed and going through step one with my sponsor made me realise I need to take stock of my life and see where I want it to go, which means having a break from AA and this site- not forever but for the foreseeable future.

Thank you all so much for being my friends through the good and bad days, I truly have been blessed to have you in my life. Wish you all the best in life. Love Lee x

venuscat

Love you too Lee ~ I wish you all the very best if you come back to read this....
I'm kinda (read very) sad to see you go...I will miss you a lot.
Hope that you and your daughters stay well and happy.

V xx (((hugs)))

1stepup

Thank you Venus, il come back at some point, personal thank you to you. Love ya lots. x

liss74

Just a drunk

Dee74

None of us is just a drunk Liss - we're always more than that
I hope you're doing ok.

Lee, I left you a message in the September group. Don;t stay away for the wroing reasons ok? Take care

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venuscat

liss my darling ~ I sent you a text.
I understand how you feel...I felt that way. I was going to give up. All I wanted was to live as long as little V. Then I didn't care.
You know me....is that what you would have wanted for me?

This thing is hard...alcohol is a nasty beast. It grabs hold, and laughs at us.
But we are stronger than the booze, stronger than the beast.
I promise you.

Don't give up hun.
Tomorrow is a new day.

Love V xx

SereneEdition

1step - sad to see you go. Thanks for swing by to let us know. We're here when you decide to come back.

V- Wow, Congratulations on 6,000+ texts this year!!!! Amazing work

venuscat

I want to share something that happened last night. It's going to sound silly, but it was big for me.

When I quit smoking grass last year, I threw out the bits and pieces that went along with that world. It was cathartic. Yet every day, when I open the cupboard in my kitchen, there was one lone wine glass looking out at me. It was just a glass, and it was my mum's, so I never really thought of getting rid of it.

Last night I opened the cupboard to get something, and I accidentally knocked it, and it fell and smashed into a million pieces. Not fun for little V who was eating her dinner at the time (she is fine, don't worry), but wow.

As I cleaned up the pieces with the brush and shovel, I felt this lovely feeling of peace come over me. A sense of completion. As if that was alcoholic me who was broken on the floor, and this is the new me, standing tall, ready for life.

I know, it was just a glass.

Love to all,

V xx

Dee74

I think it's wonderfully symbolic V.

Our new whole self sweeping up the debris of our old shattered life

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wehav2day

Mel, sorry this is so late but HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!! You are awesome! And I don't even hate you for sunbathing when I'm stuck in the frozen tundra, because it's your anniversary!!

Wow v, that was shiver inducing symbolic. Very cool (not for the glass, but I'm sure you have other things to remember mum with). And I lovelovelove your advice to a year ago us. Spot on.

Liss dear, NOBODY is "just a drunk," least of all you. You can do this kiddo. Get that crap out of your system, off the table of options, and get to know the wonderful, sober, real you.

Liss and 1step, stay in aa, leave aa. Post more here, kick back and read. Do life ring, go to therapy, park your butts in a rehab unit... Who gives a rats ass what you choose as long as it's good for you and helps you. You both are so much better than this!

melissa6381

Thanks wehav! I grew up in Boston so I feel for you, hope the winter won't be too terrible

V the glass is a message from the universe, thanks for sharing that beautiful moment with us

SereneEdition

V - thank you for sharing. I sense a rebirth through your post - something seems to have shifted.

Liss - I notice your self talk is pretty negative, which makes it hard to go in a positive direction. Maybe just focus on keeping the self talk positive will help. Self talk has a huge impact.

Hi Dee!

Wehav - I have trouble recalling - when will we be celebrating your 1 year?

Hi Mel - hope you enjoyed your day