Class of September 2013 - Part 14
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Welcome back Plenny loved your letter thanks for sharing.
Feeling low here today I think I might be in the same boat as Iommy things that hubby says are just not adding up. I feel so torn head telling me one thing heart another love him dearly but not sure if I like some parts of his personality.
Anyways hope you all have a great sober Monday xx
Feeling low here today I think I might be in the same boat as Iommy things that hubby says are just not adding up. I feel so torn head telling me one thing heart another love him dearly but not sure if I like some parts of his personality.
Anyways hope you all have a great sober Monday xx
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Hey Tallia
Keep your chin up. Second guessing is torturous. Can you focus just on your day and what is within your control ? Let the chips fall where they may. We can only hope for the best. Stay strong, calm and peaceful !
Keep your chin up. Second guessing is torturous. Can you focus just on your day and what is within your control ? Let the chips fall where they may. We can only hope for the best. Stay strong, calm and peaceful !
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Wow, I went to bed early last night. Seemed the safest thing to do, and so much has happened.
Plenny, I am so glad you are back posting with us, and I was worried for you too, and sad for us. Nurture yourself for a few days and you should feel better.
Lommey, I am so sorry for your pain, and that your husband has not been home. Has he come around at all yet? Do you have children? ((((lommey))))
And Tallia, sorry that you are also going through having doubts.
I hope you both can weather this without drinking. I know it would be very hard, were I in your situation. But you will function better through anything sober. You know that, right?
Nothing much here. I was feeling whiney and srry for myself yesterday about not being able to be a mature, normal drinker and so, just read a few pages of my RR book and went to bed.
I have it on the bookshelf in the family room this morning and will read more today.
Plenny, I am so glad you are back posting with us, and I was worried for you too, and sad for us. Nurture yourself for a few days and you should feel better.
Lommey, I am so sorry for your pain, and that your husband has not been home. Has he come around at all yet? Do you have children? ((((lommey))))
And Tallia, sorry that you are also going through having doubts.
I hope you both can weather this without drinking. I know it would be very hard, were I in your situation. But you will function better through anything sober. You know that, right?
Nothing much here. I was feeling whiney and srry for myself yesterday about not being able to be a mature, normal drinker and so, just read a few pages of my RR book and went to bed.
I have it on the bookshelf in the family room this morning and will read more today.
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Originally Posted by Plenny 
That's a good idea Melina.
"Before you go out tonight,
I'm writing this on day 1 after a 10 day binge that resulted in one slip up, one night, when I was nervous and navigating a situation I hadn't navigated sober. I thought I'd feel relaxed and in control and euphoric. I thought I'd find camaraderie through drinking with others. I thought I'd bounce back after one night and go back to my normal sober self.
The opposite happened. I became more nervous after a drink. So I had more. The euphoria never happened, and the control went out the window. The old demons of low self esteem and self-consciousness came creeping back. So I had more drinks. Then, I succeeded in deafening ALL of my voices. I didn't care how I acted and didn't feel anything. I didn't do anything damaging but I COULD have and I WOULDN'T have cared. I did behave like a person I'm not really proud of. And, if I had stayed sober I would have been very proud of myself because I do like myself sober.
I didn't recover from the one slip. I woke up shaking and drank all day the next day and behaved exactly the same way. Then the next day. And then the next seven days after that. Now I'm here and I think to myself that nothing I did was enhanced by drinking. It was only darker. And more chaotic. And if I hadn't done it I would be feeling proud of myself and my week, and I'd remember it.
So before you go out tonight, remember that nothing changes for the better when you're drinking. And there is room for nothing else in your life when you open that bottle or get that glass of wine. It's all a fantasy based on a chemical addiction and propaganda.
And if you keep breathing and keep getting through each moment, you'll make it through the night, sober."
"Before you go out tonight,
I'm writing this on day 1 after a 10 day binge that resulted in one slip up, one night, when I was nervous and navigating a situation I hadn't navigated sober. I thought I'd feel relaxed and in control and euphoric. I thought I'd find camaraderie through drinking with others. I thought I'd bounce back after one night and go back to my normal sober self.
The opposite happened. I became more nervous after a drink. So I had more. The euphoria never happened, and the control went out the window. The old demons of low self esteem and self-consciousness came creeping back. So I had more drinks. Then, I succeeded in deafening ALL of my voices. I didn't care how I acted and didn't feel anything. I didn't do anything damaging but I COULD have and I WOULDN'T have cared. I did behave like a person I'm not really proud of. And, if I had stayed sober I would have been very proud of myself because I do like myself sober.
I didn't recover from the one slip. I woke up shaking and drank all day the next day and behaved exactly the same way. Then the next day. And then the next seven days after that. Now I'm here and I think to myself that nothing I did was enhanced by drinking. It was only darker. And more chaotic. And if I hadn't done it I would be feeling proud of myself and my week, and I'd remember it.
So before you go out tonight, remember that nothing changes for the better when you're drinking. And there is room for nothing else in your life when you open that bottle or get that glass of wine. It's all a fantasy based on a chemical addiction and propaganda.
And if you keep breathing and keep getting through each moment, you'll make it through the night, sober."
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Welcome back Plenny. I'm so glad you found your way back to us! Try not to focus too much on those 10 days rather use it as validation that you are unable to be a normal drinker. Then just one dAy at a time remind yourself of this. Or read your letter.. It is awesome 
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((Tallia)) I don't know what to say, except that I care. Very much.
Plenny, so good that you have found your way out of that dark week. And you're part of our family, so I'm very happy you want to stay with us Septies. Thank you for that profound letter. I think I'll paste it on my "notes to self" file I keep open, if you don't mind.
Off to work soon, last day for this week for me. See you guys and gals later. XO
Plenny, so good that you have found your way out of that dark week. And you're part of our family, so I'm very happy you want to stay with us Septies. Thank you for that profound letter. I think I'll paste it on my "notes to self" file I keep open, if you don't mind.
Off to work soon, last day for this week for me. See you guys and gals later. XO
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So I have a ticket to PINK for this Friday. I bought the ticket awhile ago and wel before becoming sober. I try not to think much beyond today but I cannot help but have some anxiety about it. I am having a hard enough time getting through the weekend without adding a night surrounded by drinking and rocking out. I just don't feel strong enough yet to do something like this sober. For me I think it is too soon. I love PINK and apart of me is super bummed to miss it but I know the second I put something before my sobriety than I'm in trouble.
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Originally Posted by FishnHippy
I'm sorry if this is a stupid question what about foods cooked with wine and beer? I've been wanting muscles in a wine sauce for a few days
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Originally Posted by kellbell123
So I have a ticket to PINK for this Friday. I bought the ticket awhile ago and wel before becoming sober. I try not to think much beyond today but I cannot help but have some anxiety about it. I am having a hard enough time getting through the weekend without adding a night surrounded by drinking and rocking out. I just don't feel strong enough yet to do something like this sober. For me I think it is too soon. I love PINK and apart of me is super bummed to miss it but I know the second I put something before my sobriety than I'm in trouble.
That would be a shame. There isnt any way to just see the concert without the alcohol ? Just go straight to the stadium and out ?
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Originally Posted by FishnHippy
I'm sorry if this is a stupid question what about foods cooked with wine and beer? I've been wanting mussels in a wine sauce for a few days
As far as mussels....
Perhaps a light chicken stock with a hit of citrus or vinegar for the acidity of wine? Get stock about a half inch up your pot to boil, with aromats of your choice. Maybe some nice fresh thyme. Set a chopped fresh jalapeņo to swimming in there and some whole pink peppercorns. Once reduced halfway, add a couple dozen cleaned mussels, reduce heat, cover pot for a few till mussels open. Finish with some butter stirred in and the zest of an orange. Salt to taste. Serve with crusty French bread.
Mmmmmm!
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Originally Posted by FishnHippy
I'm sorry if this is a stupid question what about foods cooked with wine and beer? I've been wanting mussels in a wine sauce for a few days
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