Class of March 2013 Part 10
Living and Loving Life at Last
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FBL, well done for coming to your senses in time. Something you said about being self destructive and not believeing yourself worthy of nice things happening, will send echoes through most of us reading it. Whether it is the type of person who is drawn to destructive addictions, or whether the addiction itself works against our self esteem, I have seen and personally experience time and again that feeling of self destruction and the lack of self esteem. Go look at yourself in the mirror. Look yourself in the eye and tell yourself out loud " I am a good person. I am worthy of being loved. I deserve a good life. I love my self today"
Repeat twice daily or more frequently if required!
Repeat twice daily or more frequently if required!
Every Mother's Worst Nightmare
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Deep in the heart of LaLa land
Posts: 688
Brilliant stuff! Flip it FBL - what you've just done took real courage. Don't dwell on the "what was I doing?" Focus on the "Look what I just did!"
And you'll wake up tomorrow and be able to look your mirror reflection right in the eyes and smile, knowing that you do have the inner-strength to come out on top of any dicey situation you walk across.
And you'll wake up tomorrow and be able to look your mirror reflection right in the eyes and smile, knowing that you do have the inner-strength to come out on top of any dicey situation you walk across.
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Florida
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Originally Posted by tootsl1 
Thank you everyone for your posts,heck this gives me food for thought. If it was only about me and hubby, it would be a really exciting opportunity too good to miss. Unfortunately there are many other considerations, not least My sweet avatar!
We have adult children ( who never stop being your kids) a 7 year old grandson we see all the time.
We have ageing parents with health issues
I would have to give up the job I love
So you see, really not straight forward!
I will need to sleep on it.
At least I will make the decision sober!!
r. 
We have adult children ( who never stop being your kids) a 7 year old grandson we see all the time.
We have ageing parents with health issues
I would have to give up the job I love
So you see, really not straight forward!
I will need to sleep on it.
At least I will make the decision sober!!
r.
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Guys,
I appreciated the original point Toots made.
I appreciate passion, I appreciate plain talking - but there's plain talking and then there's something else.
We set these threads up as support networks - for everyone, not just for those of you who get it right first time.
It's my job to make everyone feel welcome, and some of you are making that a little hard with the posts today.
Not everyone responds to the Chuck Norris approach.
Frankly, right or not, back in 07 that would have turned me off SR and back to my BS.
A little compassion and empathy is not a weakness.
If you have issues with posts or posters, use the ignore function.
D
I appreciated the original point Toots made.
I appreciate passion, I appreciate plain talking - but there's plain talking and then there's something else.
We set these threads up as support networks - for everyone, not just for those of you who get it right first time.
It's my job to make everyone feel welcome, and some of you are making that a little hard with the posts today.
Not everyone responds to the Chuck Norris approach.
Frankly, right or not, back in 07 that would have turned me off SR and back to my BS.
A little compassion and empathy is not a weakness.
If you have issues with posts or posters, use the ignore function.
D
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: San Antonio, TX
Posts: 9
Originally Posted by forabetterlife
Hello my friends: I have not had a chance to catch up on 2 days of posts but I will.
I just need to get this off my chest because less than 2 minutes ago I was chilling a beer in the freezer as well as a nice frosty mug. Today was actually less stressful than usual and driving home from work I decided, then and there, in the car, that I was drinking that 16 oz beer I've been hiding in my closet. I put it in the freezer 45 minutes ago and that was that- I was doing it. Just one beer, I deserve it. I really don't have a problem, I just needed to stop for a while to lose some weight. Right? Wrong. I thought of my 40 + days of not drinking, how good I feel when I wake up, how much better every single thing in my life is when I don't drink. One beer? I already was telling myself that I could always just run out for another four pack if I "needed" to.
I'm not doing it. I dumped the beer, I'm drinking some hot tea and I'm spilling my guts to all of you because I know you understand and realize how big of a deal this is. I also thought of all of you and how we are all struggling in our own way and I want to stay strong, to be able to help people someday, and not go back to day one.
Why today? I don't know. All I can think of is that part of me does not feel deserving of how good things are going and how good I feel, that I want to sabotage it, subconsciously. I found out some really good financial news today (I'm a single mother, a teacher, and totally live paycheck to paycheck)..maybe that's part of it too- a celebration.
Sorry this is so long-winded and self-absorbed. I'm glad I somehow pulled through, but I'm scared out my mind that I gave my addicted self that much power. I'm going to put on my PJ's, read, watch TV and probably break down and cry to myself. I know it's a good thing that I stopped myself, but right now it doesn't feel so good.
I just need to get this off my chest because less than 2 minutes ago I was chilling a beer in the freezer as well as a nice frosty mug. Today was actually less stressful than usual and driving home from work I decided, then and there, in the car, that I was drinking that 16 oz beer I've been hiding in my closet. I put it in the freezer 45 minutes ago and that was that- I was doing it. Just one beer, I deserve it. I really don't have a problem, I just needed to stop for a while to lose some weight. Right? Wrong. I thought of my 40 + days of not drinking, how good I feel when I wake up, how much better every single thing in my life is when I don't drink. One beer? I already was telling myself that I could always just run out for another four pack if I "needed" to.
I'm not doing it. I dumped the beer, I'm drinking some hot tea and I'm spilling my guts to all of you because I know you understand and realize how big of a deal this is. I also thought of all of you and how we are all struggling in our own way and I want to stay strong, to be able to help people someday, and not go back to day one.
Why today? I don't know. All I can think of is that part of me does not feel deserving of how good things are going and how good I feel, that I want to sabotage it, subconsciously. I found out some really good financial news today (I'm a single mother, a teacher, and totally live paycheck to paycheck)..maybe that's part of it too- a celebration.
Sorry this is so long-winded and self-absorbed. I'm glad I somehow pulled through, but I'm scared out my mind that I gave my addicted self that much power. I'm going to put on my PJ's, read, watch TV and probably break down and cry to myself. I know it's a good thing that I stopped myself, but right now it doesn't feel so good.
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Join Date: Apr 2013
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Thanks to everybody. Northlander, you are so funny.
Natty, thank you for the clarification. I genuinely appreciate that.
Panache, you're the best.
Dee, sorry to have muddied the waters today. I guess you could say that all families have their moments. We came together, discussed our concerns intelligently and have lovingly moved on in harmony. I'd call that progress on several levels. I actually have a new found respect for many in this room and feel closer to them as a result.
March On!
Natty, thank you for the clarification. I genuinely appreciate that.
Panache, you're the best.
Dee, sorry to have muddied the waters today. I guess you could say that all families have their moments. We came together, discussed our concerns intelligently and have lovingly moved on in harmony. I'd call that progress on several levels. I actually have a new found respect for many in this room and feel closer to them as a result.
March On!
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Rogersville, Tennessee
Posts: 2,659
Hi Marchers,
Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Not much happening around me over the weekend, got some yardwork done. No cravings and AV must have gone on vacation. ( Hope it stays away)
Stay Strong
Ken
Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Not much happening around me over the weekend, got some yardwork done. No cravings and AV must have gone on vacation. ( Hope it stays away)
Stay Strong
Ken
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: US East Coast
Posts: 14,287
Good night, Marchers!
Some controversy today but it sounds like things are ending up ok. Geek, I'm very happy to hear that it sounds like you will be staying with us. We are all different and there are similarities and differences in our journeys. We all have the same goal: to stay sober and hence to grow as individuals into people we can be proud of. No matter what, we are all worthwhile! There is so much support on SR!
FBL, incredible job on pouring out the beer! I don't know if I could do that yet with something in my home. I'm still in a spot where I can't have any alcohol in the house at all and I need to accept that it will very likely always be that way.
Lots of love to all!
Sassy
Some controversy today but it sounds like things are ending up ok. Geek, I'm very happy to hear that it sounds like you will be staying with us. We are all different and there are similarities and differences in our journeys. We all have the same goal: to stay sober and hence to grow as individuals into people we can be proud of. No matter what, we are all worthwhile! There is so much support on SR!
FBL, incredible job on pouring out the beer! I don't know if I could do that yet with something in my home. I'm still in a spot where I can't have any alcohol in the house at all and I need to accept that it will very likely always be that way.
Lots of love to all!
Sassy
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Posts: 1,997
Originally Posted by Soberjanedoe
Day 29! Hells yeah!
Today I am spending all day in the library studying human chromosomes. Wooohoo. *sarcasm*
Today I am spending all day in the library studying human chromosomes. Wooohoo. *sarcasm*
Congratulation on the 29 SJD!!
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Posts: 1,997
Originally Posted by BuddinK
Hi Marchers,
Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Not much happening around me over the weekend, got some yardwork done. No cravings and AV must have gone on vacation. ( Hope it stays away)
Stay Strong
Ken
Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Not much happening around me over the weekend, got some yardwork done. No cravings and AV must have gone on vacation. ( Hope it stays away)
Stay Strong
Ken
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