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I'm sorry Mizz, to hear of the cat travails.. here is my cat story and maybe it will help in some way. Or not, haha.. I'm very allergic to cats. Can't be in the house with them for long before I start wheezing. They are beautiful, cunning and intelligent creatures, no doubt. I enjoy the bobcat who comes by occasionally, and put water out for him. My brother rescued 3 feral cats in 2007 and despite my advice (which he always ignores), couldn't bear to separate them so they became his family members and provided lots of entertainment, but he could hardly travel after that. And I always have to stay in a hotel when I visit him which is not cheap, so I visit less frequently. Sadly, he lost two this summer but still has one left. They tend to rule the lives of their guardians.
I bought a lovely home in the Pacific Northwest about 15 years ago while still working in northern California. The owners were older and seemed nice, but they used these things that plug in and mask the smell and stated in writing that no pets lived in the home so I bought it. For cash. For their price. Unfortunately they were not ethical.. When I walked in on the day I took possession it had been closed up for a week and the smell almost knocked me over. The devices had been removed but were visible in the pics I had taken of the home on my tour of the home. I hadn't realized what they were. I brought in a specialist with a blacklight and the entire basement lit up like the posters we had in the 60's.. one foot off the ground all the way around the room, plus big spots on the floor. The neighbors told me there had been cats. And a dog at times. I threatened to sue them for lying to me and they were enraged. F-U, you old unethical bastard. I settled for $2500 so we could all move on, but it eventually cost me almost $10K to get the smell out because in addition to the old carpet (which I would have replaced anyway) the entire subfloor, part of the sheetrock, and the fireplace had to be ripped out.. So I installed a nice wood stove and in time it turned out to be a very nice space, with a beautiful view into the forest.. but the experience was quite upsetting for me. I will never understand people who deliberately do things like that to others. Well, karma is a real thing.
I understand your frustration, though, and would probably address it before it costs you a lot of money.
I bought a lovely home in the Pacific Northwest about 15 years ago while still working in northern California. The owners were older and seemed nice, but they used these things that plug in and mask the smell and stated in writing that no pets lived in the home so I bought it. For cash. For their price. Unfortunately they were not ethical.. When I walked in on the day I took possession it had been closed up for a week and the smell almost knocked me over. The devices had been removed but were visible in the pics I had taken of the home on my tour of the home. I hadn't realized what they were. I brought in a specialist with a blacklight and the entire basement lit up like the posters we had in the 60's.. one foot off the ground all the way around the room, plus big spots on the floor. The neighbors told me there had been cats. And a dog at times. I threatened to sue them for lying to me and they were enraged. F-U, you old unethical bastard. I settled for $2500 so we could all move on, but it eventually cost me almost $10K to get the smell out because in addition to the old carpet (which I would have replaced anyway) the entire subfloor, part of the sheetrock, and the fireplace had to be ripped out.. So I installed a nice wood stove and in time it turned out to be a very nice space, with a beautiful view into the forest.. but the experience was quite upsetting for me. I will never understand people who deliberately do things like that to others. Well, karma is a real thing.
I understand your frustration, though, and would probably address it before it costs you a lot of money.
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An earthquake rolled on through our part of the world at 2:36 am this morning. Two dead. 11 injured. Over 70,000 without power. Maybe some power has been restored. I don’t know….
I’ve never been in an earthquake of this magnitude and I don’t want to be in one again. Luckily, our home was not destroyed. A few things had to be thrown out and soil covered our carpets from plants.
We started to roll and then the rolling became stronger and stronger. I wasn’t sure when or how or….It was an adrenaline filled early morning wake up call.
The water fountain outside toppled over, and we took this as an opportunity to move it to another part of the yard. sleep has been very little since the earthquake. The aftershocks. It’s a thing.
I have a headache. I’m sober. I’m grateful it wasn’t worse. I feel sad about the people who died. It’s tragic and really unfortunate. Mother Nature can get very real and her realness can come in quick.
tomorrow is a new day. One filled with hope and determination. Today, I am warm, safe, fed, alive, and have a million things to be grateful for.
I’ve never been in an earthquake of this magnitude and I don’t want to be in one again. Luckily, our home was not destroyed. A few things had to be thrown out and soil covered our carpets from plants.
We started to roll and then the rolling became stronger and stronger. I wasn’t sure when or how or….It was an adrenaline filled early morning wake up call.
The water fountain outside toppled over, and we took this as an opportunity to move it to another part of the yard. sleep has been very little since the earthquake. The aftershocks. It’s a thing.
I have a headache. I’m sober. I’m grateful it wasn’t worse. I feel sad about the people who died. It’s tragic and really unfortunate. Mother Nature can get very real and her realness can come in quick.
tomorrow is a new day. One filled with hope and determination. Today, I am warm, safe, fed, alive, and have a million things to be grateful for.
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One of the good things coming from this experience is realizing and knowing that I am not prepared for a natural disaster or disaster of any kind. So, I am now getting us prepared. Being informed and prepared will only help this household, and help me to feel a bit more comfortable when something like this happens again.
I purchased an emergency survival pack that will feed two people for three days. It has all the goods. A first aid kit. Warm blankets. Water. etc.
There is another emergency kit coming with the back pack. It has a knife and some other survival tools. We need to purchase a generator next.
Make sure all our flashlights have batteries. Make sure we keep them in one place. I mean, we sort of did this already but now ITS just not an option to mess around. We were a bit relaxed. The power has finally been restored. They were saying another 12-24 hours at 4ish pm. The Universe has smiled on us though and gave us back the light. Im so grateful for our emergency workers!
.. Its important for me to put this brain of mine to good use.
Keep on moving forward. Stay healthy and happy. ALL!
What does this have to do with sobriety? Just about everything I think.
I purchased an emergency survival pack that will feed two people for three days. It has all the goods. A first aid kit. Warm blankets. Water. etc.
There is another emergency kit coming with the back pack. It has a knife and some other survival tools. We need to purchase a generator next.
Make sure all our flashlights have batteries. Make sure we keep them in one place. I mean, we sort of did this already but now ITS just not an option to mess around. We were a bit relaxed. The power has finally been restored. They were saying another 12-24 hours at 4ish pm. The Universe has smiled on us though and gave us back the light. Im so grateful for our emergency workers!
.. Its important for me to put this brain of mine to good use.
Keep on moving forward. Stay healthy and happy. ALL!
What does this have to do with sobriety? Just about everything I think.
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Sleep has been good the last few nights. Lots of people are in recovery mode from the quake. My felines are back to normal. They hovered around the outside of the house the entire day after the quake. I think thats smart. I mean, I also was outside for quite awhile doing yard stuff and listening to the sound of generators. There is always plenty to do and we dont need electricity to do it.
Advbike- I hear you on the cats and the home. I do have a similar story about when we bought this house. There was a cat named Rudy who lived here before we purchased. We ended up sleeping in the living room for one month until we could get the floors into shape in our bedroom. We made lemonade out of our lemons. It was very frustrating. At this moment, I am grateful for all I have. My problems are minor. One could say they are not even problems.
Happy Thursday.... I think its Thursday?
HAPPY ALL THE DAYS!
Advbike- I hear you on the cats and the home. I do have a similar story about when we bought this house. There was a cat named Rudy who lived here before we purchased. We ended up sleeping in the living room for one month until we could get the floors into shape in our bedroom. We made lemonade out of our lemons. It was very frustrating. At this moment, I am grateful for all I have. My problems are minor. One could say they are not even problems.
Happy Thursday.... I think its Thursday?
HAPPY ALL THE DAYS!
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I bought a book about Boundaries that should arrive in the mail soon.
Its called "The book Of Boundaries: Set the limits that will set you free"
Its the perfect title. Perhaps this book will give me guidance to some of the situations I have experienced and will experience moving forward. I wish we were all given a book like this when we embark out into the world as newly hatched adults. Well, I actually embarked out into the world at the age of young teen....I knew everything when I was a teenager. Everything. Now at almost 43, I can say that I don't know anything. Maybe this book will have "practice sessions" and some homework.
Ive heard about this boundary business for quite awhile but I didnt know how to implement said boundaries. "You need boundaries, Mizz" ....
Okay. Yes, I do. Thank you for telling me this. I also need "boundaries" to be spelled out for me because apparently I was not born with a boundary department.
The ones who say "Boundaries" have offered nothing more than saying I needed boundaries. I dont find that to be helpful when Im in the thick of it. Like, give examples if your going to be throwing around such big meaningful concepts. Thank the heavens for people who identified that some people need a guide map.
Nothing has happened recently to create any friction or upheaval. Its the best time to learn, apply, and generate a greater sense of peace with healthy boundaries.
Work.....
Well, its a challenging time and I am rising to the challenge to the best of my ability. This week will be over soon enough. Im also learning boundaries at work. The one constant is CHANGE.
Its called "The book Of Boundaries: Set the limits that will set you free"
Its the perfect title. Perhaps this book will give me guidance to some of the situations I have experienced and will experience moving forward. I wish we were all given a book like this when we embark out into the world as newly hatched adults. Well, I actually embarked out into the world at the age of young teen....I knew everything when I was a teenager. Everything. Now at almost 43, I can say that I don't know anything. Maybe this book will have "practice sessions" and some homework.
Ive heard about this boundary business for quite awhile but I didnt know how to implement said boundaries. "You need boundaries, Mizz" ....
Okay. Yes, I do. Thank you for telling me this. I also need "boundaries" to be spelled out for me because apparently I was not born with a boundary department.
The ones who say "Boundaries" have offered nothing more than saying I needed boundaries. I dont find that to be helpful when Im in the thick of it. Like, give examples if your going to be throwing around such big meaningful concepts. Thank the heavens for people who identified that some people need a guide map.
Nothing has happened recently to create any friction or upheaval. Its the best time to learn, apply, and generate a greater sense of peace with healthy boundaries.
Work.....
Well, its a challenging time and I am rising to the challenge to the best of my ability. This week will be over soon enough. Im also learning boundaries at work. The one constant is CHANGE.
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Originally Posted by Free2bme888 
Beyond bitchy is a great free podcast aboit boundaries mizz, you can listen in that subaru
After the bath, I opened the new book that arrived yesterday and feel asleep thinking of boundaries. Im now awake and resumed reading about boundaries. Im just putting myself through a crash course of absorbing, owning, and understanding what boundaries are.
The good news is that I have learned that I do have boundaries. I have implemented boundaries. I will continue to implement boundaries that are healthy and appropriate for my personal and professional life. Its not comfortable. Its not supposed to be. It becomes easier as we use our voice in a kind and gentle way.
The most important boundary that I have implemented is: Remaining sober no matter what.
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Fantastic post about boundaries, Mizz. As a person with codependent tendencies, I struggle with them too. It is so true that people throw that word around without ever putting it into the context of the situation or explaining. Glad you're making progress and able to enforce them.
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Happy New Year Mizz, I re-read some of your inspiring posts in preparation for my 2023 goal setting. You are such a bright light of positivity and determination!
Wishing you a fantastic year ahead.. May all your hopes and dreams come true!
Wishing you a fantastic year ahead.. May all your hopes and dreams come true!
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Dear Diary,
Happy NEW YEAR!
The emergency backpack came on Thursday. We had another earthquake this morning. 5.4 magnitude. This one was not as frightening as the last one. Im just going to sit here and wait for the aftershocks while contemplating if moving out of state is something I think is necessary. Let the dramatic mind games ensue!
California has had a hard time over the course of the last decade. The fires. The power outages. The rising cost of just about everything. The almost $6.00 a gallon gas. Im just thinking that perhaps.....Elsewhere is a good idea. Where elsewhere? Im not getting any younger. In fact, some would say I am not even young. Im middle of the road. Ill probably never feel like Im middle of anything but that is not the point. The point I am trying to make is that I feel unsafe with my house shaking. I dont have wings and I am not able to get off the ground until the quaking stops. Its just unsettling. Anyways, that is a conversation worthy of having later with my spouse. It will go like this:
Me: I think we should move.
Him: We can go to Colorado.
Me: No. I dont like snow.
Him: We can go to Oregon?
Me: But Im a California Girl
him: We can....
Me: I dont like this idea. Lets not move.
Him: okay. Great conversation. Lets talk about this next month.
Me: Wonderful.
The above conversation has taken place every year, for over 12 years, for various reasons. I like the "idea."
I didnt know it then, but getting sober and getting healthy is one the hardest things I have ever done in my life. My deep alcohol struggle lasted for over ten years. It was a struggle that was not worthy of all that precious time, but when you know better you do better. I dont feel like I wasted anything. I just feel......relieved. Finally relieved. The main goal was happiness. What did that look like? My insides were all scrambled with overthinking and dwelling, ruminating, and then circling. My heart was broken. I was not a friend to myself or even a good friend to anyone. No boundaries. No sense of belonging. No sense of myself or any self worth. Self esteem? What is that? What do all these things look like when you take the numbing agent away? It looks like a broken person laying in a bed wishing for death. Just thinking about my last morning of being hungover for the millionth time makes me a little sad. It also makes me smile wide today. I made it through that mess. Alcohol did a number on me. I did a number on me. I just didnt know how to stand up and take my life into my own hands. I didnt know until I knew.
Two plus years into this sober road and I can say with confidence that I am healthy. I may get sideways at times. My anxiety is its own little monster I have become friends with. My heart is content with the fact I am not running away from challenges any longer. The biggest accomplishment is how i am not making a mess of myself or my life. I do the things I need to do and then I close up shop for the day. I get back to it in the morning. Do the things. Learn the stuff. Make some mistakes. Show up with honesty. Work on the internal stuff. Things start to shift and change with enough effort. Im not so good with the "Other people" stuff. I seem cold or distant. The truth is that I have a hard enough time just staying grounded myself. I cant take on "others" and I wont be doing that if it causes internal suffering. I'm just not here for all the "others." I play by the rules. I give what I can. I have limits. Some of my limits are being tested right now but I am finding a way through. I get to have a stopping point with just about anything.
I have learned some new boundaries. I walked into Boundaries R US and told them I was in need of everything they could give me. Professional boundaries. Personal boundaries. Words that will let a boundary "sound" kind. I am a direct person. Being direct means....Being direct. Ive noticed the others do not know what to do with direct. Its like an assault to their feelings. So, I am learning and have been learning my entire life on how to be softer with my words. Im not unkind but Im also not going to put sweetener all over a hard conversation. I dont have too. I also can take the hard conversation without the sweetener. Ive had plenty of those in my life.
There seems to be something about age that helps a person to care a lot less about stuff. Ill be 43 at the end of this month. My care meter is running but its not running so high that its all im operating off of. More compartmentalization. Less heightened internal drama. At least less internal drama for now. One never knows when the internal boat will start to rock. Im learning about that too. Its always a learning process.
Advbike and All the peeps on this forum:
HAPPY NEW YEAR! We got this. We are strong people. Doing the work to help the world go round in a more peaceful way. Being sober will change your life.
We should all be glad to not have alcohol poisoning today!
Happy NEW YEAR!
The emergency backpack came on Thursday. We had another earthquake this morning. 5.4 magnitude. This one was not as frightening as the last one. Im just going to sit here and wait for the aftershocks while contemplating if moving out of state is something I think is necessary. Let the dramatic mind games ensue!
California has had a hard time over the course of the last decade. The fires. The power outages. The rising cost of just about everything. The almost $6.00 a gallon gas. Im just thinking that perhaps.....Elsewhere is a good idea. Where elsewhere? Im not getting any younger. In fact, some would say I am not even young. Im middle of the road. Ill probably never feel like Im middle of anything but that is not the point. The point I am trying to make is that I feel unsafe with my house shaking. I dont have wings and I am not able to get off the ground until the quaking stops. Its just unsettling. Anyways, that is a conversation worthy of having later with my spouse. It will go like this:
Me: I think we should move.
Him: We can go to Colorado.
Me: No. I dont like snow.
Him: We can go to Oregon?
Me: But Im a California Girl
him: We can....
Me: I dont like this idea. Lets not move.
Him: okay. Great conversation. Lets talk about this next month.
Me: Wonderful.
The above conversation has taken place every year, for over 12 years, for various reasons. I like the "idea."
I didnt know it then, but getting sober and getting healthy is one the hardest things I have ever done in my life. My deep alcohol struggle lasted for over ten years. It was a struggle that was not worthy of all that precious time, but when you know better you do better. I dont feel like I wasted anything. I just feel......relieved. Finally relieved. The main goal was happiness. What did that look like? My insides were all scrambled with overthinking and dwelling, ruminating, and then circling. My heart was broken. I was not a friend to myself or even a good friend to anyone. No boundaries. No sense of belonging. No sense of myself or any self worth. Self esteem? What is that? What do all these things look like when you take the numbing agent away? It looks like a broken person laying in a bed wishing for death. Just thinking about my last morning of being hungover for the millionth time makes me a little sad. It also makes me smile wide today. I made it through that mess. Alcohol did a number on me. I did a number on me. I just didnt know how to stand up and take my life into my own hands. I didnt know until I knew.
Two plus years into this sober road and I can say with confidence that I am healthy. I may get sideways at times. My anxiety is its own little monster I have become friends with. My heart is content with the fact I am not running away from challenges any longer. The biggest accomplishment is how i am not making a mess of myself or my life. I do the things I need to do and then I close up shop for the day. I get back to it in the morning. Do the things. Learn the stuff. Make some mistakes. Show up with honesty. Work on the internal stuff. Things start to shift and change with enough effort. Im not so good with the "Other people" stuff. I seem cold or distant. The truth is that I have a hard enough time just staying grounded myself. I cant take on "others" and I wont be doing that if it causes internal suffering. I'm just not here for all the "others." I play by the rules. I give what I can. I have limits. Some of my limits are being tested right now but I am finding a way through. I get to have a stopping point with just about anything.
I have learned some new boundaries. I walked into Boundaries R US and told them I was in need of everything they could give me. Professional boundaries. Personal boundaries. Words that will let a boundary "sound" kind. I am a direct person. Being direct means....Being direct. Ive noticed the others do not know what to do with direct. Its like an assault to their feelings. So, I am learning and have been learning my entire life on how to be softer with my words. Im not unkind but Im also not going to put sweetener all over a hard conversation. I dont have too. I also can take the hard conversation without the sweetener. Ive had plenty of those in my life.
There seems to be something about age that helps a person to care a lot less about stuff. Ill be 43 at the end of this month. My care meter is running but its not running so high that its all im operating off of. More compartmentalization. Less heightened internal drama. At least less internal drama for now. One never knows when the internal boat will start to rock. Im learning about that too. Its always a learning process.
Advbike and All the peeps on this forum:
HAPPY NEW YEAR! We got this. We are strong people. Doing the work to help the world go round in a more peaceful way. Being sober will change your life.
We should all be glad to not have alcohol poisoning today!
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Another insightful, upbeat, and amazingly well-articulated post, Mizz. I just wish you would gather them all up from the last two years and publish it already.. “Mizz’s Big Adventures in the Crazy World, (or how I accidentally found myself and became Superwoman after getting sober)”. Self-publish and make it down-loadable, haha. I will buy the personally signed hardcover edition though.
Happy New Year Mizz! I hope it’s a great year for you.
PS - Stay dry! That weather is crazy..
Happy New Year Mizz! I hope it’s a great year for you.
PS - Stay dry! That weather is crazy..
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Originally Posted by advbike
Another insightful, upbeat, and amazingly well-articulated post, Mizz. I just wish you would gather them all up from the last two years and publish it already.. “Mizz’s Big Adventures in the Crazy World, (or how I accidentally found myself and became Superwoman after getting sober)”. Self-publish and make it down-loadable, haha. I will buy the personally signed hardcover edition though.
Happy New Year Mizz! I hope it’s a great year for you.
PS - Stay dry! That weather is crazy..
Happy New Year Mizz! I hope it’s a great year for you.
PS - Stay dry! That weather is crazy..
The weather was an atmospheric river and then it turned into a bomb cyclone. It looks like this storm is staying out in the ocean and has not caused too much damage. I asked my spouse for a ride to work today. I didnt want to drive in, what was supposed to be, 70 mile an hour winds. There were emails about the intensity of this storm, and then the news kind of did me in with a bit of fear. So, I prepared the best I could and then made my way to work. All went well. Flashlights have batteries. The emergency pack is ready. The Candles are plenty. Ground up some coffee beans just in case we wake in the morning with no power. This is kind of typical for our county. Its extreme here. Loads of water falling from the sky. We are not adjusted to the earth shaking and quaking and I PRAY this doesnt become our new normal.
I got in a run today. I lifted weights. I wrote for awhile. Rinse and repeat tomorrow.
Thank you for your belief in me, Advbike. I am getting the writing done and will get something out sometime this year. Its the NUMBER one goal. THE NUMBER ONE GOAL!
Happy New Year! Its going to be amazing.
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The rain is POURING out of the sky since last night. POURING.
What have I been doing?
Ive been listening to my body and then to my brain. My brain has decided to arrest my exercise program. Its more like "We are not going to run or lift weights right now" and then I think "No, we are doing this. This is what we do" and then my brain says "We really are NOT doing this" .......
So, Ive come to the conclusion that I have to find a middle ground here. The last two plus years of diligent structure and sticking to the structure no matter what set me on a really good path. I did get COVID and then an eye surgery which took me out for a bit. After I recovered, I got back to the structure.
I am safe now. I am sailing on the water. I can ease up a bit. I also get to decide what it is that makes for a healthy Mizz. Understanding that there is balance with all of this. I need a little more balance and mainly I want for my head to accept that we are slowing down and slowing down is healthy. So, I have been having a conversation with myself and allowing myself to relax with the exercise. The compromise is that we will exercise 4 days a week for now. This is what we can do and this is acceptable.
What else have I been doing?
Working a lot. Structuring my work. Understanding my work ethic and what is needed to keep the ship sailing in the right direction. Reliable people. Strong work ethic. Self Motivation. Goal Oriented. Task Oriented. RELIABLE PEOPLE. Manual after manual. Thinking and thinking. Basically working towards understanding how my team works and then supplying them with the tools for success. If my team is failing then I am failing. This is not acceptable and will never be acceptable. So, I provide the tools and hope for the best. "Do you have all the tools you need to be successful today?"
I cannot give people self motivation. Self motivation is personal. The self motivation thing is a challenge for one of my employees. This "lack of" has put a nail in our wheel. Needless to say, If they dont like how we sail or where we are sailing then get off the ship. We are a TEAM. We need to think of the TEAM. We are not and will no longer work against one another. Sometimes this comes down to personalities. I think this might be where we are with this one. ...... Its okay. It doesnt have to be the shoe that fits. Im not taking this personally. It is my job to make sure these departments are running successfully. Nothing more and nothing less.
Off to run and then shop for my spouses Birthday. I am so happy he was born. He is a gift to the world.
Sober for 822 days.
What have I been doing?
Ive been listening to my body and then to my brain. My brain has decided to arrest my exercise program. Its more like "We are not going to run or lift weights right now" and then I think "No, we are doing this. This is what we do" and then my brain says "We really are NOT doing this" .......
So, Ive come to the conclusion that I have to find a middle ground here. The last two plus years of diligent structure and sticking to the structure no matter what set me on a really good path. I did get COVID and then an eye surgery which took me out for a bit. After I recovered, I got back to the structure.
I am safe now. I am sailing on the water. I can ease up a bit. I also get to decide what it is that makes for a healthy Mizz. Understanding that there is balance with all of this. I need a little more balance and mainly I want for my head to accept that we are slowing down and slowing down is healthy. So, I have been having a conversation with myself and allowing myself to relax with the exercise. The compromise is that we will exercise 4 days a week for now. This is what we can do and this is acceptable.
What else have I been doing?
Working a lot. Structuring my work. Understanding my work ethic and what is needed to keep the ship sailing in the right direction. Reliable people. Strong work ethic. Self Motivation. Goal Oriented. Task Oriented. RELIABLE PEOPLE. Manual after manual. Thinking and thinking. Basically working towards understanding how my team works and then supplying them with the tools for success. If my team is failing then I am failing. This is not acceptable and will never be acceptable. So, I provide the tools and hope for the best. "Do you have all the tools you need to be successful today?"
I cannot give people self motivation. Self motivation is personal. The self motivation thing is a challenge for one of my employees. This "lack of" has put a nail in our wheel. Needless to say, If they dont like how we sail or where we are sailing then get off the ship. We are a TEAM. We need to think of the TEAM. We are not and will no longer work against one another. Sometimes this comes down to personalities. I think this might be where we are with this one. ...... Its okay. It doesnt have to be the shoe that fits. Im not taking this personally. It is my job to make sure these departments are running successfully. Nothing more and nothing less.
Off to run and then shop for my spouses Birthday. I am so happy he was born. He is a gift to the world.
Sober for 822 days.
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Wow, Mizz!
we have so much in common, except:
I don’t live in California.
You have over 17 years on me, I.e., you are more youthful.
I used to run.
Trying on boundaries.
Not so well playing with others, but really trying hard to be social.
My birthday is in fall, not winter.
I love my husband too!
I’m possibly going to be a mother in law twice and a grandma this year.
you have 323 days in sobriety on me, and that will never change, never
I feel connected to you across the Rockies. Yes, come love (and live) here, it’s GREAT!
Mwuah! 😘♥️🤓
Thanks for all the lovely posts
we have so much in common, except:
I don’t live in California.
You have over 17 years on me, I.e., you are more youthful.
I used to run.
Trying on boundaries.
Not so well playing with others, but really trying hard to be social.
My birthday is in fall, not winter.
I love my husband too!
I’m possibly going to be a mother in law twice and a grandma this year.
you have 323 days in sobriety on me, and that will never change, never
I feel connected to you across the Rockies. Yes, come love (and live) here, it’s GREAT!
Mwuah! 😘♥️🤓
Thanks for all the lovely posts
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