Alba diary July 2020
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Just my watch Max. Know idea how accurate it is but I'm not super bothered. As long as there's 10,000 on the watch at the end of the day I'm happy. When I'm a little bit smaller I'll start doing HIIT style training but at the minute walking is about my level.
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I'll log in after 10pm so confirm it's ended as a sober day.
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My mind isn't comfortable with the idea that I cannot drink again, Max, and I'm in a good place mentally at the minute so I'm not closing off the possibility. Another poster talked how he calms his brain down by telling it he can drink again when he's 85 and I can very much relate to this. I'm hoping that as the sober days increase the desire and pull towards alcohol will go and then I will be able to change my mindset. But it's currently nearly 8pm here and I'm out walking in the pouring rain and thunder because there's no excuses about not getting my steps down.
I'll log in after 10pm so confirm it's ended as a sober day.
I'll log in after 10pm so confirm it's ended as a sober day.
DAY 42 in the bag. Bloody scary walking around in the thunder and lightning, but a good day. Steps, food and sober.
My son starts school tomorrow so feeling a wee bit proud of him tonight. I'll log in for certain the same time tomorrow.
Hope all goes well with your son’s first day at school Alba.
As far as drinking again: even though my drinking nearly killed me goes... it still took me awhile to accept that sobriety was going to be the reality - but once having accepted that I’ve never looked back.
My life is 1000 times better than it was when I was drinking, and I know I’d still be a terrible drinker - to drink again would only take me back to that place I don’t want to go back to again.
I hope you get there too ALBA
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As far as drinking again: even though my drinking nearly killed me goes... it still took me awhile to accept that sobriety was going to be the reality - but once having accepted that I’ve never looked back.
My life is 1000 times better than it was when I was drinking, and I know I’d still be a terrible drinker - to drink again would only take me back to that place I don’t want to go back to again.
I hope you get there too ALBA
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Hope all goes well with your son’s first day at school Alba.
As far as drinking again: even though my drinking nearly killed me goes... it still took me awhile to accept that sobriety was going to be the reality - but once having accepted that I’ve never looked back.
My life is 1000 times better than it was when I was drinking, and I know I’d still be a terrible drinker - to drink again would only take me back to that place I don’t want to go back to again.
I hope you get there too ALBA
D
As far as drinking again: even though my drinking nearly killed me goes... it still took me awhile to accept that sobriety was going to be the reality - but once having accepted that I’ve never looked back.
My life is 1000 times better than it was when I was drinking, and I know I’d still be a terrible drinker - to drink again would only take me back to that place I don’t want to go back to again.
I hope you get there too ALBA
D
"I cannot drink today" works for me in my present mental state. "I'll never drink again" will hopefully in time feel just fine but I'm not there yet.
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My diet box didn't arrive yesterday as planned, and I ate fish supper drank a pepsi ( full sugar) and then went down to Tesco and bought 11 660ml bottles of Heineken or 36 unit of beer at 23 pounds. On the way back to the house my AV decided to call me a loser, a quiter, a weak bastard who's going nowhere. After spending 23 quid on nothing I've gave it away to the neighbours under the guise that I was gifted the beer.
Tomorrow I have my box full of food that will keep me on the sensible, moving forward, bettering myself picture I want.
So day 43 done but a wee wobble troops x
Tomorrow I have my box full of food that will keep me on the sensible, moving forward, bettering myself picture I want.
So day 43 done but a wee wobble troops x
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Weird how the mind alters. On the way to the shop my AV was determined it was wanting bottles and loads. Post-checkout things changed, and very quickly.
But you'd talked at length about filling the void and my slip-up came after a lapse in diet in fitness. It's a boring message to send but It's what I need to make this stick.
Tomorrow I'm eating a chicken sausage bagel, some beef ragu and a meat pizza. I'll fill in the gaps with flavoured water, and then loads of walking. I'm really looking forward to an excellent 13th Aug.
Thanks for your support, Dee x
But you'd talked at length about filling the void and my slip-up came after a lapse in diet in fitness. It's a boring message to send but It's what I need to make this stick.
Tomorrow I'm eating a chicken sausage bagel, some beef ragu and a meat pizza. I'll fill in the gaps with flavoured water, and then loads of walking. I'm really looking forward to an excellent 13th Aug.
Thanks for your support, Dee x
Just catching up on your thread Alba and it sounds like you are doing an AMAZING job! Keep in going man......
You are right about the diet and exercise.....it's becoming a priority for me now in a way it just wasn't before. The better I am at that, the less likely I am to drink.
You are right about the diet and exercise.....it's becoming a priority for me now in a way it just wasn't before. The better I am at that, the less likely I am to drink.
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Just catching up on your thread Alba and it sounds like you are doing an AMAZING job! Keep in going man......
You are right about the diet and exercise.....it's becoming a priority for me now in a way it just wasn't before. The better I am at that, the less likely I am to drink.
You are right about the diet and exercise.....it's becoming a priority for me now in a way it just wasn't before. The better I am at that, the less likely I am to drink.
Today thankfully I was a winner. Tomorrow I have my food already planned out and 2 x 1.5 litre bottle of MacB's Apple and Blackcurrant water. I'll be walking to and from school with my son in the morning and again at lunchtime. In the evening tomorrow I'll walk between Yellowcraigs and Gullane. Why? Because I'm in control of tomorrow. That's Day 44 done for the diary
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