KiKi0615

I go to AA because when I don't have the support & understanding of other people like "me" I drink.

sweetichick

My ex lent me some money and although tempted to drink I figure I am over the worst of withdrawals so why give in now. Plus I nearly collapsed in the street which scared the shift out of me.

Dee74

Is this the ex that caused you a lot of problems? I'm not sure being beholden to him is a great idea, but I understand it if you're really broke and will be for a while.

I really hope you don;t buy more booze. Buy food instead.

D

sweetichick

I noticed that I got no reply except from Dee about using rationality to not drink. Maybe it's just the time difference. If this is an AA only site maybe it should be advertised as such. I'm being honest again. Us Aussies are like that. Plus I am almost 50 and won't put up with shift from anyone.

darkling

I don't know what time it is there, but it's 3.40 AM here.
I'm almost 60 and I don't take sh!t from anybody either.
You know damn well that this forum is NOT just about AA.
Other recovery programs have been suggested in this thread.
You say that you want help, but you dismiss everyone who offers help and say they're bossy and rude.
I think you are rude and I don't like your high and mighty, passive/aggressive attitude.
I'm done replying to you.

There. Now you know that it's not just Aussies who like to tell the truth.
Have a day.

Dee74

It's anywhere from a quarter to midnight to 4.45 am in the States now Sweetichick.

I'm not in AA. Anna's not in AA.
This isn't 'an AA site' - we're open to anyone who wants recovery.

Did you buy some food?

D

sweetichick

Ok fine. I don't care. It's 740pm here and I'm sorry bout the time difference. Seems like we both don't take shift.

Dee74

Let's all take a deep breath, guys.

If you keep coming back to you don't like AA sweetichick that's fine - but if you can't stop drinking, you have to do something, y'know?

D

sweetichick

Hey Dee, full of commonsense not like me. I did buy food and I'm doing ok. Sorry bout the time difference. It's very confusing. I know I have to do something and fast before I end up dead.

Dee74

Glad you're doing OK - stay by the fan

D

sweetichick

I really appreciate the support from you Dee.

Dee74

No worries - I had a lot of support myself - just passing it on

D

August252015

Sweeti- I am glad you have connected with Dee and feel his support. I know he has sure been a bastion of support (and reality) for me these past 11+ months.

The rest of us- whatever our delivery- are trying to be helpful as well. A saying in AA goes "take what you want and leave the rest." This DOESN'T mean take what feels good or justifies what you want to do (drink, tell people off, find reasons AA (or other programs) won't work for you, etc ad infinitum)- it DOES mean take what you want from people who have what you want (presumably, you want a good, healthy life, right?) and go with that "stuff."

Most of us spent a lot of time suffering. With or without money. To buy whatever. With or without transportation. To go or not go wherever. With or without friends- who cared or enabled, who encouraged our sobriety or our drunkenness....

Only you can decide - yes, DECIDE - what you want to do. The rest of us don't really matter at the end of the day.

What do you want your life to be like? We can all look at you or anyone else and see "signs" and think about what WE think you should do. But that's not my side of the street- it's yours.

I pray that every person here- and those who have yet to come into any room or forum or helpful place- can get sober and have THEIR version of the wonderful, often unbelievably great, complicated, loving, full life I have now.

Please take care of yourself.

Mentium

I'm going to have to re-calibrate something or other. I assumed 'Dee' was female. Not that it matter of course.

Michael66

Well done for not buying booze sweetichick!

It also sounds good getting past the worst withdrawal. Have you been in this place before? If so, what happened to trigger drinking again, and what might you do to avoid or nullify that trigger this time around?

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

sweetichick

Thanks everyone for your support. Day 5 today and fighting cravings now I've got money. Best to try and distract myself. I understand that you are all only trying to help. I'm terrified I won't make it. I had 2 months up no problem when I had ulcers but started up again when I got the all clear from the doctor. I thought I would be able to put it down again but then came 2 rejections from my daughter's then Xmas then the breakup. I still feel lost somehow.

Jojay

Hi sweetichick,keep posting.We can sense you are frightened and upset and have been for a little.Both your current threads will receive much support

sweetichick

Thanks Jojay

sweetichick

My ex really hurt me again today. He stated my problems as not long enough off the grog, crazy for still smoking, attending AA which to him is full of wobble heads, and going to a club once a week vwith other bipolar. Maybe he is causing my cravings. All I feel right now is like drinking. He thinks I am not moving forwardwhich to him is getting a job so we can get back together and I can support him.

Dee74

This is why I was worried about the cash you got. Sounds like he sees it as some kind of advance on your allowance.

I think you deserve better.
Don't drink over this guy.

D