Thanks everyone for your support. Day 5 today and fighting cravings now I've got money. Best to try and distract myself. I understand that you are all only trying to help. I'm terrified I won't make it. I had 2 months up no problem when I had ulcers but started up again when I got the all clear from the doctor. I thought I would be able to put it down again but then came 2 rejections from my daughter's then Xmas then the breakup. I still feel lost somehow.