Willow00

I hope you’re all doing nice things for yourselves. You too Suze ❤️

I think I need to do something nice for myself too.
I’m not sure what, but I’m going to treat myself.
I used to reward my sobriety milestones with something nice.
I think it’s a lovely idea. I might get myself a new pair of shoes or something warm for this chilly weather
Oh and some nice solar lights too, I’ve been thinking about them since I saw all the lovely photos

venuscat

lmao....I have now followed you to three treads. Go back I beg you....

venuscat

Do you have Ishka up there Willow? I bet you do.
That shop always makes/made me feel so good.

Willow00

hahah go back where? back to bed maybe,,,, I’m soooo tired this morning

Willow00

I haven’t heard of Ishka, what is it?

venuscat

Well bed would be good but I know you can't so that.....so just to one of the other threads. xxxxxxx

happylandfills

I'm glad to see that everyone's still doing well and posting! I've been trying to catch up on these posts but I realized since I relapsed last Thursday I probably need to move to the June 2021 class instead of posting here.

Sorry if my absence worried anyone, I've really just been trying to keep my head above water. I flushed the rest of my stash and I thought I'd feel better about it. My anxiety has been killing me and it's been keeping me from finding a meeting to go to. As much as I'd like to find one, something tells me that I won't belong there since there's people that are trying harder than me.

I'm also really liking my new job, I finished training and I'm actually waiting tables now. It's good to stay out of the house, somehow I'm managing to keep up with my schoolwork at the same time. My only issue is, I keep getting invited to go out with my coworkers where they'll be drinking or smoking. They're really nice and I'd love to party with them but I know it's a bad idea. I don't have good enough self control yet. I'm scared that they'll eventually just stop trying to be friendly with me because I say no all the time.

venuscat

You absolutely belong dear Happy. s xx ❤️
Proud of you for chucking that stash girl!!!!!!

I hear you re your co-workers.....no reason not to tell peeps in your age group that you are taking a break from drugs and alcohol right now....I think I might do that so I wouldn't be anxious about it all xxx

venuscat

happylandfills

I've told a lot of them that I'm sober, but I'm not sure if they understand that I need to be completely straight-edge. They all seem totally fine with moderation and don't seem to realize that people like me can't just have one drink or one puff. I dunno, even my coworker who recovered from cocaine addiction still drinks and smokes pot.

venuscat

Sure, I know what it's like. I remember well.

So maybe for now you can just say you need to do schoolwork and can't party.
I am sure your coworkers will definitely get that. s

Willow00

Happy, I totally agree with Suze. I don’t always tell people the whole truth about my issues, I just say I’m not drinking at the moment, for health reasons, I think telling them that you’re taking a break is a good idea. Then they’ll realise you’re not snubbing them, just trying to avoid situations where you might be tempted.
Hugs to you x

Willow00

I looked Ishtar up! It looks amazing
Unfortunately the closest store is over 1000km away, but later when I have more time I am going to browse their online store for sure ❤️

venuscat

Oh I thought for sure there would be one near you!!!!
Sorry about that. xxxxx

OneThingAtATime

I am not having a good day.

I just don't ever learn and push myself well beyond my limits.

My husband has another job to go to up north. This is not a surprise, it happens often and I would bet that they will keep him out a good two weeks. It is only Tuesday and yet I see him not being home this weekend. I also knew that once I went outside, I would not want to come back in and I didn't, much to my Petey's dissatisfaction. I mowed the lawn instead and aggravated my back. I just push too hard, my daughter would have gotten to it. I spent the rest of the afternoon in the pool, by myself, reading and finishing my book. The pool was like a bathtub but I think the warm water helped.

I bought a dress that I saw on line for son's rehearsal dinner, if we even go. For the life of me I can't even open the package. I bought it because it is one I can wear anytime, so why not. Truth be told, it will always be the dress I bought to a wedding I just don't want to go to.

AV is kicking my butt right now. I thought that doing a wine:30 check in would help, but now I am the one sitting here crying.

My daughter is off with girls that she works with and won't be home for dinner. She is teaching summer school and they are all pretty much celebrating the fact they have small classes and pretty good kids. It really is great for them.

I didn't expect today to be so hard, but one doesn't plan for these days. That would be a ridiculous plan. This is a full blown, 4 alarm pity party.

What good would drinking do? I will really feel bad for lapsing, I won't sleep as well as I have been, I will feel bad tomorrow for sure.

I just have to remember that this too shall pass. I hate the highs and lows of getting sober.

One Thing

venuscat

(((One Thing))) ❤️

I would love to see the dress.....maybe if you opened it up and showed us? xxxx

I am all alone and will be for hours....so I am here with you all the way.

phoebe64

Onething. I’d love to see your dress too!

Waiting nervously in the car while my...well never mind...he just came back from his job interview and is hired!

venuscat

Oh!! Fantastic ~ congrats to your son phoebes!!! ❤️

venuscat

Karen honey ~ come talk to us s ❤️❤️

phoebe64

Thanks, Suze! 💕. Happy for him!! 🙂