Dee74

last part here

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...rt-two-20.html (Class of April 2021 Support Thread Part Two)

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phebe

Shotgun!🙌

I always wanted to do that lol

freedomfries

Good morning. It's day 37.

I've been feeling ambivalent about Antabuse since Wednesday. The voices were pretty bad and I wished I could have gotten drunk. So I didn't take it yesterday.

But getting drunk wouldn't have made the voices go away. I'd have blacked out and felt worse when I came to.

So I've just taken it. Maybe I'll regret it when the voices start up again.

I want to be sober. My parents and my only friend want me to be sober. My siblings want to be sober. I'm very lucky to still have people in my life after everything I've done. The least I can do is not drink.

Truthbetold76

good morning all
Day 10 here. Work is keeping my mind occupied which is great. I haven't had 10 whole days in awhile so I feel pretty good right now.
I need to get off these cigarettes though my smoking has amped up and I don't want that either. One day at a time!
Happy Friday everyone

Dee74

I don;t think alcohol is an effective treament for your voices FF. I know you're not keen on anti psychotic meds but if the ambien you've been prescribed is not helping there must be some thing else you can be prescribed.

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Dee74

Congrats on day 10 truthbetold

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freedomfries

Congrats on day 10. I'm trying to quit vaping. It's tough. Hope you can cut down.

dickensen

Had a good day at the doctor's office today. Grateful that blood tests for liver, cholesterol, and A1C all checked OK. Taking one day at a time for cravings. They are getting less.

Dee74

Glad you got good results Dickensen

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Willow00

Hi everyone

Thanks for the new thread Dee

Haha Phebe 🙌🏻

Freedomfries well done on 37 days! You’re doing great. Drinking would only make things worse. Keep reminding yourself of the bad stuff that happens when you drank. Like burning your hand. It’s really not worth it. Keep up the awesome sober work!

Truthbetold, well done on 10 days, double figures !

Dickensen I’m glad your blood work came back ok

I had my first Covid vaccination yesterday. I’m a bit achey today but other feel ok, which is a relief
Day 5 and I won’t be drinking today.

freedomfries

Good morning. It's day 38. Grateful to be waking up sober.

freedomfries

Took my Antabuse. Committing to another week sober.

Willow00

Well done Freedomfries on both day 38 and on your commitment to stay sober

freedomfries

Thanks Willow

phoebe64

Checking in here...I’ve been posting in the May thread. I’m doing well this week. Mood is improving, energy picking up, and feeling committed to sobriety.

Congrats FF on 38 days!

Hi Phebe, you’re doing so well. 💕

Hi Willow. 🙂💕

Dickensen, glad you’re labs were good. I’ve got to go get my follow up labs done next week sometime.

Congrats on 10 days, truth!

freedomfries

Went for a nice 4km walk with my diet dad. It was good to have some company, lessened my anxiety. We're going to go for another one Thursday.

Just took my bedtime pills so I'll be dozing off soon. Looking forward to waking up tomorrow on day 39.

Willow00

Hi Phoebe

Sleep well Freedom

freedomfries

Good morning. It's 2:30am. Bit of an early start for me but I'll probably go back to sleep.

About to take my Antabuse. It's the most important part of my day.

phebe

Hi Friends💓

I just wanted to pop in and say hello. I’ve been dealing with minor depression the past few days and haven’t been feeling like writing, altho I have still been reading around.

I’m not sure what took me into these blues, sometime after the full moon and some rainy weather.. melancholy. Then came the sadness.

What’s important is, I have not drank🙂 16 days! So, I am dealing with the emotions alcohol free. And I truly understand adding that to the mix when I’m sad would only make it worse, as that’s what I connected it does to me. Like, really worse.

I still have tomorrow to contend with. But I did by the Pelligrino so I’m all set with my plan. *sigh* Holidays sometimes make me depressed. When I was real little, I used to always cry on my birthday lol. I don’t know why, my assessment is, I just felt to much pressure.. to be happy (when I wasn’t always), to be perfect (which I’m not), to be carefree (and not so Self conscious).

So, there’s all that. Another Holiday to make believe it’s a Norman Rockwell painting. Which it’s not.

But that’s ok🙂 I accept that, more than before, even if I do get the blues, and my heart feels sadness. It’s just a day, ‘this too shall pass’.

I’m glad to see everyone is doing so well in their sobriety. Finding new peace and joy, finding themselves within.

Love to all and have a wonder Mother’s Day yourselves tomorrow.
Love, Phebe xoxo

Willow00

Hugs Phebe ❤️

I get the sadness too, I feel it often. I feel it especially today, Mother’s Day, missing my beloved Mum like crazy.
Sending you love, and hoping the sadness lifts for you soon. Well done on not drinking.
I’m only back to day 6 after my last mishap, but drinking doesn’t solve anything, alcohol tries to trick us into thinking it will help erase the sadness, but it only makes the sadness worse.
If we sit with it, it will lift of it’s own accord. And I have hope that long term sobriety will help lift the ongoing underlying sadness of depression. Because I think alcohol has a lot to answer for, in contributing to causing the sadness and depression in the first place.