Class of March 2020 Part 3
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Thanks Be, i know i just want to hit more and more milestones now. The av is sneaky but i really dont want to drink anymore.
Ha ha the card to the ex, the shame, talk about needy and desperate, i wonder if he got it ? Maybe i sent to wrong address ?! Ha ha I think now i don't actually care too much as embarrassing as it was and not what i would normally do, it was my way of trying to show someone i cared and if they don't see that then i guess they aren't worth it.
Ha ha the card to the ex, the shame, talk about needy and desperate, i wonder if he got it ? Maybe i sent to wrong address ?! Ha ha I think now i don't actually care too much as embarrassing as it was and not what i would normally do, it was my way of trying to show someone i cared and if they don't see that then i guess they aren't worth it.
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Originally Posted by Tinkerbeau 
Ha ha the card to the ex, the shame
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Originally Posted by Be123
I know people mean well, but a few people have said to me: 'Dont feel guilty/embarrassed/ashamed about the past - you can't do anything about it'. Well -duh - I know that...but it doesn't change the feelings! Not yet, anyway.
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Happy Easter for all those who celebrate it. This might be the oddest Easter of my life but at least I am sober. At the end of the day I will be honored to join Willow in 6 weeks.
Special shout out to FF who has kept it real here and been honest with the struggles we all face. Congrats on the month!!
Special shout out to FF who has kept it real here and been honest with the struggles we all face. Congrats on the month!!
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Originally Posted by BeckoningCat
Thank you very much venuscat and willow! I appreciate your support.
vc - I have considered the possibility that she's not the right therapist for me, or that I should at least express my feelings about it via email to my therapist (in a few days, when I have had more time to think about how to rationally express myself). I only see her once every two weeks, so I don't have to worry about it for a while. I could wait until a few days before the appointment to email her, or cancel the next session a week prior if I am still thinking on it.
Willow68 - yeah, I am really grateful that it became so apparent in one day that it didn't make my feelings go away entirely, and actually made my anxiety worse for a few hours yesterday. I bundled up in a hat, mask and gloves and went for a small run to the grocery store. I got myself a nice meal to make for dinner, and some kava kava tea. So worst case scenario, if I have one of those days where I just am so tense or angry I am tempted to drink, I'll have the kava tea instead. I actually thought of this "back up plan" before, but now I actually will be able to follow through.
vc - I have considered the possibility that she's not the right therapist for me, or that I should at least express my feelings about it via email to my therapist (in a few days, when I have had more time to think about how to rationally express myself). I only see her once every two weeks, so I don't have to worry about it for a while. I could wait until a few days before the appointment to email her, or cancel the next session a week prior if I am still thinking on it.
Willow68 - yeah, I am really grateful that it became so apparent in one day that it didn't make my feelings go away entirely, and actually made my anxiety worse for a few hours yesterday. I bundled up in a hat, mask and gloves and went for a small run to the grocery store. I got myself a nice meal to make for dinner, and some kava kava tea. So worst case scenario, if I have one of those days where I just am so tense or angry I am tempted to drink, I'll have the kava tea instead. I actually thought of this "back up plan" before, but now I actually will be able to follow through.
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Originally Posted by Tinkerbeau
Thanks Be, i know i just want to hit more and more milestones now. The av is sneaky but i really dont want to drink anymore.
Ha ha the card to the ex, the shame, talk about needy and desperate, i wonder if he got it ? Maybe i sent to wrong address ?! Ha ha I think now i don't actually care too much as embarrassing as it was and not what i would normally do, it was my way of trying to show someone i cared and if they don't see that then i guess they aren't worth it.
Ha ha the card to the ex, the shame, talk about needy and desperate, i wonder if he got it ? Maybe i sent to wrong address ?! Ha ha I think now i don't actually care too much as embarrassing as it was and not what i would normally do, it was my way of trying to show someone i cared and if they don't see that then i guess they aren't worth it.
Thank God I'm sober and the doc prescribed another anti psychotic
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Originally Posted by freedomfries
Made it to one month
Longest sober stretch since I was in rehab three years afot
Longest sober stretch since I was in rehab three years afot
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Originally Posted by Be123
I know people mean well, but a few people have said to me: 'Dont feel guilty/embarrassed/ashamed about the past - you can't do anything about it'. Well -duh - I know that...but it doesn't change the feelings! Not yet, anyway.
s xx ❤️
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I've had a good insight today. Practiced mindfulness this morning first thing, then went for a walk, then porridge and juice for breakfast. This morning I felt very settled. This afternoon ate a whole Easter egg and I feel anxious as hell!
Plan from now on us to be much more careful about food . I know it's obvious but that's a massive difference for me today
Plan from now on us to be much more careful about food . I know it's obvious but that's a massive difference for me today
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Originally Posted by freedomfries
I'm sure the card wasn't that bad! I've texted people absolutely ******* insane stuff when I was drunk and my meds weren't working.
Thank God I'm sober and the doc prescribed another anti psychotic
Thank God I'm sober and the doc prescribed another anti psychotic
But yeah I've done alot of stupid things drunk too, I'm a much more 'sane' person sober.
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Originally Posted by Be123
I've had a good insight today. Practiced mindfulness this morning first thing, then went for a walk, then porridge and juice for breakfast. This morning I felt very settled. This afternoon ate a whole Easter egg and I feel anxious as hell!
Plan from now on us to be much more careful about food . I know it's obvious but that's a massive difference for me today
Plan from now on us to be much more careful about food . I know it's obvious but that's a massive difference for me today
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Originally Posted by Bilr44
Happy Easter for all those who celebrate it. This might be the oddest Easter of my life but at least I am sober. At the end of the day I will be honored to join Willow in 6 weeks.
Special shout out to FF who has kept it real here and been honest with the struggles we all face. Congrats on the month!!
Special shout out to FF who has kept it real here and been honest with the struggles we all face. Congrats on the month!!
And congratulations on a month Freedom.
Freedom how are you doing today? Please let us know how you are
Bil, I tried kava tea to help me sleep, but it didn’t help me at all, it just made me feel a little nauseous, so I threw it out.
I find camomile, honey and vanilla (Twinings) helps me more. I don’t like the taste of camomile much, but with honey and vanilla it’s nice.
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Well wine like I drank has loads of sugar, so when you are detoxing and in early recovery, getting your sugar from other sources is super-important. We need some sugar....I decided that getting it from fruit (freshly squeezed OJ, strawberries, kiwi fruit, bananas, apples.....pineapple.....so many more) was the way to go for me.
And I would have a cup of tea and a couple of teddy bear biscuits (going to need to explain that to the Americans.) at night after dinner, and it was just enough sugar without being too much.
Too much would indeed send the AV in for me as well. xxxx s
And I would have a cup of tea and a couple of teddy bear biscuits (going to need to explain that to the Americans.
) at night after dinner, and it was just enough sugar without being too much.Too much would indeed send the AV in for me as well. xxxx
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