Lovely to see you post, PJ. I’m having TV and fb reduced too. Best I focus on what parts of the things I can positively impact, staying in wherever possible, and adjusting my daily walk to exercise inside a few days a week.

the weather is being gloriously cruel right now, but to be honest, it’s bearable like this, I’m dreading the relentless Melbourne overcast rainy days that are coming within weeks. I looked at sad lamp options.

I am looking at now going to the shops minimally. Groceries once a fortnight. That is my target at the moment, anticipating a lockdown soon anyway.

My health is good, but lungs are not my family’s strong point, so I don’t want to unknowingly spread or play roulette on how the illness could affect me.

I had to have urgent dental work this week, so no more outings. Melbourne City was a ghost town. A lot of homeless and disenfranchised on the streets.

Stay safe everyone.xx

An interesting side development, my ex asked if there’s still a chance for us to get back together.

I had to contact him about delay of picking up some minor things interstate from his place. And we’d had a few conversations, reasonable ones. He said he’s enjoyed talking to me and would there still be a chance????

“oh, and I just need to be honest with you - I have started seeing someone but I don’t want to be with her”

I have no words for this man. When I got back from overseas and had to phone him, I specifically asked, oh how are you going, have you tried dating again. No, he said. Well, after two weeks of reminiscing and saying he misses me, he decides he needs to be honest, but he wants to be with me.

Guys, I just said mate, you’ve got issues to sort in yourself that have nothing to do with me or that woman. You said you wanted time alone???

im so glad I’m emotionally away from it. I can’t say that little stab if the heart is there, but honestly. I actually feel for that woman. She is me, 3.5 years ago, when he dragged me in as a bandaid to his messy divorce. And I calmly told him so.

yes, agree on the not wanting to be alone. Not even judging on that.

but he’s started something with someone else quite a few weeks ago and the L word has been said (apparently not meant).

I know that I’m a very dependable person, and that if a crisis was going to hit, yep he’s choosing me because I am an organised, calm person in a crisis.

He also lost his job last week, so he now would be kicking himself for mucking me around this past year.

not meaning to air my dirty laundry, but you all supported me through the joy, highs and lows of this relationship. And this was an interesting post script.

Thanks PJ.

please look after yourself! Youve worked so hard, and sober you deserves a vigilant caretaker on your routine. So bloody important!

is there a way to connect with your classmates? From art school??

April Fools Day here!!!

Happy 5 Year Sober Anniversary to Me!!!!

(not a joke!)

yay me!!!

Thanks V.xx I feel stronger than ever.

Even with all the things happening right now, and limited support and no friends/family here in Victoria during this crisis. I feel good.