EarnIt

Back to day One. I am not as bothered by relapse as I am optimistic about recovery.

I stopped taking a pause when the triggers showed up and listened to the AV. In the words of my mentor, "How'd that work for ya?" Not so good, so here we go again! Here's to my first sober holiday season in more than thirty years!

Hawkeye13

All of these symptoms went away when I stopped for good.
Try some "homemade" hot chocolate which is full of fiber and
will help with the "bathroom stuff" as well as being just a great treat.

Great job all of you on your quitting.
Don't ever quit quitting--I didn't and finally got there

JJ991

I am getting fed up with seeing alcohol everywhere. I had a look at book aisle earlier in supermarket, there was a book called "why mummy drinks wine". I wish this mummy could drink wine...

I'm coming up to 7 weeks sober. Not feeling the positivity today.

Tubesy

I'm commited to stay sober.

EarnIt

I hear this! Perhaps you can take a moment to make your own list of "Why this mummy doesn't." I am hoping the list I've made will help me through!

Susiesmiles

No kidding, it is everywhere. I feel sorry for myself because I can't enjoy a glass of wine like normal people but then.... I'm not normal. I hate people who say oh no I can't have another glass, I'm already tipsy hee hee hee. I want to punch them in the face

JJ991

That is a good idea earnit. I must admit that I have no plan as such & haven't written anything down (apart from posting here). It looks like it is time for a bit more action on my part to remind me exactly why I'm doing this!

JJ991

Ah Susie that may be it, do I still think of myself as normal? I was drinking a bottle of wine a night, I'm guessing that is not normal or I wouldn't be here (or having 1:1 alcohol counselling via the NHS!!)

Rats to it all.

Susiesmiles

I drank at least a bottle every night and more sometimes if I had it.

JJ991

Sod normal, let's be different!

Susiesmiles

Yes! We are super special because we are stronger than those normal people! I'm so glad we are different!

StartingOverNW

Well, made it back through day 1 and will be going to sleep soon. I attended an online SMART meeting earlier, so trying to start off doing recovery-focused activities right off the bat. Good night everyone

skyfullofstars

Ahhhh I remember a couple of years ago at an old job, I can't remember the thread of conversation but we were talking about drinking and I said:

"Those people who can pour themselves a 175ml of wine from the bottle, put it back in the fridge and don't touch it until the next day! Or have one can of beer with their dinner?! Who does that?!?!"

And the other people looked at me side-eyed and said "erm...normal people...non-alcoholics"

That was one of my very first 'alarm bells' that something wasn't right. The thought of having 'just one drink' was as astounding to me as walking on water

Just ONE?!?!

Applekat

Hi Class! Checking in. Snuggling with my toddler.

I won’t drink today!

Awake61

Good morning. Woke up full of anger at myself for getting to this point in my life. Day 4 and I remember from past day 4s that's when the emotions start to really surge forth. (at least in my case). Stay strong fellow travelers.

JJ991

Sadly no toddler snuggling here, working in what is a very cold office today. Enjoy!
Off to see a friend after work, in a pub but I always drive when I see her so used to not drinking. We love to put the world to rights, I need that right now! She assured me that sober JJ is just as much fun as wine-fuelled JJ!

Applekat

What’s your sober drink of choice then JJ?

JJ991

It varies! Tonight will be diet coke. I'm also very partial to hot chocolate these days, I go with the lower calorie versions though!
Oh and LOTS of tea!!

blondsober

Want to try again. Always get sucked back. Day 0 for me.
Lost day yesterday and scary night with numbness and weird
feeling. Like a bad omen. Like my heart will stop.

I can't have nothing right now; need to taper. But feeling
somewhat normal, at least not like I'm going to die.

Prayers out to all of you going through this - prayers seem
to be the most powerful thing there is.

StartingOverNW

Good morning folks - day 2 today and back to work. Thanks for your posts and I hope you all have good days today. I'll check back in this evening.

Hang in there blondsober - glad to have you in the class