Class of November 2016 Support Thread
Member
Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Seattle
Posts: 107
Day 3. Had two months sober and four months of periodic drinking. Doing this again and hoping I had my las day 1. Wenot this. I want to drink, sure. But I am learning that I want to be sober more than I want to drink. Slow going but worthwhile.
Member
Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
Posts: 28,680
OnlyTL- me, marriage, life career? Save? Me- the doctors managed to save me on the 4th go. Marriage- gone. Career- gone. Life- am rebuilding- alone. To my adult sons I am a leper. I lost everything. Food for thought. I do not ask for, want or need sympathy. Perhaps you can learn from my mistakes.
Member
Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: Middlesbrough
Posts: 14
Joined this today because I have to keep certain things in my head at all times.
1. Acceptance of who I am and what I am.
2. Don't deny it to myself.
3. I am an alcoholic
4. I don't want to drink ever again.
Simple ideas at this stage
1. Acceptance of who I am and what I am.
2. Don't deny it to myself.
3. I am an alcoholic
4. I don't want to drink ever again.
Simple ideas at this stage
Member
Join Date: Aug 2014
Posts: 1,347
Good morning and congrats to everyone for another day! Just woke up and starting day 2 today. Night sweats, weird dreams and lots of wide eyed anxiety last night. Mostly beating myself up about relapsing, coupled with a fear of the future and it happening again someday. But, I know I need to shed those thoughts and get positive. Let's do this thing guys.
Member
Join Date: Jan 2011
Posts: 551
Hi All, I just wanted to drop by and welcome you all,. I am from the April class, just over 7 months today and it really does get better and better, SR is my main support and I visit daily. I am wishing you all the best on your journey of a healthier life
Member
Join Date: May 2016
Location: London, England
Posts: 123
Bit more positive this morning , think yesterday has hit me hard and shown me this isn't an easy journey and I still haven't even properly started mine yet. Back to one day at a time I think, I was maybe a little complacent and thought I'd already reached the finish line!
Member
Join Date: Oct 2016
Location: Europe
Posts: 523
Day 14 today... The mornings are still the hardest part. Sleep is better but still to short and waking up a lot. I feel so depressed and anxious after waking up, I can't make it out of bed. Everything seems scary to me. My first thought after waking up "need booze!" (my AV seems to be an early bird, I'm not), then I realise I can't have it and it depresses me even more. What reason should I get up for?
I know it's gonna pass (it did the last days) and once I can motivate myself to get up and eat it should be just fine. But taking that step is not easy. I know it's silly.
Might attend my first AA meeting tonight, although I'm a bit sceptical about their approach and very, very nervous about going.
I know it's gonna pass (it did the last days) and once I can motivate myself to get up and eat it should be just fine. But taking that step is not easy. I know it's silly.
Might attend my first AA meeting tonight, although I'm a bit sceptical about their approach and very, very nervous about going.
Member
Join Date: Jun 2016
Location: Adelaide, Australia
Posts: 28,680
Kev- the eating part makes a big difference to me- you know the HALTS bit?
AA meetings made me wary- because of the stereotypical stories I heard of them. Turned out to be just good people trying to do good things for other people who are suffering. I hope you do go to an AA meeting, it can be such a valuable resource.
AA meetings made me wary- because of the stereotypical stories I heard of them. Turned out to be just good people trying to do good things for other people who are suffering. I hope you do go to an AA meeting, it can be such a valuable resource.
Member
Join Date: Oct 2016
Location: Europe
Posts: 523
I think I've seen the term somewhere on here, I think it was something like checking whether you're hungry, tired, lonely (and obviously two more things I can't remember) to see if any of that may cause a craving? Something like that?
The thing that makes me nervous about AA is that I already know I won't be good with their steps. I don't want to hand my problem over to a higher power. I don't want to make it anyone's problem. I screwed it, I'll fix it. To me it's clearly my responsibility. And I've heard a bit mixed things about reactions from people at AA when you don't find that the 12 step program works for you. I'm a bit scared they'll be pushy and being pushed makes me give up normally cause I feel like I can't handle the pressure, so I run away. Also I just find it scary to meet that many new faces in one go. But I'll give it a try anyway. Probably just worrying too much again, maybe I'll end up liking it, let's see
The thing that makes me nervous about AA is that I already know I won't be good with their steps. I don't want to hand my problem over to a higher power. I don't want to make it anyone's problem. I screwed it, I'll fix it. To me it's clearly my responsibility. And I've heard a bit mixed things about reactions from people at AA when you don't find that the 12 step program works for you. I'm a bit scared they'll be pushy and being pushed makes me give up normally cause I feel like I can't handle the pressure, so I run away. Also I just find it scary to meet that many new faces in one go. But I'll give it a try anyway. Probably just worrying too much again, maybe I'll end up liking it, let's see
Member
Join Date: Oct 2016
Location: Europe
Posts: 523
Originally Posted by Dee74 
Congratulations on 2 weeks kevlarsjal
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didn't think I could make it. SR was a huge help. And you posted some (a lot actually) of helpful stuff, that really hit a nerve and made me realise things. 
Member
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Minnetonka, MN
Posts: 155
Hey all, day 1 for me. I gave this a go last month but really struggled with anxiety and problems with my girlfriend (which were mostly my fault) and fell off the wagon. After blowing up at my brother's friends in a drunken rage last night, my brother is legitimately concerned about me. So I need to stop. He now knows about my drinking problem (told him this morning), and I feel a little relief knowing that someone in my immediate family knows now.
Today it's kind of easy. Tomorrow will be harder. A few days from now, harder still. Might be the hardest thing I ever go through. But also might be the most important and best thing I go through too.
Today it's kind of easy. Tomorrow will be harder. A few days from now, harder still. Might be the hardest thing I ever go through. But also might be the most important and best thing I go through too.
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