Class of October 2014 Part 27
Tough day for me. Lots of things going on, and my doctor screwed up my note (left in "Chemical Dependency Services," which I specifically told him to take out so my work won't know about that). He's out of the office until Tuesday, so he can't fix it. Maybe it's for the best, but it was very discouraging, especially after how hard it was for me to request that. Yeah, I could probably get a different doctor to do it, or I could just call in sick for a couple days, but I needed that letter as validation. I'm just too sensitive and unstable right now, and this totally shot the fragile sense of control I had. I'm not ready to think it through any further or try to advocate for myself. The whole day was difficult, way more going on than just this, and by the end I had cried all my makeup off. I'm just tired now.
Yeah, I could probably get a different doctor to do it, or I could just call in sick for a couple days, but I needed that letter as validation.
So much love. ♥
I am thinking of you Briar love.
I wish this was easier for you, and that there weren't so many battles.
But I see your strength, and know in my heart that you will win against any monster that invades your happiness.
I know it doesn't feel great right now, but one year sober is such an achievement. Really.
I wish this was easier for you, and that there weren't so many battles.
But I see your strength, and know in my heart that you will win against any monster that invades your happiness.
I know it doesn't feel great right now, but one year sober is such an achievement. Really.
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Congratulations on your soberversary Briar! Despite your setback with the note, a big nod to the positive is in order today. Imagine what you may have said to someone back in the depths of alcohol if they had told you that in the not too distant future you would have a year of sobriety! The unimaginable became reality. Without sobriety as a foundation there's no way you'd be able to work through the layers that you are tackling now. You'd be stuck in that wretched cycle that Arbor described so well early on in our class.
Life stinks sometimes. Life is beautiful sometimes. There's a whole lot of 'in between'. I'm someone that has had a habit of talking too much about how I dreaded this or that. Currently I'm trying to model for my kids how to tackle something, experience the appropriate emotion, and then move on without allowing circumstance the opportunity to change my trajectory (my 50th birthday this year is a good example ). I ain't there yet sometimes, but progress is good right?
You've done amazing things Briar, get out in the sunshine today and feel it.
Life stinks sometimes. Life is beautiful sometimes. There's a whole lot of 'in between'. I'm someone that has had a habit of talking too much about how I dreaded this or that. Currently I'm trying to model for my kids how to tackle something, experience the appropriate emotion, and then move on without allowing circumstance the opportunity to change my trajectory (my 50th birthday this year is a good example ). I ain't there yet sometimes, but progress is good right?
You've done amazing things Briar, get out in the sunshine today and feel it.
We went to a local, family friendly place. They have good food and it is a nice atmosphere. I had steak tips with asparagus and green beans. Stole a few fries from my daughter and husband.
His bday cake is pumpkin choc chip. It's huge and we have lots left. Going to be hard to keep away from that!
His bday cake is pumpkin choc chip. It's huge and we have lots left. Going to be hard to keep away from that!
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