MrFixit63

She thought Mr Fix with Mr Perfect and could never do no wrong I'd like to live up to her potential for me.

biminiblue

aww, she's beautiful, MrFixit.

Dogs are the best. Dogs and cats.

Armitage

just checking in after a fun sober weekend. Catching up on school work. Hope everyone has had a nice weekend.

biminiblue

So I'm feeling a little reflective.

I still have a lot of the same problems I had 41 days ago.

My family is still gone (they died).

I don't have a job.

I don't have any close friends.

But, I've come to accept that my family is not coming back, I can't do anything about that. I can get a job when I'm ready, and I don't have the horrible fear that I'm going to end up under a bridge. I have abilities and I will get a job. I also know that there are many people who would support me and spend time with me if I would ask. I just need to get out of my own head and ask.

I'm so much more content and at peace than I was 41 days ago.

I don't want to die anymore, I'm not afraid to go out and meet new people. I'm not driving under the influence and risking my freedom or my life and the lives of innocent people. My house is markedly cleaner. My cats tell me I smell better now that I'm showering and not passing out drunk. I have a lot more money than I would have were I still drinking. I have phone numbers of women I can talk to now. I have you all here.

Everything is better - already.

Can't wait to see what the future brings me with my new sobriety.

Love to you all. Good night.

bb

Ipanema

To Toddle,

Yes cats are very warm, fuzzy, sweet and very loyal. They also try to run the whole household....mine is recovering from surgery right now and wants pets and comfort every waking hour. She also has the Cone which she despises. I hope the Biopsy turns out okay. Turning it all over to God as I find myself with racing thoughts about her. So glad God is listening and nudges me to this great website, SR. Regards, Ipanema

Dee74

Great post Bimini. Thank you for sharing it

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Ipanema

Biminiblue,

You are doing great and stay close to SR and other Recovery options. We here love you as a fellow Alcoholic. We already know your struggles and it is important, in my mind, that you share how you are with us. I see so many posts, such as yourself, that tell me what I need, how to handle something that baffels me, and all that I need to hear to stay sober. The Disease, for me, will tell me to pick up the drink on a regular basis. The cure has been to talk/write to others like myself so I hear Recovery not the madness in my head at times. Be Blessed, Ipanema

Looking4Help123

THanks for your day 40 post Bimini

Ilya

Bimini, I really love reading your reflections. That was really affirming. It's great how you broke all of that down and you have this platform to build a new life on.

Ilya

Whoa I haven't had a drink in as many days (take a few) as years I've been alive.

Dee74

Good stuff Ilya

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Ilya

Dee, I've been meaning to tell you I like your Paolo Coelho quote. I read the Alchemist about ten years ago when I was at a major turning point. It's a simple read, but it really gave me the words for what I was feeling at the time, and the courage to make some drastic changes. Maybe I'll read it again...

Aarryckha

So this weekend had a nice twist at the end for me. Got home from the bookstore and my netbook no longer works. I think the cooling fan died. That's going to make things very interesting for me.

I really enjoy Bimi's daily reflections. She always gives me lots to think about.

I found a copy of the Rational Recovery book. So far, it's a very interesting read.

I also read a book with cat stories in it. I should know by now I'll cry if I read these kinds of books. Crying is the understatement of the year. Blubbering like a baby is more like it.

Thank you, all my fine SR folks

Dee74

I dunno anything about netbooks but I hope you can get it fixed or replaced Aary

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Aarryckha

Thanks Dee. I like it because it's small and lightweight and I take it everywhere. I might price things out to see how much something new would cost versus a new one. I really would hate to replace it though.

toddle118

Aarry, do you have wowcher over there? you can get a tablet for 60 pounds, Im sorry you lost yours but its a good deal x

toddle118

everyone asleep

toddle118

it ok though, cos we all need sleep x

KimsFriend

Good morning- day 23 here!

Bimini- love the post! Your gratitude is inspiring!

Discovery14

Good Monday morning Marchers

Had a great but very busy sober weekend. Going to be almost a relief to get back to work to slow down a bit.

Thanks for the reflections, they help me a lot in my sobriety. Amazingly this weekend I had only one minor craving. I had finished up yesterday out in the sun all day. After getting home I had the fleeting thought that a beer would taste good. Fortunately I ran the tape through to the end and had tea instead. That running the tape to the end really helps me at those moments.

Have a great week