InParticular

Thanks dee, I guess I really am finding myself too, it just takes time I suppose. Just wish these damn cravings would go away. How long did it take you to stop craving? It sure is getting old.

Oh yeah I ran again this morning! Yay me!!!! It really does feel good to exercise in the morning.

Marine28

I am back to Day 1 again. Like Tigger said when she slipped, I didn't even need it so don't know why I took it. It made me horribly sick, sicker than I have ever been. I think I could have food poisoning along with it so I am paying dearly. Strange how the mind works. Oh well. Today is a new day.

Dee74

Are you thinking about doing something different this time marine?

D

Marine28

I am, Dee. The online AA meetings helped when travelling but I have an iPad now for work instead of the laptop and it doesn't support the chat feature. I did get an online sponsor and she just gave me her cell phone number so I can call when I can't get online or any time for that matter. She seems real nice and her husband passed away, too. I plan to go to some F2F meetings when travelling - I am sure there are some that meet late at night. There are intense outpatient programs here in my town, but you have to go every day for two weeks and since I am only home 8 days in March, that's not going to work. thanks.

Dee74

No worries
I just really want to see you, & everyone, kick on with this Marine

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Marine28

I was doing so well! I had never gotten past 12 or 13 days so passing 30 was so great. Just don't know what happened lat night.

Marine28

I was doing so well! I had never gotten past 12 or 13 days so passing 30 was so great. Just don't know what happened lat night.

InParticular

Just keep trying marine- we are all still here for you

Marine28

Thanks IP. This journey is hard enough and doing it alone is a real bitch. I am glad I have you guys. I was really upset with myself yesterday but have to keep reminding myself this is a horrible disease. I Have decided I am going to start telling others that I have decided to quit drinking. This will make me more accountable. Off to work.

Bimm

Marine-
Although i recognize that strategy doesn't work for everyone, it has worked for me, not only with drinking, but also when I stopped cigarettes many years ago. Make it work for you.

InParticular

That's just it Marine, it's a disease. You know what has really helped me? Go to the alcoholism section and read the "excerpts from under the influence" sticky. It gives some insight into what the hell is happening to us and for me it really brought it home and made it make more sense, WHY I have to quit and not drink ever drink again. It really is a disease.

Tres

Hey Marine, hang in there. I read those sticks too that IP is talking about. It does help put into perspective what the alcohol is doing inside our bodies. I a really surprised I have not slipped. But I had slipped hard twice before this time.

I agree with Bimm. I think the more people you tell the better. It does help you be more accountable. You don't want to say you are changing or stopping something to be more healthy...then do that thing in front of your friends. Just seems to me it shreds your accountability. It has helped me, because I don't want to go against my word. I want tolivea completely honest life.

On that note, hubby and I are doing much better. We have had 2 dates in one week! Nothing earth shattering, but out alone, face to face at dinner. Boy, have we needed that. We have another planned for Friday. I am going to have to watch all the eating out though...calories...ugh!

Hope ya'll have a great night. Where is everyone? Anyone see Trigger?

Maybe she is on her vacay.

Tres

I meant "sticks"...lol

Tres

Stickys...I hate auto correct!

Marine28

Thanks for all the tips! I know I can do it. I am going to start telling everyone that I am adopting a healthier lifetstyle and giving up alcohol is part of that. I agree with your comments that I can't say something like that and then go back on my word. People would really think I have a problem with alcohol. LOL!!!

Vantrina

Hang in there Marine. Reading about the disease aspect of alcohol helps. I know it lightened me up a bit to realize that body chemistry has something to do with things. Glad you are back and posting. Hang in.

DarrenW

Vacationing down in Miami and haven't drank. Last year spent over $150 day on beer. Leaving in the morning! Lot different trip. Actually spent time doingwhatwife wanted to do. Last year stayed at the tiki bar all three days.

InParticular

Good for you Darren, I'm sure your experience is an inspiration to all of us

Marine28

Good job, Darren!

Bimm

Good job on the vacation, Darren.
Triple sticks today (111 days).
Just recently I've come to grips with the fact I cannot ever drink again. Ever. One drink and I'm positive I'd be that train wreck I was prior to November and there is no way I want that to happen. I'd disappoint myself and those I love.
A good, sober weekend to all.