04Hdcp

Good for you.... I too (day 5) am feeling a lot better. Went through a nasty bout of anxiety on the way to a meeting yesterday, but slept better last night than I have in awhile. Like I said in an earlier post, you will feel better every morning.

Hope this helps.

least

The first two weeks sober can be rough, very up and down. Hang in there and don't give in to the voices. It WILL get better, I promise.

K8E

I was looking through the book recomendation thread and found myself typing stuff I'd never admitted to myself before.
I think it might help explain why I ended up here on SR....

"I got 'Drinking:A love story' today.
I was wondering this past Sunday if I could and/or needed to stop drinking.

I have luckily never hurt anyone except myself with my drinking. But I noticed subtle changes in my drinking MO. I was getting 'Sneaky' about hiding how much I drank. I'd never finish a glass before I re-filled it and I'd sneak an extra glass of wine or bottle of beer when my husband left the room. I had started to think ahead about where and how I could drink. My filter of excuses for how early in the day I could have a drink was getting thinner and thinner. I used to think I'd only drink alone if he worked late and I needed a little something. This led to me feeling it was OK to pretty much drink whenever the kids were in for the night and I felt I could 'Switch off'. Urghh. I hate that.

Then I flipped open an old copy of a magazine and saw a couple of letters recommending this book. It sounded like it could have been written about me. So I ordered it on Sunday, stopped drinking that day and here I am with my book on day 4 of being sober.

Not trying to cut down. Not trying to quit. Doing it."

Dee74

Even tho I was already in early recovery when I read it, that book got me right between the eyes too K8E

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K8E

I haven't started it yet. I read a lot of online reviews that said they started reading it with a glass of wine in hand!

This is a hard time of day for me because I'm cooking. I always reach for a glass of wine when I do that. I got some nice fizzy fruity drinks to try and replace my cravings.

CarolD

You might want to use a totally different glass for non alcoholic
beverages K8E .....instead of a wine one.

That way you won't miss the hand memories/feel
quite so much
or at least ...it worked for me.....

When I poured cola into a wine glass....it still 'felt"
like wine.....and I missed the buzz. Drat!

You are moving right along...good job....

K8E

That's funny you would say thatl! I deliberatly didn't use the same old glass and I actually think I may donate those old glasses because they have so many connections to drinking for me.

I woke up today feeling like I was a more honest person.

People see me as a good mom and an involved community person, good wife, friend etc but I always had the sneaking feeling that they'd find out I was bad!

I didn't even realise how much shame I was feeling, because I would drown those feelings away! Duh.

jwk3964

Day 2 for me.

I've had many "Day 2s" before, but it has gotten to the point where it HAS to stop. Bought to go for a run, and attempt to cook a meatloaf. Even if I fail with the meatloaf, it will feel a lot better than passing out on the kitchen floor from drinking too much.

K8E

Today is my one week. Last night I went out to dinner for the first time since stopping and was surrounded by people having wine, beer etc. I felt good though as my husband told me how proud he was of me. We celebrated our anniversary and for the first time in a long time I enjoyed the whole evening instead of getting fuzzy towards the end. It felt good.
I'm up now before 5am! but it's worth feeling a bit manic to replace feeling terrible.

CarolD

jwk3964.....Welcome to our "Yes! you can" crew


You are already feeling well enough to run and cook?
Gee....you are really having a smooth de tox
Great....

Yes....in sobriety I stopped coming to in odd places
just one of my unexpected benefits....

Glad you are here and off to a fresh start

CarolD

K8E .....Wow! lots of good news from you
Glad you checked in....

Congratulations on your week....and your anniversary


Blessings to you and your husband

CarolD

Sunday for me....means a morning AA meeting
Brunch out with friends in the fellowship....
then home to watch........Football!

I settle in with fresh Ice Tea and
Not only do I know who won the game
but how.....

Let's all enjoy another blessed day free from alcohol

antigone

Tomorrow will be day 1 again tomorrow.

My daughter who is 20 months old came out of hospital yesterday. I almost lost her and i couldn't sleep or function so i drank myself to sleep for a few days. I made the decision to put my battle off until dd was home.

I am glad to be back. Today cant be day one as i had a glass of beer with lunch.

Dee74

I'm glad your daughter is OK antigone.
Many of us had false starts - I hope this time can be your last

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CarolD

Welcome back antigone......

Prayers coming your way for your daughter and you
to have a quick return to health.

K8E

Hi everyone. Just checking in. I'm still doing good. Haven't had a drink since 9/19.
I have a stinking cold right now though, so feeling crummy. It's taken my mind of drinking though so that rocks!

childofnite

Hi everyone! I am new, but have been reading like a madwoman for the past few days and feel as if I know everyone already, LOL!

Day 2 is nearing an end (in a few hours, I will be starting Day 3 - quit midday quite unexpectedly. )

One thing that has really helped is thinking this: There is no 'try'. If I say 'try', I will fail. I commit to DO. No allowing for 'do not'. I am saving my life.

I guess to shorten it, think like Yoda: "Do or do not, there is no 'try'. LOL

Have a great day, everyone!

K8E

Welcome Childofnite. I agree with what you said. I have always said 'I'll try to cut back' 'I try to have just one' 'I'll try to listen to my husband when he tries to cut me off!!'
But none of that worked.
I have no "cut off', so I needed to stop totally. Once I did my body fell apart for a few days and I knew how addicted I really was.
Good luck.

CarolD

Long ago I nick named this thread.....
"Yes...you can".

childofnite.....Welcome! you are fitting right in with us

jwk3964

Well, I'm currently on Day 6. Not going to lie... the withdrawals have subsided for the most part (shakes, night sweats)... but now the anxiety, slight depression, and the mental fog have really hit me head on. I've been dealing with some stressful situations the past few days (mostly my car broke down and is going to cost me quite a bit to fix)... but I'm sticking with it. I have to say the best thing so far is that I'm laughing A LOT more and I'm FINALLY taking care of business that I've been putting off FOR MONTHS. These forums have helped me A TON! Have a most excellent day everyone!