One More Day Part 2
Life Goes On
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"Maybe you could get a bottle then just try one and see what happens."
"If you want to be safe, maybe we could stop at a bar and just have one." (Even though this is something I would never do.)
"Should've stopped taking the Antabuse last week."
"Maybe you could just try one realll slow. And then you could like extinguish the horrible reaction."
Maybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybe
Oy vey
No worries, it's just nattering.
"If you want to be safe, maybe we could stop at a bar and just have one." (Even though this is something I would never do.)
"Should've stopped taking the Antabuse last week."
"Maybe you could just try one realll slow. And then you could like extinguish the horrible reaction."
Maybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybe
Oy vey
No worries, it's just nattering.
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Join Date: May 2017
Location: Tyne and Wear, UK
Posts: 1,538
Originally Posted by Obladi 
Hey Tyne, hope you're having a fantastic day. How you feeling?
Me, I'm just plain old me, boring, no drama.
These could be construed as good things.
Day 46
Me, I'm just plain old me, boring, no drama.
These could be construed as good things.
Day 46
Originally Posted by Obladi
"Maybe you could get a bottle then just try one and see what happens."
"If you want to be safe, maybe we could stop at a bar and just have one." (Even though this is something I would never do.)
"Should've stopped taking the Antabuse last week."
"Maybe you could just try one realll slow. And then you could like extinguish the horrible reaction."
Maybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybe
Oy vey
No worries, it's just nattering.
"If you want to be safe, maybe we could stop at a bar and just have one." (Even though this is something I would never do.)
"Should've stopped taking the Antabuse last week."
"Maybe you could just try one realll slow. And then you could like extinguish the horrible reaction."
Maybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybemaybe
Oy vey
No worries, it's just nattering.
I actually enjoy it more than I did when I used to go in for alcohol. I still listen to music and talk to fellow customers and staff, only difference is, I'm having a soft drink.
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Join Date: Sep 2015
Posts: 3,163
Hey O and her people,
Picked up my youngest who is 13 from camp yesterday and recieved a picture of my 24 year old at the first wedding of a friend.
Both made me happy and sad. They are starting fly, or growing bigger wings, as the case may be. I know this should make me happy and it does, but also means they are flying away from mama.
O, those nattering ass$holes are so irratating. I am in New England and there is a nice lady at the hotel with her sister. The sister has a clear drinking issue and two little boys, one of whom has severe behaviour issues. By the end of the night she was blotto and he was on a tear and I was worried whether she would be able to make sure he was ok once they went upstairs.
Brought home again why my eldest was so worried when her sester was little. Not nice, but good to keep in mind in case the nattering were to start.
This island also reminds me of my youth trips and how much drinking controlled the trip even when we did not go overboard.
Just tell your assh$le to shut up. Cause once you let it out of its box, it is running the show and always ruins the party. And everytime we let it out of the box there is a greater risk it will never get back in.
You got this! 29 and 49 is so good...
XXXX
Picked up my youngest who is 13 from camp yesterday and recieved a picture of my 24 year old at the first wedding of a friend.
Both made me happy and sad. They are starting fly, or growing bigger wings, as the case may be. I know this should make me happy and it does, but also means they are flying away from mama.
O, those nattering ass$holes are so irratating. I am in New England and there is a nice lady at the hotel with her sister. The sister has a clear drinking issue and two little boys, one of whom has severe behaviour issues. By the end of the night she was blotto and he was on a tear and I was worried whether she would be able to make sure he was ok once they went upstairs.
Brought home again why my eldest was so worried when her sester was little. Not nice, but good to keep in mind in case the nattering were to start.
This island also reminds me of my youth trips and how much drinking controlled the trip even when we did not go overboard.
Just tell your assh$le to shut up. Cause once you let it out of its box, it is running the show and always ruins the party. And everytime we let it out of the box there is a greater risk it will never get back in.
You got this! 29 and 49 is so good...
XXXX
Life Goes On
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Good on ya, Tynesider. Celebrating a month tomorrow, what a marvelous thing that is, no? I enjoy a crossword and a sudoko as well. Only medium capabilities, but that's ok. I like a challenge.
Dropsie, I'm glad you're present for your girls now. They surely appreciate having mum around while their wings are spreading. I had a picture of you literally going overboard on those younger vacations.
I managed to stuff It in a box this weekend, but apparently everything else was wound all up with it because it was almost quite literally a nothing weekend. Ate meals, did a load of laundry, slept, watched Netflix. Slept more.
Anyhow.
Day 49
Dropsie, I'm glad you're present for your girls now. They surely appreciate having mum around while their wings are spreading. I had a picture of you literally going overboard on those younger vacations.
I managed to stuff It in a box this weekend, but apparently everything else was wound all up with it because it was almost quite literally a nothing weekend. Ate meals, did a load of laundry, slept, watched Netflix. Slept more.
Anyhow.
Day 49
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Peaky Blinders, eh? I might have to check that out.
At the moment I'm working on a migraine - trying to stave it off with some caffeine and ibuprofen but things aren't looking good what with the stomach upset and all.
Went to a meeting this evening and found myself with a lot to say but not much coming out of my mouth. The reading centered on 24 hours at a time and being as that is both too large and too small a timeframe for me to wrap my head around, I said I'm just going to stick with "I don't drink now." After all, it's worked for this long...
Spoke at therapy today about this nothingness I'm living in right now. It's exactly the void I was afraid of facing while I was drinking. For some twisted reason, I find a little comfort in that; sort of like "Yep, I was dead on with what the hard part was going to be." But damn, it is hard. Therapist says something along the lines of, "You are seeking joy" and I respond something like, "I don't even care enough right now to have the capacity to wish." Which sounds kind of worse than it is because I don't care that much. It's just irritating? Something like that.
On the upside, I don't drink now. Can't swear that it feels better than drinking, but it is inherently "better" and that's good enough for now.
At the moment I'm working on a migraine - trying to stave it off with some caffeine and ibuprofen but things aren't looking good what with the stomach upset and all.
Went to a meeting this evening and found myself with a lot to say but not much coming out of my mouth. The reading centered on 24 hours at a time and being as that is both too large and too small a timeframe for me to wrap my head around, I said I'm just going to stick with "I don't drink now." After all, it's worked for this long...
Spoke at therapy today about this nothingness I'm living in right now. It's exactly the void I was afraid of facing while I was drinking. For some twisted reason, I find a little comfort in that; sort of like "Yep, I was dead on with what the hard part was going to be." But damn, it is hard. Therapist says something along the lines of, "You are seeking joy" and I respond something like, "I don't even care enough right now to have the capacity to wish." Which sounds kind of worse than it is because I don't care that much. It's just irritating? Something like that.
On the upside, I don't drink now. Can't swear that it feels better than drinking, but it is inherently "better" and that's good enough for now.
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I’m glad you are facing this nothingness. Glad because I really get the sense that it is You doing the facing , the starting to come to whatever may be needed to begin the wanting to seek the search for joy.
Glad it’s not letting the nothingness , the slow creeping nothingness of continued slavish drudergy of drinking , taking you away , grinding you .
Inherently waaaaayy better, you go sis
Nothing sucks forever
Glad it’s not letting the nothingness , the slow creeping nothingness of continued slavish drudergy of drinking , taking you away , grinding you .
Inherently waaaaayy better, you go sis
Nothing sucks forever
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50!!
Living is just living.
I have been thinking about that a lot lately.
We get this one ride on this rodeo in which we get to experience the wonder of being concious as humans. And yet we spend our time becoming unconcious, altering or dreading the conciousness. Wasup wit dat I ask myself?
It really is amazing this thing called life on this rocket ship called earth, even when we are bored watching netflix on our collective coaches. We can still wonder that we are able to realize and experience that.
But when we are drunk, we dont experience it, not really.
Dropsie thought for the day.
XXX
Living is just living.
I have been thinking about that a lot lately.
We get this one ride on this rodeo in which we get to experience the wonder of being concious as humans. And yet we spend our time becoming unconcious, altering or dreading the conciousness. Wasup wit dat I ask myself?
It really is amazing this thing called life on this rocket ship called earth, even when we are bored watching netflix on our collective coaches. We can still wonder that we are able to realize and experience that.
But when we are drunk, we dont experience it, not really.
Dropsie thought for the day.
XXX
Life Goes On
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Location: Baltimore, Maryland
Posts: 6,069
"Starting to come to whatever may be needed."
"We can still wonder that we are able to realize and experience that."
Indeed.
Drops, I first read sitting on coaches as having something to do with living as roaches. Sort of the same thing, eh? But the benefit of being human is that I realize I have roach-like tendencies. One could say that's disgusting, but those guys survive.
Day 50, indeed
"We can still wonder that we are able to realize and experience that."
Indeed.
Drops, I first read sitting on coaches as having something to do with living as roaches. Sort of the same thing, eh? But the benefit of being human is that I realize I have roach-like tendencies. One could say that's disgusting, but those guys survive.
Day 50, indeed
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