One More Day Part 2
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An analogy for the Beast and it’s AV , in AVRT the desire for alcohol, as a rogue survival drive would be the sensation of thirst.
Thirst , the feeling of the need for hydration is a ‘hardwired feature’ of brain function. Feeling thirsty is ‘how’ our bodies let our conscious minds know that it’s time to think about taking some real world action toward resuming homeostasis as it relates to fluid levels.
The fact we experience thirst is a sign of healthily function human system. We ignore that signal to our peril or temporary discomfort.
The Beast is rogue/false/misdirected survival drive that hijacks the hardwired ‘system’ and functions essentially the same way as thirst , it tries to impinge on our conscious minds to take the actions required to satiate it.
The difference with a false or rogue as opposed to an appropriate or true survival drive , is a rogue drive can and should be ignored. We ignore Beast and receive no consequences , ignoring the Beast has the exact opposite effect of putting oneself in peril.
The Beast once born will never die or go away, but in fashionable parlance once You are woke to Its design, letting it bide its time ain’t nothing but a thang.
Thirst , the feeling of the need for hydration is a ‘hardwired feature’ of brain function. Feeling thirsty is ‘how’ our bodies let our conscious minds know that it’s time to think about taking some real world action toward resuming homeostasis as it relates to fluid levels.
The fact we experience thirst is a sign of healthily function human system. We ignore that signal to our peril or temporary discomfort.
The Beast is rogue/false/misdirected survival drive that hijacks the hardwired ‘system’ and functions essentially the same way as thirst , it tries to impinge on our conscious minds to take the actions required to satiate it.
The difference with a false or rogue as opposed to an appropriate or true survival drive , is a rogue drive can and should be ignored. We ignore Beast and receive no consequences , ignoring the Beast has the exact opposite effect of putting oneself in peril.
The Beast once born will never die or go away, but in fashionable parlance once You are woke to Its design, letting it bide its time ain’t nothing but a thang.
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Join Date: May 2017
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Originally Posted by Dropsie 
Good luck to Gateshead FC, a new team for me.
Where are they based?
O, waas up? I am on a cruise -- never thought I would say that! So far, fun.
Where are they based?
O, waas up? I am on a cruise -- never thought I would say that! So far, fun.
Enjoy your cruise.
Originally Posted by SnazzyDresser
Obladi, are you doing ok?
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If anyone would like to listen to the match tonight, it's on at 7.30pm UK time (we're on BST at the moment, which is GMT +1). So, you'd need to work it out in comparison to where you are. (Only one I know is that it's 2.30pm in the American Mid West, I know that because I have friends over there!).
https://www.spreaker.com/show/heed-army-podcast_1
https://www.spreaker.com/show/heed-army-podcast_1
Life Goes On
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This is the post that is so difficult to write...
I drank last weekend.
On Antabuse.
It was godawful and not enjoyable and wasteful and disgusting.
Trying to reconstruct "what happened" seems impossible and almost a worthless effort. What happened is that I let my stupider, more base inclinations take over.
The "good news" is that I did not drink yesterday nor will I drink today. Because, as I've said, I don't drink now. D#%&it.
Day 2
Tyne, I hope you are miles ahead of me now. You're a good bud.
More ruminating and thoughts on commitment to come here:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ckleheads.html (Real, Raw Talk About Relapse & Recovery, by O & Cow & All You Chuckleheads)
I drank last weekend.
On Antabuse.
It was godawful and not enjoyable and wasteful and disgusting.
Trying to reconstruct "what happened" seems impossible and almost a worthless effort. What happened is that I let my stupider, more base inclinations take over.
The "good news" is that I did not drink yesterday nor will I drink today. Because, as I've said, I don't drink now. D#%&it.
Day 2
Tyne, I hope you are miles ahead of me now. You're a good bud.
More ruminating and thoughts on commitment to come here:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ckleheads.html (Real, Raw Talk About Relapse & Recovery, by O & Cow & All You Chuckleheads)
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Hi Ob.
I've posted similar to someone else a few days ago, the fight against alcohol is just that, a fight, and it seems that over the weekend it got a punch in, so, punch it back, harder this time. You didn't drink yesterday, that's good, and your goal is to not drink today, so the tides are turning back in your favour.
Like you said, you do not drink. I can use an example from my own real life. I don't smoke. If I get asked by a doctor, "do I smoke?" the answer is no. However, a few weeks ago, a friend was having a cigarette and asked me if I wanted "a drag". For some reason that I can't quite explain, I said yes, and had a go on it. I'm still a non smoker.
This is day 39 for me. I don't think I'll be returning to rehab. I can see the advantages of it and I am not leaving on bad terms, knowing that I can go back anytime if I feel I need it, but I have the opportunity of a voluntary job, which gets me out of the house and doing something I enjoy doing. Unfortunately I can't do both and I just feel that I'd be an idiot to pass up on this opportunity.
Edit: Also, Gateshead won 2-1 the other night. Next game, back at home, Saturday.
I've posted similar to someone else a few days ago, the fight against alcohol is just that, a fight, and it seems that over the weekend it got a punch in, so, punch it back, harder this time. You didn't drink yesterday, that's good, and your goal is to not drink today, so the tides are turning back in your favour.
Like you said, you do not drink. I can use an example from my own real life. I don't smoke. If I get asked by a doctor, "do I smoke?" the answer is no. However, a few weeks ago, a friend was having a cigarette and asked me if I wanted "a drag". For some reason that I can't quite explain, I said yes, and had a go on it. I'm still a non smoker.
This is day 39 for me. I don't think I'll be returning to rehab. I can see the advantages of it and I am not leaving on bad terms, knowing that I can go back anytime if I feel I need it, but I have the opportunity of a voluntary job, which gets me out of the house and doing something I enjoy doing. Unfortunately I can't do both and I just feel that I'd be an idiot to pass up on this opportunity.
Edit: Also, Gateshead won 2-1 the other night. Next game, back at home, Saturday.
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Thanks, Tyne. I don't feel like punching; no anger. It's more like leaving that bad space for a sober place. I did not drink yesterday and will not drink today. Love that you are a non-drinker. It isn't easy to achieve that status with confidence and I am so glad you are there. Thanks for the bolstering.
Are you comfortable sharing what your temporary job will be? I'm glad you have found something to do that will engage you. Day 39 is awesome. Is it at all difficult for you, friend? Or have you simply settled in?
I think I should boo Gateshead winning?
Are you comfortable sharing what your temporary job will be? I'm glad you have found something to do that will engage you. Day 39 is awesome. Is it at all difficult for you, friend? Or have you simply settled in?
I think I should boo Gateshead winning?
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