Dee74

last part here
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...re-day-21.html (One More Day)

trachemys

The current claim is "stotgun" is it not?

entropy1964

I've never posted in this thread before! How exciting.

Today is everything. I'm drinking my coffee. Its dark out. My house is falling apart...seriously. Just in the last month my dryer broke, my vacuum broke, had to have a bunch of water damage repaired, new roof starting tomorrow (that should be....loud), my washer now has a leak that I've duct taped but that won't last....obviously, my driveway has a massive crack and my back fence blew down last night. Sooooo, just waiting for all the other appliances, maybe some plumbing, possibly the water heater, maybe the master shower, to all go **** up. What the heck? Oh well, it'll work out. Thank God I got insurance to pay for the roof. 20 year old house....yep. Maybe the stock market will go back up. Daughter is leaving for Uni in a year too....hmmmmm. How to pay? Dunno.

Baby Jesus? I'm gonna need you to take the wheel.....

Obladi

Stotgun? Ok... congratulations Trach.

Fricka, I feel ya. Seems things all go at once. Good on you for doing something about it! I'd be tempted to hide.

Welcome to the thread - post anytime!

trachemys

A joke from another thread, Ob.

Dropsie

Cross thread chuckles. I love it.

Hows the weekend treating ya O?

fini

hey O.
how are you doing?

entropy1964

I wish I could hide O. But ya know, roof, fence....tough ones to ignore. Now the seal for my front loading washer is cracked so its leaking water. I bought some polyurethane roof and flashing goo. Created a form with some wax paper and painters tape. I've created a kind of fix (hopefully). I'm waiting for it to dry for a couple of days. If that doesn't hold water then its a new washer. Even if it doesn't work it was kinda fun to do. Ugh. Money money money.

So one roofing guy is meandering around today. I mean, at this rate my roof won't be done until the 4th of July. Haha. Oh well. I'm not the roofing person so whatever.

Off to Huntington Learning center to go over my kids 2nd ACT practice test scores. Kid got a 33. That is fricken amazing. At the rate she's going she'll have a scholarship to Stanford. Wouldn't that be something.

So yeah, another day. So glad I'm alive. Have running water. A house to fence or put a roof on. I'm blessed.

Hawkeye13

Hi O et al

dwtbd

Hey O
Whats' shakin'?

Obladi

I've been having a rough week. Depression, anxiety, bad sleep, procrastination, just all around not so great. I got up this morning after periodic snoozing after a nightmare and said to self, "Ok, O, just do one thing that needs doing." So I did a few dishes, then I cleaned the cat box, then I bleached the bathroom counter, then I took my meds, then I discovered what was in the dryer. And I started to feel better. This is a lesson I have to learn over and over again, "Just Do One Thing." How frustrating is that?

But. I came home and moved some laundry and took out the recycling and pre-paid the bills I had and opened the windows to this glorious 72 degree weather! And so the One Thing had it's affect today. Not so frustrated right at the moment.

Spoke with the therapist about some hard stuff today - regrets and blaming myself and holding onto things for far too long. I didn't like it, but some things need to be said to be cleared up. Like for instance, the bad dream was about a long-gone husband and anger from a couple of decades ago. When this stuff pops up again, it makes me feel not well. Apparently this is a normal thing? To get angry all over again with someone? This is not what I was taught in Catholic grade school, you know. Forgiving is something akin to forgetting in that model. And if I don't forgive, then that's my fault. Well, I don't forgive what he did or how he treated us, but I can let go (mostly, aside from a random dream every ten years or so) and apparently that's just fine. Who knew? Probably all y'all.

Weekend is coming up fast and I sure don't like that.

Obladi

Fricka, how you doing?
Don't hide - that makes things worse, believe me.

Dropsie

Frick,

I can also attest.

O,

I have been where you are and I know how tough it is for me. I am also not having a great week.

I am thinking of you!

Obladi

Sorry things are hard for you right now, Drops. I'm very glad you're here.

Hawkeye13

Funny how things linger for decades and more sometimes till they get processed.

I had lots of stuff around that with my alcoholic mother.
Bit by bit, I looked at what happened and my part in in and once I did that,
felt the emotions around it, and forgave myself and her, it gradually
began to fade--to lose its charge, as it were.

Now I can think of her, and those days, with peace and appreciate the life lessons.
Mostly I don't think of it anymore, and I almost never have dreams about it or her.

I used to have many dreams of us coming to blows, literally and emotionally.
I'm grateful those are gone and I can think of the love we shared,
broken and imperfect as it was. It still was precious to a child.

Cow

I not having great week either, Kittens. But hey, it Friday the 13th... what possible can go wrong.

Obladi

I took a recertification test (module in information tech) today and passed. Thirteenth shmirteenth.

Also did more Useful Things. Who knows what might happen? I could maybe even change my sheets! Stay tuned for the next exciting chapter in The Life of a Mediocre.

Obladi

Cow, what's the buzz?

dwtbd

Lawn fertilized, collaborative dinner (grilled chicken fettuccine Alfredo, I screwed up pasta timing ,sauce too thick but tasty anyway) we are thoroughly enjoying respite camp time .
Our daughter aka princess shall resume her reign on Sunday , I kid , I kid

JJ991

I just have to say....we have sunshine!!! I forgot what that was, it's been so long!

Having a tough time at the moment too but a bit of sun lifts my mood.