just got out of detox
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just got out of detox
Just got out of detox, went home and had a few beers. I think it's out of defiance of something, but this has been my pattern after leaving treatment, but It never lasts more than a day, than I settle down to sobriety. go figure. Anyhow, I start IOP next Monday so that should help. actually got a lot done today, did a lot of cleaning around my apartment today. felt good. My kitchen hasn't looked this good in months. keeping my fingers crossed.
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Hmmm. Well I guess you're going to get some strong responses here over your choice to drink beer again.
My opinion... it doesn't sound good. Defiance as a knee jerk reaction suggests that you aren't committed to sobriety yet. Is sobriety what you really want? Good luck either way.
My opinion... it doesn't sound good. Defiance as a knee jerk reaction suggests that you aren't committed to sobriety yet. Is sobriety what you really want? Good luck either way.
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Ok can't help it. When you say out of defiance, against what? The detox centre that you went on your own will for help, or defiance against your addiction?
If it's about your addiction, defiance would mean you would find a way to get support and stay sober, if it's against the detox centre it seems illogical.
Just saying, couldn't help but ask.
If it's about your addiction, defiance would mean you would find a way to get support and stay sober, if it's against the detox centre it seems illogical.
Just saying, couldn't help but ask.
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Originally Posted by Thepatman 
Welcome back. Not sure what to say. Detox then beer sounds strange.
But heck if you think this is what you need who am I to judge.
But heck if you think this is what you need who am I to judge.
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Not sure I understand the point of getting out of detox and then having "a few beers." Did you go to detox voluntarily? If so, who exactly are you rebelling against?
Doesn't sound like a great idea to me, to be honest.
Doesn't sound like a great idea to me, to be honest.
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It is amazing the batterings many of us endure before finally see
ing the writing on the wall.
As well as stopping we need to replace the old ways and minds set in a more creative and healthy pattern.
Some find AA, AS A FELLOWSHIP HELPFUL IN THIS REGARD............
ing the writing on the wall.As well as stopping we need to replace the old ways and minds set in a more creative and healthy pattern.
Some find AA, AS A FELLOWSHIP HELPFUL IN THIS REGARD............
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In a way, I feel like a kid that was grounded by my parents, that let lose to show them who is really running the show. Pathetic I know, but at least I'm adult enough to enroll in an IOP next week. Not expecting any pats on the back with this, just being honest.
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Thanks for being honest. Personally, cleaning your environment is a good sign and I hope you're doing okay. Having a few beers after rehab doesn't sound cool, BUT you are the key to your recovery and I wish you the best.
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Originally Posted by 2muchpain
Just got out of detox, went home and had a few beers. I think it's out of defiance of something, but this has been my pattern after leaving treatment, but It never lasts more than a day, than I settle down to sobriety. go figure. Anyhow, I start IOP next Monday so that should help. actually got a lot done today, did a lot of cleaning around my apartment today. felt good. My kitchen hasn't looked this good in months. keeping my fingers crossed.
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I personally saw pure AV in there.
We went to detox, We cleaned up my house, we deserve a beer, tomorrow we will make it day 1 and succeed. Of course our friend doesn't want to drink, but the AV is always thirsty and can easily wait until after detox to strike.
We went to detox, We cleaned up my house, we deserve a beer, tomorrow we will make it day 1 and succeed. Of course our friend doesn't want to drink, but the AV is always thirsty and can easily wait until after detox to strike.
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Originally Posted by 2muchpain
In a way, I feel like a kid that was grounded by my parents, that let lose to show them who is really running the show. Pathetic I know, but at least I'm adult enough to enroll in an IOP next week. Not expecting any pats on the back with this, just being honest.
Have you looked up AVRT?
Kudos for the IOP, that is you that wants that. I bet your AV will start making excuses just the day before.
Hope this helps, learning to recognize your AV is key in recovery. It is extremely cunning.
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I have known others and I'll some people on SR that have gone through the same thing I am dealing with that have slipped back for a day or two than went on to lengthy sobriety. I don't think this is anything knew.
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Originally Posted by 2muchpain
In a way, I feel like a kid that was grounded by my parents, that let lose to show them who is really running the show. Pathetic I know, but at least I'm adult enough to enroll in an IOP next week. Not expecting any pats on the back with this, just being honest.
You know who's really running the show? the Beast. you're obeying the Addictive Voice.
I'm so worried for you
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Originally Posted by 2muchpain
I have known others and I'll some people on SR that have gone through the same thing I am dealing with that have slipped back for a day or two than went on to lengthy sobriety. I don't think this is anything knew.
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"but this has been my pattern after leaving treatment, but It never lasts more than a day"
A "pattern" of relapse? A far cry from Sober Recovery.
"keeping my fingers crossed"
Never worked for me.
Don't get me wrong; it's just that it doesn't really sound like sobriety or recovery,and because you're not sober or recovered I wonder where this is all headed.
I wish you the best of luck; it's just so contradictory that it's confusing
A "pattern" of relapse? A far cry from Sober Recovery.
"keeping my fingers crossed"
Never worked for me.
Don't get me wrong; it's just that it doesn't really sound like sobriety or recovery,and because you're not sober or recovered I wonder where this is all headed.
I wish you the best of luck; it's just so contradictory that it's confusing
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