AVRT to cope with emotional binge eating
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Originally Posted by GerandTwine 
The Beast/AV of AVRT can never 'get' you. You simply decide to set AVRT aside and for what ever reason choose to engage in what you have previously determined is against your better judgement. To me a Big Plan means I decided to NEVER set aside AVRT.
Not to worry, you still have every capacity to make that once-in-a-lifetime Bulemia Big Plan.
Not to worry, you still have every capacity to make that once-in-a-lifetime Bulemia Big Plan.
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Hi, pals!
I am finally back, sorry for abandoning you for so long - been up to my heels with work and had to block internet to keep me absolutely focused.
I am good, I don't know what exactly clicked this time - but sweets just don't exist for me any more.
I actually didn't make my Big Plan for chocolate. The reason is that all chocolate bars and other crap fall into the same category as sweets so they are out of question. But I like extra dark chocolate and I never binged on it.
So I am a little bit hesitating here - should I rule it out as well or is it ok to have some dark chocolate once in a while. The catch here is that even 85% dark chocolate has some sugar in it. I've seen some 98% chocolate that has no sugar at all - should I stick only to this one? What do you think, pals?
I wonder is it possible to make Big Plan for something intangible? Like "I will never say to myself that I am a loser, etc.?
Because I've started saying this to myself again. I just can't understand why my real life is still like some crap? I mean - if I take separate elements, they are ok, but I can't put them together. I still can't get out of my financial predicament, build some more or less stable life. I just can't find this missing element.
Headlump - my friend, don't beat yourself up! Been there a lot of times - you know this) Oh, those images in window shops. I prefer never look at them otherwise it will ruin my day.
Remember - you may feel anxious, bad, hopeless, but the beast has nothing to do with eat. You have every right to feel it, and then deal with this feeling. The Beast can keep begging in the street - but there's nothing for him here. Hugs to you)
Jeni - Glad you are feeling strong) My AV also constantly tries this "a terrible idea and that I have nothing to look forward to in life", but it's kind of getting old.
So glad to "see" you again.
Best wishes)
I am finally back, sorry for abandoning you for so long - been up to my heels with work and had to block internet to keep me absolutely focused.
I am good, I don't know what exactly clicked this time - but sweets just don't exist for me any more.
I actually didn't make my Big Plan for chocolate. The reason is that all chocolate bars and other crap fall into the same category as sweets so they are out of question. But I like extra dark chocolate and I never binged on it.
So I am a little bit hesitating here - should I rule it out as well or is it ok to have some dark chocolate once in a while. The catch here is that even 85% dark chocolate has some sugar in it. I've seen some 98% chocolate that has no sugar at all - should I stick only to this one? What do you think, pals?
I wonder is it possible to make Big Plan for something intangible? Like "I will never say to myself that I am a loser, etc.?
Because I've started saying this to myself again. I just can't understand why my real life is still like some crap? I mean - if I take separate elements, they are ok, but I can't put them together. I still can't get out of my financial predicament, build some more or less stable life. I just can't find this missing element.
Headlump - my friend, don't beat yourself up! Been there a lot of times - you know this) Oh, those images in window shops. I prefer never look at them otherwise it will ruin my day.
Remember - you may feel anxious, bad, hopeless, but the beast has nothing to do with eat. You have every right to feel it, and then deal with this feeling. The Beast can keep begging in the street - but there's nothing for him here. Hugs to you)
Jeni - Glad you are feeling strong) My AV also constantly tries this "a terrible idea and that I have nothing to look forward to in life", but it's kind of getting old.
So glad to "see" you again.
Best wishes)
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Oh, a little bit of clarification here - I don't eat dark chocolate now because I can't decide whether can I eat it or not
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Originally Posted by MidnightBlue
So I am a little bit hesitating here - should I rule it out as well or is it ok to have some dark chocolate once in a while. The catch here is that even 85% dark chocolate has some sugar in it. I've seen some 98% chocolate that has no sugar at all - should I stick only to this one? What do you think, pals?
I wonder is it possible to make Big Plan for something intangible? Like "I will never say to myself that I am a loser, etc.?
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Originally Posted by GerandTwine
I don't think the "I'm a loser" idea is from a misplaced pleasure based appetite. It's motivated from somewhere else.
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Thank you for your kind words, MB 
I'm feeling much stronger now and am coming up to Day 4 of the Big Badass One! I'm very interested in hearing how you and Jeni are doing. You both sound so determined and it's wonderful to hear 
Gerand: Thanks for all your insights. I am learning so much from you
I'm feeling much stronger now and am coming up to Day 4 of the Big Badass One! I'm very interested in hearing how you and Jeni are doing. You both sound so determined and it's wonderful to hear Gerand: Thanks for all your insights. I am learning so much from you
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