He's leaving...and my heart is breaking.
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I'm so hurt and angry today. For the last 3 days, he has not answered my phone calls. When I call him, all his phone does is ring and ring. Last night, I got ahold of him and he told me that he "needs time." I don't understand why he is pushing me away right now.
I know I said a few things to hurt him, but I told him I was sorry. He said that he's not mad at me but he acts like he is mad.
Any thoughts??
I know I said a few things to hurt him, but I told him I was sorry. He said that he's not mad at me but he acts like he is mad.
Any thoughts??
Paige
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AND...time is the healer of all things! Take this time for you. 
It isn't easy, and a broken heart is very painful. We just have to believe that there is a plan...bigger than we are! THAT is something to look forward to. Stay strong my friend! I am sending you a hug....and a smile.
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It isn't easy, and a broken heart is very painful. We just have to believe that there is a plan...bigger than we are! THAT is something to look forward to. Stay strong my friend! I am sending you a hug....and a smile. Paige
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Hon,
you're pushing him away. Everyone needs space no matter how much you love a person. My ex didn't want me to leave the house. LOL She got mad at me for using the bathroom in our basement and not telling her. HMMM That's not normal.
Give each other space. Absence does make the heart grow fonder
you're pushing him away. Everyone needs space no matter how much you love a person. My ex didn't want me to leave the house. LOL She got mad at me for using the bathroom in our basement and not telling her. HMMM That's not normal.
Give each other space. Absence does make the heart grow fonder
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Paige, you made me smile today. I really needed to hear those words.
Chris, thanks for opening my eyes. I am going to let him have his space for now. I did talk to him earlier and told him that I'll always be here for him. I didn't say too much. I needed to open my eyes to the fact that I am pushing him away and didn't realize it.
Chris, thanks for opening my eyes. I am going to let him have his space for now. I did talk to him earlier and told him that I'll always be here for him. I didn't say too much. I needed to open my eyes to the fact that I am pushing him away and didn't realize it.
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Paige, it is so good to know that I'm not alone.
I think seeing him earlier did me a lot of good. We talked briefly. I didn't hug him goodbye, I wanted to but a part of me held back. I thought that now might not be the best time and hopefully there will be future hugs, LOL, silly but true.
I feel a bit more at ease with the situation now that I got a chance to talk to him without being angry.
I think seeing him earlier did me a lot of good. We talked briefly. I didn't hug him goodbye, I wanted to but a part of me held back. I thought that now might not be the best time and hopefully there will be future hugs, LOL, silly but true.
I feel a bit more at ease with the situation now that I got a chance to talk to him without being angry.
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He is like my addiction too. So I will stay away from him like I stay away from drugs, hehe. 
I'm not gonna call him. I'm gonna be strong and make it on my own.
I guess I'll try to not call him for an hour at a time right??
I feel so darn silly!
Hehe!!
I'm not gonna call him. I'm gonna be strong and make it on my own.
I guess I'll try to not call him for an hour at a time right??
I feel so darn silly!
Hehe!!
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A Time to Think:
Love is the strongest force the world possesses, and yet it is the humblest imaginable. - Mahatma Gandhi
To Act:
Live with hope in your heart.
To Pray:
Lord, paint fresh new brush strokes of love into my life every day.
Love is the strongest force the world possesses, and yet it is the humblest imaginable. - Mahatma Gandhi
To Act:
Live with hope in your heart.
To Pray:
Lord, paint fresh new brush strokes of love into my life every day.
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I got in a car accident and my neck is hurting. I need to back to a Dr. but I don't have medical insurance. I've also been stressed out because I have many bills and not enough money to pay the bills.
I know that things will work out though. I am looking up, not down. And using would not help the situation at all, only make it so much worse.
Physically, I'm not doing to well right now. I wish I knew when my body would heal.
OK- enough about that. THANKS FOR SUPPORT FRIENDS!
I know that things will work out though. I am looking up, not down. And using would not help the situation at all, only make it so much worse.
Physically, I'm not doing to well right now. I wish I knew when my body would heal.
OK- enough about that. THANKS FOR SUPPORT FRIENDS!
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Hope,
I admire your strength and hope and pray some day I'll be that strong. I'm starting fresh again today...day 1 for me
all I can do is go from here. You have had so many hard knocks and yet you maintained you didn't cave in. That's so wonderfull
Take Care,
Georgia
I admire your strength and hope and pray some day I'll be that strong. I'm starting fresh again today...day 1 for me
all I can do is go from here. You have had so many hard knocks and yet you maintained you didn't cave in. That's so wonderfull
Take Care,
Georgia
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Hi Georgia,
It is by the grace of God that tomorrow will be two weeks clean and sober. It has been so hard and I am having so many bad cravings. I want these cravings to go away.
I haven't talked to him in 2 days. I'm doing well with giving us both some space.
Hang in there Georgia, don't give up. I believe in you!
Love, Hope
It is by the grace of God that tomorrow will be two weeks clean and sober. It has been so hard and I am having so many bad cravings. I want these cravings to go away.
I haven't talked to him in 2 days. I'm doing well with giving us both some space.
Hang in there Georgia, don't give up. I believe in you!
Love, Hope
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wow hope your doing great!!! i know those cravings are bad but remember they will get better the longer you are sober. i was at a meeting tonight with a lady with 44 yrs soberity and after like 6months -1 yr she said she didnt even have the cravings anymore so there is time to look forward to. i'm so proud of you!!!!!
so there is time to look forward to. i'm so proud of you!!!!!
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Staying strong. What is weird is that yesterday passed and I did not miss him that much.
I was so busy with my own life that I gave talking to him little thought.
Now that's improvement.
I was so busy with my own life that I gave talking to him little thought.
Now that's improvement.
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