Rummaging through my sober tool box I was shocked to see …..Weekenders 13 - 16 May 2022
Giving up is NOT an option.
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Western Wisconsin
Posts: 7,809
Thanks everyone, for the kind words about my dog. I tried to stay away from the house as much as possible this weekend, because it's just not the same without my doggy there. I know I did the right thing, and that he is thanking me from the other side of the rainbow bridge, but man, it's hard. My boyfriend is taking it hard, too. He was on a business trip on Friday, facing customers, and he said it was really hard to hold it together, knowing what was happening here. I am happy to report that drinking never once occurred to me over the weekend. I guess I have learned that I can do really hard things without alcohol. I'm here at work today, and I think I will be ok.
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Join Date: Jan 2020
Location: NC
Posts: 5,162
Sorry about your pup MLD.
You most definitely did the right thing. It never gets easier.
I have 4 and 2 are over 10 and showing signs of slowing down. I try hard not to think of the future without them though I know it will happen.
You most definitely did the right thing. It never gets easier.
I have 4 and 2 are over 10 and showing signs of slowing down. I try hard not to think of the future without them though I know it will happen.
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Join Date: Jan 2020
Location: NC
Posts: 5,162
26 Months today for me
I want to thank everyone that posts. Without yall I am 99% sure even if I was still sober I'd still be a mess.
I am just now getting to the point most of my tools kick in automatically, it seems, when needed.
Tools I would not have without you wonderful folks.
Not only tools to remain sober but tools for dealing with life itself.
That for me was/is the hardest part. I was done with alcohol when I came here but had no idea how to stop drinking and stay stopped.
Yall helped me with that.
Then reality showed its head once the fog lifted and that was a lot harder than I expected. I thought if I quit drinking long enough life would smooth out. Wrong! My life improved immensely but my mental state would do its best to drag me down at the slightest agitation.
Yall gave me the tools to deal with that.
I will be spending the afternoon watching my grandbabies and playing blocks, running around and just being like a kid. I will not be watching the clock longing for their mother to come pick them up so I can start my daily poisoning ritual. Or worse start while they are still under my care.
They will NEVER see me drink. Never see me stumble and act like a fool because of alcohol. Never ask "what is wrong with grandpa he is acting weird?"
Once they leave I will hit the workshop and get some progress on my project done.
27months ago I would just goof off and get hammered.
I am not perfect. My life is not perfect. I no longer need to be. My life no longer needs to be.
I am damn near content with my place in this world. Not quite there but close enough to see the light I was looking for when I 1st logged on to SR.
Thanks to Every Single One Of You!
I want to thank everyone that posts. Without yall I am 99% sure even if I was still sober I'd still be a mess.
I am just now getting to the point most of my tools kick in automatically, it seems, when needed.
Tools I would not have without you wonderful folks.
Not only tools to remain sober but tools for dealing with life itself.
That for me was/is the hardest part. I was done with alcohol when I came here but had no idea how to stop drinking and stay stopped.
Yall helped me with that.
Then reality showed its head once the fog lifted and that was a lot harder than I expected. I thought if I quit drinking long enough life would smooth out. Wrong! My life improved immensely but my mental state would do its best to drag me down at the slightest agitation.
Yall gave me the tools to deal with that.
I will be spending the afternoon watching my grandbabies and playing blocks, running around and just being like a kid. I will not be watching the clock longing for their mother to come pick them up so I can start my daily poisoning ritual. Or worse start while they are still under my care.
They will NEVER see me drink. Never see me stumble and act like a fool because of alcohol. Never ask "what is wrong with grandpa he is acting weird?"
Once they leave I will hit the workshop and get some progress on my project done.
27months ago I would just goof off and get hammered.
I am not perfect. My life is not perfect. I no longer need to be. My life no longer needs to be.
I am damn near content with my place in this world. Not quite there but close enough to see the light I was looking for when I 1st logged on to SR.
Thanks to Every Single One Of You!
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Canada
Posts: 3,997
Hi Weekenders,
Calmself, you did so well!
MLD, I'm sure it's a huge adjustment.
I went to a small dinner gathering last evening. Everyone was drinking cocktails and wine with dinner. I sipped on peppermint tea and had soda water with dinner. I dusted off the "play it forward" tool, and that helped. No one asked me why I wasn't drinking so that helped. Alcohol does such a bait and switch job on me. It deluded me into thinking I'll be more socially confident but leads to feeling sad and more alone and then solo drinking. I was just quiet. If I'm regarded as boring, so be it. I yam what I yam, as Popeye would say. It's good to wake up sober.
Saou, my kitchen floor is creaking in places. I got treatment for carpenter ants last year. I'm afraid to investigate!
Calmself, you did so well!
MLD, I'm sure it's a huge adjustment.
I went to a small dinner gathering last evening. Everyone was drinking cocktails and wine with dinner. I sipped on peppermint tea and had soda water with dinner. I dusted off the "play it forward" tool, and that helped. No one asked me why I wasn't drinking so that helped. Alcohol does such a bait and switch job on me. It deluded me into thinking I'll be more socially confident but leads to feeling sad and more alone and then solo drinking. I was just quiet. If I'm regarded as boring, so be it. I yam what I yam, as Popeye would say. It's good to wake up sober.
Saou, my kitchen floor is creaking in places. I got treatment for carpenter ants last year. I'm afraid to investigate!
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: London, England
Posts: 7,062
Morning everyone,
Mags how are you feeling?
I have written to the Jury service and asked to be excused - fingers crossed.
Off out walking today with another three terriers. Five with my two. What could possibly go wrong??
Mags how are you feeling?
I have written to the Jury service and asked to be excused - fingers crossed.
Off out walking today with another three terriers. Five with my two. What could possibly go wrong??
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