Was initially too ashamed but am going to post anyway
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Mera - I hardly post anymore but I have to say to you that I am in your corner and hope you have the resolve to remain strong and away from what has been setting you off alcoholic wise. Sorry but it's not rocket science you drink what you drink. I think about the impact on your children and what that would mean to me ifn
I was their auntie. They are so so worth any effort. please take care of yourself
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I was their auntie. They are so so worth any effort. please take care of yourself
One Mother to Another
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Thanks friends 
I am doing ok, pretty good I would say. I did end up having a bad reaction to one of my meds, that skin reaction thing that can be lethal so my doctor told me to stop it right away. I am still on the anti-depressant and I suppose it is helping, I don't feel too different- neither good nor bad, so that is ok. Things are moving along with my various legal woes. The child stuff is good, we had a meeting last week and the court people even suggested that we end everything, that I seemed to be doing well and they would recommend to the courts to finalise everything with me having shared custody. Unfortunately my ex did not agree and wants to continue with the monitoring for a while longer. More money, more stress, but I can't change it, I got myself here, so I have to accept it, peacefully. I finally heard from the lawyers about my DUI from 3 years ago. I was fined €20,000 and a year of house arrest but that is all suspended if I do community service. So I went and registered at the local rescue squad. I am excited about that. I love volunteering and am happy to be pushed in that direction.
I am working as many hours as I can handle, getting up very early to work before my kids wake, then walking up the hill to their father's house to help them with homework, stay with them. I then work the afternoon for a bit, then see them again in the afternoon, then work into the late evening hours. I am trying to eat healthy and work out.
I am not drinking, which nothing else matters- no amount of work, healthy eating or working out- if I don't do that one thing.. not drink.
I am doing ok, pretty good I would say. I did end up having a bad reaction to one of my meds, that skin reaction thing that can be lethal so my doctor told me to stop it right away. I am still on the anti-depressant and I suppose it is helping, I don't feel too different- neither good nor bad, so that is ok. Things are moving along with my various legal woes. The child stuff is good, we had a meeting last week and the court people even suggested that we end everything, that I seemed to be doing well and they would recommend to the courts to finalise everything with me having shared custody. Unfortunately my ex did not agree and wants to continue with the monitoring for a while longer. More money, more stress, but I can't change it, I got myself here, so I have to accept it, peacefully. I finally heard from the lawyers about my DUI from 3 years ago. I was fined €20,000 and a year of house arrest but that is all suspended if I do community service. So I went and registered at the local rescue squad. I am excited about that. I love volunteering and am happy to be pushed in that direction. I am working as many hours as I can handle, getting up very early to work before my kids wake, then walking up the hill to their father's house to help them with homework, stay with them. I then work the afternoon for a bit, then see them again in the afternoon, then work into the late evening hours. I am trying to eat healthy and work out.
I am not drinking, which nothing else matters- no amount of work, healthy eating or working out- if I don't do that one thing.. not drink.
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That’s a positive update Mera! I think knowing the outcome of the DUI will allow you to put it behind you. I’m glad you’re spending so much time with your boys. I’m sorry the monitoring is going to continue, but you seem to have a positive attitude about it, and I think that will help.
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Great to hear from you Mera. Not drinking is everything, congrats on that. Keep feeding the parts of you that are nourished and cared for by sobriety and keep starving the parts that whisper anything else. Also keep us updated. Good stuff.
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I've been hoping to hea from you, Mera. Your post sounds good and I'm glad you're accepting things and also doing what you can do to stay sober. It sounds like you're spending time with your kids which is great and the volunteer work sounds very positive.
Your post sounds good and I'm glad you're accepting things and also doing what you can do to stay sober. It sounds like you're spending time with your kids which is great and the volunteer work sounds very positive. 
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thank you! I am actually doing pretty well. I am sober, not suffering cravings physically or psychologically, working hard, working out, keeping up with things, and overall enjoying a decent level of calmness and happiness. I had to quit one of my meds because I had a really bad reaction to it. I then had to cut down the dosage of the other one by more than half, but I seem to have found the sweet spot for now. I am thankful to have a doctor who listens to me and trusts how I say I feel. I am a bit nervous to be too happy about this though as I have had good experiences with various medications in the past and then all of the sudden they just stop working or a side effect whacks me out of the blue. I am also being really cautious about my sobriety. I have been here before too, that feeling of "I got it this time" and then something happens. For that reason I am keeping it close to the chest this time. I check in here multiple times per day but am really hesitant to post for fear of speaking out of turn and things blowing up in my face. That said, I do take some time each day to be thankful for what I do have and the success I have enjoyed so far.
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Originally Posted by Meraviglioso 
thank you! I am actually doing pretty well. I am sober, not suffering cravings physically or psychologically, working hard, working out, keeping up with things, and overall enjoying a decent level of calmness and happiness. I had to quit one of my meds because I had a really bad reaction to it. I then had to cut down the dosage of the other one by more than half, but I seem to have found the sweet spot for now. I am thankful to have a doctor who listens to me and trusts how I say I feel. I am a bit nervous to be too happy about this though as I have had good experiences with various medications in the past and then all of the sudden they just stop working or a side effect whacks me out of the blue. I am also being really cautious about my sobriety. I have been here before too, that feeling of "I got it this time" and then something happens. For that reason I am keeping it close to the chest this time. I check in here multiple times per day but am really hesitant to post for fear of speaking out of turn and things blowing up in my face. That said, I do take some time each day to be thankful for what I do have and the success I have enjoyed so far.
Yes always take your sobriety seriously and keep it close to your chest. You know what is likely to happen if you don't. Don't ever let it get to that point.
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So happy to read such a cheerful check in. Finding a good doctor is so hard but so necessary. Hope it continues to go well.
I wouldn’t be too concerned about posting “out of turn.” We’re here to support each other and it’s better to post than not too imo.
I wouldn’t be too concerned about posting “out of turn.” We’re here to support each other and it’s better to post than not too imo.
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