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Great on 16 days! They just keep getting better, I think the first week is the hardest. I think I was down in Playa del Carmen, MX. It's a huge party town and I just got carried away. I got cocky and thought it's no big deal, I can handle it. I went to a bar and got hammered with everyone else. That started 2 years of moderate drinking followed by 2 years of heavy drinking leading up to many benders lasting a day to a week. I stopped going to my support group, WQD, and that was a huge mistake. I know now how important these places are, not just in quitting but in staying sober. I couldn't do it alone, even though for a long time I thought I could. It's much easier just quitting drinking and starting a new life. It can be done!
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Day 20. Don't seem to be craving alcohol but I know the urge will pop up its ugly head here soon. Something will happen to trigger me, I just know it, it always does. Got to be ready to fight.
My wife gets back tomorrow. It's been a hard, weird week without her here. I hope she's ready to come back, she's been having so much fun she may not want to.
Had an aortic ultrasound yesterday, part of my wellness program. Haven't seen the results yet but the when I left the tech held my hand and said "good luck to you sir". What? Now I'm nervous!
My wife gets back tomorrow. It's been a hard, weird week without her here. I hope she's ready to come back, she's been having so much fun she may not want to.
Had an aortic ultrasound yesterday, part of my wellness program. Haven't seen the results yet but the when I left the tech held my hand and said "good luck to you sir". What? Now I'm nervous!
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Week 4. Picked up my wife at the airport yesterday, it was so awesome to see her, and have her back. I couldn't stop talking to her last night, I was probably driving her crazy but I haven't had anyone to talk to for over a week. I work from home and by myself.
My hands have all but stopped shaking. It took three weeks for that to happen.
Still waiting on my test results. I assume if it was something serious they would have gotten ahold of me by now. But who knows. My wife has had an incurable autoimmune disease for 21 years and I learned a long time ago that we have assume responsibility for our own health and not rely on doctors. It's imperative that we work with our doctors and not leave everything to them.
Looking forward to a more productive week as my focus and energy return. I have absolutely NO desire to drink. I DO NOT want to go back to where I was when I got here 3 weeks ago. I'm afraid that I'd die if I did.
My hands have all but stopped shaking. It took three weeks for that to happen.
Still waiting on my test results. I assume if it was something serious they would have gotten ahold of me by now. But who knows. My wife has had an incurable autoimmune disease for 21 years and I learned a long time ago that we have assume responsibility for our own health and not rely on doctors. It's imperative that we work with our doctors and not leave everything to them.
Looking forward to a more productive week as my focus and energy return. I have absolutely NO desire to drink. I DO NOT want to go back to where I was when I got here 3 weeks ago. I'm afraid that I'd die if I did.
Leave your front door and your back door open. Allow your thoughts to come and go. Just don't serve them tea.
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Day 23. Thanks for the congrats Dee but I have to finish the week to get to week 5. It will happen!
I still feel a little "different" in sobriety. Different in the sense that I still expect to feel like dirt when I wake up and go through the day. I'm not "used" to being sober yet. I was drunk out of my mind for so long my brain was trained to consider it to be "normal". Now it's retraining itself to think sobriety is "normal". I hope
I still feel a little "different" in sobriety. Different in the sense that I still expect to feel like dirt when I wake up and go through the day. I'm not "used" to being sober yet. I was drunk out of my mind for so long my brain was trained to consider it to be "normal". Now it's retraining itself to think sobriety is "normal". I hope
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Today they found a body in the river below my house. It was a guy who wandered away from a bar in town at 1:40AM about 5 days ago and hadn't been seen since. 53 year old.
I was thinking: "There but for the grace of God go I". How sad, he just got married 2 months ago.
I was thinking: "There but for the grace of God go I". How sad, he just got married 2 months ago.
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Day 24. Feeling pretty strong today. Went to bed around 10 last night, up at 6 this morning. Now THAT'S a switch! Thinking about going back to spinning, there's a great studio in town that I was using for a while, while I was sober for a few weeks back in Apr/May. Starting to visualize myself as I was when I stopped drinking for 8 years. Taking it slow and easy, however. I don't want something to upset me and wake up the AV. One of the nice things about being older is that fewer things bother me. I feel like that insurance commercial, "we know a thing or two because we've seen a thing or two". I've seen quite a few things!
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Ugh, Joe - too many stories like that....
Yesterday, I had a gut wrench - I drove by a bar that a dear friend of mine probably still goes to daily and the sign outside said "Relationship problems? Drink em away"....my first thought was that he is alone in his mid 50s, knows he is an alcoholic and periodically plays with moderation or rules around his drinking. I just couldn't stay in his life actively when I quit but it makes me so sad to think of where he probably is....
Glad you are working at a whole other kind of life- and have a family too!!
Yesterday, I had a gut wrench - I drove by a bar that a dear friend of mine probably still goes to daily and the sign outside said "Relationship problems? Drink em away"....my first thought was that he is alone in his mid 50s, knows he is an alcoholic and periodically plays with moderation or rules around his drinking. I just couldn't stay in his life actively when I quit but it makes me so sad to think of where he probably is....
Glad you are working at a whole other kind of life- and have a family too!!
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Thanks August. That is a sad story about your friend, sounds awful. And that sign! Unreal, and so untrue.
I'm working on that new life, believe me! I know it's there for me.
I'm working on that new life, believe me! I know it's there for me.
Congrats on 24 days Joe! I just read your entire thread and was nervous when your wife went out of town, lol!
I'm going to a work-out class and then an AA meeting. Your positive posts have helped me tremendously.
Thanks!
I'm going to a work-out class and then an AA meeting. Your positive posts have helped me tremendously.
Thanks!
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Zevin I am so happy that I've been able to help you! That means a lot to me. We need each other to win the battle, that I know for a fact. Thanks again, and keep up the good work! Where's your thread so I can follow? You inspired me to reread my thread! It's a great way to maintain perspective and boost confidence.
How do I follow threads anyway? I'm relearning forum navigation!
How do I follow threads anyway? I'm relearning forum navigation!
you can subscribe to any thread Joe - if you're in the desktop version of the site you should see 'thread tools' at the top of the thread - click that and 'subscribe to this thread' is one of the options.
You'll get an email every time a new post is posted in that thread.
If too many emails will bother you (it does me) just bookmark your favorite threads through your browser
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You'll get an email every time a new post is posted in that thread.
If too many emails will bother you (it does me) just bookmark your favorite threads through your browser
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Today is day 25. Right now my allergies are taking precedent, they're horrible. I coughed and sneezed for 4 hours after I went to bed. I even had an asthma attack. Good thing I'm sober! I can't even imagine a hangover combined with allergies.
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You should start a thread! Or, as we called them in WQD, a journal. WQD meant We Quit Drinking and it's what got me through 8 years of sobriety. It's gone now, kinda sad about that. Some of the old users are here, I'm looking for more. I may start a thread on that myself.
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Day 26. Had a dream this morning where I was at some kind of a function and decided to have a beer. I took a few sips and then I was freaking out about blowing my sobriety. I think I was in such a panic I woke up. I remember having this dream before, several times in fact, the last time I quit. I remember one where I was drinking in a closet by myself. Freaking AV, even gets into my dreams. Other than the dream I'm doing well. Hope to hit a spin class tomorrow morning. We're having afternoon monsoons now, supposed to be very rainy tomorrow.
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