Healthyandsober

Thank you Dee, I know i just don't know how to live any other way im stuck.

Thank you Purpls, i love snoopy

Dee74

you learn to live a new way by practice HAS

You're no different to the rest of us - you can learn

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Hawkeye13

When you get some sober time things just look and feel so much different--so much better.

I always felt so hopeless, shamed, and defeated when drinking or in the first few days / weeks of quitting.

It does get so much better--it may be hard to remember right now HAS but it is true-have faith and keep moving forward without alcohol.
It really isn't a friend to any of us. . .

Purplrks3647

Thinking of you HAS ~ Check in when you get a chance!

Healthyandsober

Thank you purplrks happy new year!

Dee74

Glad to hear from you HAS

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Purplrks3647

Me again! LOL Another weekend approaching and I'm gonna need to stay close....hope to see you too, HAS

GingerSnow

HAS, you post touched me, along with the responses. Yesterday was the 3rd, so if you stayed to the plan then yesterday was your last day of work? I am sending you positive thoughts as I know you must be a hard time.

What others have said though is so true. Jobs are jobs. They don't have to define who we are. This one wasn't a good fit, and the more you try to push a square peg into a round hole, is just going to cause misery. You won't be the first person who wasn't a good fit for their job, and you won't be the last. I've had jobs that I've hated, jobs that I've excelled at and hated, and jobs I've liked but got let go at. Just remember, it's a job.. there are more out there.

In todays world, you can find any kind of training on the internet. Well, not to be a heart doctor (I don't think) but training for skills that are good paying jobs. Or jobs that at least will pay the bills.

Give yourself some time to heal and pick back up. As for the family drama, that'll be there even when you're sober so just focus on the now and ignore any outside voices trying to bring you down. You are worth it, stay strong and pick yourself up and get ready for a new day. Not all days are bad, and there will be brighter days ahead. Wishing you the very best.

Healthyandsober

Thank you Gingersnow,

Yes yesterday was my last day. It was hard i am so depressed about it. I feel i failed again, I have not said anything to my husband. I don't know what to do from here.

I am not drinking, its giving me weird heart palpitations like abnormal heart rhythms. I need to stay sober this time and i know it will be very hard.

thanks everyone

loulou1981

Hi HAS, stay close this wkend. Someone is ALWAYS here. Just take it 1 day at a time, get out, read a good book, do whatever u can to make urself feel even slightly better.x

PhoenixJ

Wrong-NO! Unwell. I would suggest seeing a GP, or a professional you trust.

Support to you.

Dee74

I'm really proud of you for not drinking HAS

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Healthyandsober

Thank you Dee, Phoenix, loulou and everyone,

I have really bad cravings today. When i don't drink my symptoms go away.

Went to an interview yesterday and got the job on the spot. Its a big company but I will work with clients again and i don't know how i will built my list back since i had since January 2018 without any contact with them. This last position i had was management.

I took it but I am not happy about it. I do get opportunities i just feel i destroy all of them and i am the problem.

Sorry to be so pathetic i guess because no one knows me here i can just be honest. I do feel like a huge wasted of space.

okay enough with the pity party I should be grateful i have job and will start shortly so no need to lie take money out of my retirement and go out everyday pretending im still working.

I should be grateful , i am grateful , i will try again.

Purplrks3647

Way to be mindful and fight the cravings, HAS! Congrats on the new job!

Healthyandsober

Thank you Purpls!

Dee74

Its a real; achievement to just walk into a job HAS. You must be a lot better a catch than you think you are, I think

This needn't be like all the other jobs - stay sober and do your best.

You might grow to like the job - or you might find something even better.

Either way the best choice you can make is to stay in recovery

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Healthyandsober

thank you Dee, i know i am making my plan.

my plan has a lot of other peoples plan and a lot of me.

- I am waking up at 5am to excessive
- i am doing one kind act a day no matter to whom
- i am writing a daily gratitute list
- i am not drinking no matter what and sitting with my feelings
- i am coming here everyday
-iam going back to AA and getting an sponsor
- i will not drink ever again

thank you please help me

Dee74

I and everyone else here will help you all we can HAS - you're not alone

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Healthyandsober

when i was in the mental hospital there was a girl who came around one day. she brought me some coloring books, some books and lavender satchets.

she said the lavender will help you sleep and if you finish the books i will bring more next week. let me know what you would like to read ad i will bring to you.

her kindness undo me i don't know who she is but no one even my sister was so kind.

i want to be kind its a nice feeling . please do not be mistaken i am not a good person i am a drunk.

i just want to be kind because it will make me feel better. i am just the same selfish drunk.

Dee74

I think we're all capable of being good kind people HAS
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