Holiday Weekender for Christmas 2016
I'm back at my own place thank God.
My mother drives me INSANE.
I told her that I might meet friends tonight - her response was "oh, going out at this hour of the night?" It's 6:44 PM here by the way.
She mentioned something to me about how heartbreaking it is to have a child who is in her words "mentally ill". I think she was referring to my sister. She never mentioned how difficult it can be for children to have a mother who has mental problems. (Something she will never admit to and gets crazy if we mention it.)
The way I see it is that my mother's problems are far, far more severe than my sister ever had.
My mother drives me INSANE.
I told her that I might meet friends tonight - her response was "oh, going out at this hour of the night?" It's 6:44 PM here by the way.
She mentioned something to me about how heartbreaking it is to have a child who is in her words "mentally ill". I think she was referring to my sister. She never mentioned how difficult it can be for children to have a mother who has mental problems. (Something she will never admit to and gets crazy if we mention it.)
The way I see it is that my mother's problems are far, far more severe than my sister ever had.
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You're a good daughter for visiting. I'm glad that being on your own has distanced you a lot from the crazy. It seems that now she just exasperates you; in the old days she could really affect you deeply.
You have a lovely relationship with your dad.
You have a lovely relationship with your dad.
I'm not convinced fat is better than drunk.
That doesn't really ring true for me. It was far harder for me to lose 60 pounds and to keep it off than to stop drinking. Both are fatal. Food is socially acceptable, even encouraged. I had just as much self-loathing wrapped up in my weight as I did in my drinking, but I just couldn't hide my weight.
That doesn't really ring true for me. It was far harder for me to lose 60 pounds and to keep it off than to stop drinking. Both are fatal. Food is socially acceptable, even encouraged. I had just as much self-loathing wrapped up in my weight as I did in my drinking, but I just couldn't hide my weight.
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I see what you're saying: I can't have just a little bit of sugar. I can't moderate. I've found I can't even have it in the house. I've got to purge it every bit as much as I had to dump alcohol down the drain when getting sober.
Others keep bringing it into the house. It has been relatively easy to keep my home alcohol-free, because everyone agreed my drunkenness was a problem; but nobody thinks my sugar problem is any big deal, so I'm on my own.
Others keep bringing it into the house. It has been relatively easy to keep my home alcohol-free, because everyone agreed my drunkenness was a problem; but nobody thinks my sugar problem is any big deal, so I'm on my own.
Morning all - haven't caught up yet on all the posts that came in overnight.
This is one of those times where I actually WISH I could be transported to the cold (talk to me again about that once it's winter again here): it's been soooo humid, and pretty high temps - which taken together, as many would know, can make one feel quite ill. Esp those like me with things like lung disease and other chronic conditions.
I finally was able to get Bess out of the house early this morning, to the beach. Even there, whilst it was lovely walking along with my feet in the water, it was hot n humid. Came home sweating like a pig, followed by doing a bit of sweeping up of the vast leaves detritus from yesterday's strong northerly winds.
This tropical low (an intense one) is coming via the northerlies all the way from Central Australia, down to most of south and south eastern States. Won't cool down a little here in melbs till around Saturday.........
Anyway, yesterday, I've remembered (after so many summers...duh!) to get in some electrolyte drinks (Hydralyte) to have as well as all the water. And yes, as some of you know - I have been drinking (wine), most days; aside from all the other reasons not to drink, it of course adds to dehydration. I'll do my very best to keep away from it today; if I do cave later on, I know to keep it limited and to eat what I can manage (have near-zero appetite in the heat even sober). If only for the sake of the old bod.
I'm sorry to everyone who might be offended by me posting during a relapse period, while you're working so very hard to get through this time sober. Having said that, though: reading and posting on SR helps keep me looking forward to sobriety again, and very importantly, actually helps my mental health to stay reasonably balanced. Of course, I rely on the mods to delete any of my posts if they're inappropriate. I always do my best to keep it from being unwieldy or over the top, truly.
This is one of those times where I actually WISH I could be transported to the cold (talk to me again about that once it's winter again here): it's been soooo humid, and pretty high temps - which taken together, as many would know, can make one feel quite ill. Esp those like me with things like lung disease and other chronic conditions.
I finally was able to get Bess out of the house early this morning, to the beach. Even there, whilst it was lovely walking along with my feet in the water, it was hot n humid. Came home sweating like a pig, followed by doing a bit of sweeping up of the vast leaves detritus from yesterday's strong northerly winds.
This tropical low (an intense one) is coming via the northerlies all the way from Central Australia, down to most of south and south eastern States. Won't cool down a little here in melbs till around Saturday.........
Anyway, yesterday, I've remembered (after so many summers...duh!) to get in some electrolyte drinks (Hydralyte) to have as well as all the water. And yes, as some of you know - I have been drinking (wine), most days; aside from all the other reasons not to drink, it of course adds to dehydration. I'll do my very best to keep away from it today; if I do cave later on, I know to keep it limited and to eat what I can manage (have near-zero appetite in the heat even sober). If only for the sake of the old bod.
I'm sorry to everyone who might be offended by me posting during a relapse period, while you're working so very hard to get through this time sober. Having said that, though: reading and posting on SR helps keep me looking forward to sobriety again, and very importantly, actually helps my mental health to stay reasonably balanced. Of course, I rely on the mods to delete any of my posts if they're inappropriate. I always do my best to keep it from being unwieldy or over the top, truly.
At least we can drive legally under the influence of pie Gilmer.
I'm sure alcohol is worse than sugar, but not by a whole lot. When I was overweight I would frequently eat nothing but sugary stuff all day long. It's a huge battle for me, too.
I'm sure alcohol is worse than sugar, but not by a whole lot. When I was overweight I would frequently eat nothing but sugary stuff all day long. It's a huge battle for me, too.
Perhaps better to compensate for cravings for alcohol over this silly season by eating stuff? That is ok- eating too much does not kill others or have terrible repercussions- if only done every now and then. For me it is ANZAC biscuits. I draw the line at supermarket mince pies- ugh! Hope all are having a peaceful, quiet and sober in 'tween period.
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Yes, PJ, I do know the history. When my tenant's Aussie guest made some for me to try, I was really skeptical; I thought that surely something so sturdy would taste like a mud brick!
Au contraire, Pierre! Absolutely amazing! I understand my American facsimiles can't quite compare to the real thing--but they're still pretty darned good!
But why am I going on again about sugar?
I really am an addict. I absolutely have an addictive personality.
Au contraire, Pierre! Absolutely amazing! I understand my American facsimiles can't quite compare to the real thing--but they're still pretty darned good!
But why am I going on again about sugar?
I really am an addict. I absolutely have an addictive personality.
Your posts certainly don't offend me bemyself, I hope you don't cave today
I had to Google Anzac biscuits, they would be a use for the Golden Syrup I bought for some recipe and never got round to using
Half past midnight here, time to raise the drawbridge and snuff out the candles at Saoutchik Towers
I had to Google Anzac biscuits, they would be a use for the Golden Syrup I bought for some recipe and never got round to using
Half past midnight here, time to raise the drawbridge and snuff out the candles at Saoutchik Towers
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