hopealwayz

Thanks Nutz. That makes a lot of sense. I want to turn it over and not take it back.

Hugs,
Hope

hopealwayz

Help me move forward today. I need lots of support and encouragement right now.

Jupiter2

Good to see this thread back, hope. I read your other thread. Sending you prayers and good sober vibes. Keep posting when it gets tough and don't pick up.

Jup.

hopealwayz

Can Anyone Help Me Keep Hope Alive?

hopealwayz

I can't sleep tonight. I wish I wasn't so restless. I can't study either because I can't focus. I'm going into survival mode.

Jupiter2

Hi hope,

You don't sound very good tonight. Don't use or drink. Is there someone in the program you can call? Hang in there and consider reading a non-school book or something enjoyable. Anything to stay occupied until you get tired enough to sleep. It will be better tomorrow. Do you have a sponsor?

Jup.

hopealwayz

Wow, I just took a look back at the few days before I relapsed and noticed a few things. I can see how my feelings were leading to picking up but I did not make the necessary changed to fix it then. But, rest assured I will now.

Thanks Jup for looking in.

Love,
Hope

hopealwayz

I love when people post in my thread, it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. LOL.

It makes me feel not so alone in the world and it really helps me.

I really love SR and I know that I will get it right one day so I will never quit quitting.

Thanks for being here!

Lots of love and hugs,
Hope

Ama

Just a lickle post to make you feel good cause you ARE!!! Stick with the winners here at SR and your journey to recovery will be eased. How is your sleeping now??? Better I HOPE! Keep posting and reading threads if you get anxious as we all do every now and again. You are doing great.....

hopealwayz

Thank you Ama! You touched my heart this evening. I have been so tired and really haven't felt like doing much other than sleeping. I'm being gentle with myself these days. I have a lot to do but I always make time to get the rest that my body needs. I'm also going to get some 5htp vitamins with B6 in them. That is supposed to help regulate serotonin levels in the brain. Hopefully that will help with sleeping and moods.

Hope you are doing well!

Hope

hopealwayz

Hi friends, tomorrow will be day 3 and I am not going to pick up in the next 24.

There is so much better things in life than getting "out" of my own head. I want to enjoy life as it is, not as the mind altering substance transforms it. I don't want to miss out on the miracles that are occurring in this world.

Thanks friends for sticking by me during this time.

hopealwayz

I'm here, sober and live on day 3. I can't wait to be through these withdrawals. I hope this is the last detox ever for me. At least today I have a choice. I am finally admit that I am an addict and I don't need any more experimentation to find that out.

Going to meetings and making strides in the right direction. I am so filled with hope about my future and that feels really good.

Wishing you all a sober 24!

hopealwayz

Today I am grateful for:

Being sober
SR
Hugs
Friends
Support
Being given another chance

hopealwayz

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nutz

THANKS for doing the experiments for me, hopealwayz.
I guess it still doesn't work.

Glad to hear that you're clean and sober today Hopealwayz.

hopealwayz

Yes, it can never work. The end result will always be the same but does get increasingly worse. Stay clean and don't look back, it isn't worth it.

Jupiter2

I think you hit it on the head there. It never can work and it sure can be a long and painful slide downhill. No matter how "bad" life seems to get today, I am so much happier and better off sober. Good to see you are doing better every day, hoepalwayz. We really are on the right path here and I too am really greatful for, the program, my sponsor, and especially for everyone here on SR! We can do this together!

hopealwayz

Amen to that Jup. Life is sooooo much better sober. My worst days sober can never compare to my best days using. This new life has so much to offer us! Good thing that we have great support to help pull us through. That is always good.

Take care and wishing you another sober 24!

Love,
Hope

hopealwayz

Each day gets better and better. I'll never have to go back to the place I came from as long as I don't pick up. :e17n :e07g

hopealwayz

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