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Old 02-09-2005, 06:51 AM
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Thanks Sherry!! Whew, I survived. I'm pretty sure I passed. Had a little trouble with a few problems but think I got it worked out. One major thing down for the week. Now, just gotta read a script for a play by tomorrow and things might calm down for a little bit (until next week, hehe). I'm surviving life.

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Old 02-09-2005, 07:23 AM
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Valentine's Day is on the way!!!
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Old 02-09-2005, 07:33 AM
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Remember this today.
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Old 02-09-2005, 07:40 AM
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This was cool

http://www.okna.org/pasc/cleantimecalc.html

I got clean on a Monday.
I have been clean for 2 months, 10 weeks, 71 days, 1704 hours, 102279 minutes, and 6136768 Seconds.

I will reach one year in 294 days, 14 hours, and 20 minutes.

I thought this was really cool!

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Old 02-09-2005, 01:03 PM
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Red face Gratitude 2/09/05

Today I'm grateful for:

God
Ryan
Family
Friends
Life
Beautiful flowers
Having a warm bed
Having enough food to eat
running
SR
Being in college
My job
Being sober
Angels on Earth
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Old 02-09-2005, 01:12 PM
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Everyone feel free to share my journey with me and post anything you want. Share your journey also. The most important thing is to share with each other and I welcome everyone to stop by and share what is going on in your life. With all of my heart, I care about each and every one of you.
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Old 02-09-2005, 01:18 PM
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2 days we should not worry about

YESTERDAY, TODAY and TOMORROW~


There are two days in every week
that we should not worry about.
Two days that should be kept free from
fear and apprehension.

One is yesterday, with its mistakes and cares,
its faults and blunders, its aches and pains.

Yesterday has passed,
forever beyond our control.
All the money in the world
cannot bring back yesterday.

We cannot undo a single act we performed.
Nor can we erase a single word we've said
- yesterday is gone!

The other day
we shouldn't worry about is tomorrow,
with its impossible adversaries,
its burden, its hopeful promise,
and poor performance.

Tomorrow is beyond our control.
Tomorrow's sun will rise either in splendor
or behind a mask of clouds-but it will rise.
And until it does,
we have no stake in tomorrow,
for it is yet unborn.

This leaves only one day
TODAY.
Any person can fight the battles
of just one day.

It is only when
we add the burdens of yesterday
and tomorrow that we break down.

It is not the experience of today
that drives people mad
it is the remorse of bitterness
for something which happened yesterday,
Let us, therefore, live one day at a time!

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Old 02-09-2005, 02:12 PM
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The symble

A foundation of goodwill
To live a balance life, the four sides of the pyrimid or three sides
The freedom from my disease at the top as I grow or move forward in my journey.
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Old 02-10-2005, 05:30 AM
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Nutz, thanks for sharing.
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Old 02-10-2005, 02:53 PM
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Same story here. You got me bummed out because of your ex and I haven't been able to stop thinking about mine. Not blaming or anything. I just mean that I got thinking. I know if my mind wasn't so twisted from not drinking this would not be such a big deal. But...
The worst part is I know that if I went to her house after work it would all be over and we would be back together. Then though it would all go back to the way it was before because she won't stop drinking and she is not a very nice drunk.
Just kind of has me bummed out--a whole lot. One year ago today is when we moved in together. Then had a nice Valentine's weekend and celebrated her birthday. Oh well. I am treating this like booze and know I just have to stay away. It, like booze would be soo easy though.
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Old 02-10-2005, 05:21 PM
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I feel grace within and protection surrounds me today.
My thoughts not wonder. I sense no fears.
It is not of my doing nor will.
Something has taken over me.
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Old 02-10-2005, 05:39 PM
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(((Hope)))

You have been one of my anchors. Thank you so much for being here.

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Old 02-10-2005, 05:41 PM
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IT'S IN THE VALLEYS I GROW

Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe
It's then I have to remember
That it's in the valleys I grow.

If I always stayed on the mountain top
And never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God's love
And would be living in vain.

I have so much to learn
And my growth is very slow,
Sometimes I need the mountain tops,
But it's in the valleys I grow.

I do not always understand
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
My Lord will see me through.

My little valleys are nothing
When I picture Christ on the cross
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan's loss.

Forgive me Lord, for complaining
When I'm feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
That it's in the valleys I grow.

Continue to strengthen me, Lord
And use my life each day
To share your love with others
And help them find their way.

Thank you for valleys, Lord
For this one thing I know
The mountain tops are glorious
But it's in the valleys I grow!
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Richard, thanks so much for stopping in!! You have helped me too.
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Old 02-10-2005, 07:51 PM
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Unhappy

I am so full of freakin fear and guilt that I don't know if I can go forward. I hate this place where I'm standing and yet I can't move. I honestly don't think I'm heading anywhere but to a relapse. I'm losing hope for that better life that I've waited for. I feel like giving up. I can only do 1 minute at a time right now. I'M SCARED!!!!! I don't want to take any more chances with things.

I FEEL SO ALONE RIGHT NOW!!!!! I don't have many friends and hardly any family..........I'm all alone in the world.....WHERE CAN I GO???????? My broken heart has no use. I'm falling apart at the seams............. I don't like this feeling.

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Old 02-11-2005, 04:40 AM
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When I wanted to get sober I had to actively seek support.I had no friends,because I only hung out with other drug addicts , my family had long since stopped supporting me and no longer believed there was recovery for me.What did I do? I got off the pity pot and found a support group,reached out to people and have made some great friends in recovery.Everyday I woke up and didnt use the night before I was grateful.Grateful that I wasnt up all night chasing a high that wasnt a high,grateful that I wasnt tired and wired,that I wasnt 95 lbs with my hair falling out from malnutrition.
Using does not take away lonliness or pain.My disease will tell me it does.Nothing could be further from the truth.When I sit on the pity pot the only thing I get is a ring around my a$$.
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Old 02-11-2005, 04:50 PM
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Hang in there hopealwayz
Just suit up and show up
You'll be amazed
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Old 02-15-2005, 12:17 PM
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Old 02-15-2005, 02:20 PM
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Hope,

You are not alone. You have us here and there are also meetings. I feel alone much of the time as well. I have found that a noon meeting is good if I can't make it until the evening. I think that meetings and contact with other adicts/alcoholics might help. It does with me. I know that lonely feeling you describe, though. Thanks for the daily blessing, by the way.
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