I'm back....if you'll have me....
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I'm back....if you'll have me....
Sooooooooo. Yes my feelings were hurt to the core. I can take the tough love part until it gets personal. Then I won't.
We all have had horrible things happen in our lives. I've dealt with mine, doesn't mean I have forgotten any of it. Or maybe I haven't dealt with it effectively if one post brings all that **** back, washing over me like a sad wave.
Anyway enough of that crap. Got home in one tired piece. I thought well since I screwed up the night before. Might as well keep it going. Had one. Poured a second. Thought hard about it. Do I want it? Why am I drinking it? How is this going to end? Do I really want to go through that sweaty awful Withdrawl? NO! I poured it out. This is new for me. Never stopped drinking in mid drink and gave it any thought. Drank water the rest of the night. Praying no withdrawals. Slept good last night. ZeeFuzZee is still knocked out.
Here we go (again).
Thanks for all your replies. I read them. Then I read them again and again.
We all have had horrible things happen in our lives. I've dealt with mine, doesn't mean I have forgotten any of it. Or maybe I haven't dealt with it effectively if one post brings all that **** back, washing over me like a sad wave.
Anyway enough of that crap. Got home in one tired piece. I thought well since I screwed up the night before. Might as well keep it going. Had one. Poured a second. Thought hard about it. Do I want it? Why am I drinking it? How is this going to end? Do I really want to go through that sweaty awful Withdrawl? NO! I poured it out. This is new for me. Never stopped drinking in mid drink and gave it any thought. Drank water the rest of the night. Praying no withdrawals. Slept good last night. ZeeFuzZee is still knocked out.
Here we go (again).
Thanks for all your replies. I read them. Then I read them again and again.
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Location: Los Angeles, California
Posts: 8,326
wow, if there was ever a cat face asking for memes, that's the one.
Raider, our disease is very powerful and very tricky. I drank when I didn't want to but I didn't know it wasn't really me. When I was able to understand the nature of the Beast, it got much easier. Soon, I could identify the Addictive Voice that was whispering, attempting to rationalize a drink. learning AVRT was very helpful for me. You might give it a look.
What I've learned is there's no reason to pick up a drink. None at all. Ever. The urge will pass. Sometimes it tantrums more than other times but it does quiet down. it does take other, sometimes less articulated forms, like anxiety. Like irrititabilty, like self pity. When I took a closer analyzation of these feelings, it was "Beast" activity. It goes away too. sort of like recognizing it defeats it.
I'm glad you're back. I needed and continue to need support.
Love from Lenina
Raider, our disease is very powerful and very tricky. I drank when I didn't want to but I didn't know it wasn't really me. When I was able to understand the nature of the Beast, it got much easier. Soon, I could identify the Addictive Voice that was whispering, attempting to rationalize a drink. learning AVRT was very helpful for me. You might give it a look.
What I've learned is there's no reason to pick up a drink. None at all. Ever. The urge will pass. Sometimes it tantrums more than other times but it does quiet down. it does take other, sometimes less articulated forms, like anxiety. Like irrititabilty, like self pity. When I took a closer analyzation of these feelings, it was "Beast" activity. It goes away too. sort of like recognizing it defeats it.
I'm glad you're back. I needed and continue to need support.
Love from Lenina
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Orcas Island, Washington
Posts: 9,064
Glad to see you back Pam! In addition to believing in astrology, I have some faith in herbal remedies. Some people who quit use Kudzu. It should be inexpensive, it is a noxious weed in the southeast:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...g-results.html
And here is an excerpt from today's ***** Horoscope:
"...humanity is being served an unnerving mixture of positive and negative aspects -- making a large percentage of the human population completely mixed up, and not knowing whether they are coming or going..."
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...g-results.html
And here is an excerpt from today's ***** Horoscope:
"...humanity is being served an unnerving mixture of positive and negative aspects -- making a large percentage of the human population completely mixed up, and not knowing whether they are coming or going..."
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