Class of September 2020 Part 2
Day 1. Again. Been a few days since I logged in. Had several days under my belt. Decided last night and also tonight to have a few drinks. Nothing crazy. No AV talking to me before or afterward.
I don't feel bad about it, or guilt, or shame. It happened. Time to start over and see how it goes. Been trying zoom AA a few times a day, but honestly I find myself wanting a drink during the meetings listening to all the sob stories that make me seem like a saint. I wish the meetings were in person so I felt more motivated.
I don't feel bad about it, or guilt, or shame. It happened. Time to start over and see how it goes. Been trying zoom AA a few times a day, but honestly I find myself wanting a drink during the meetings listening to all the sob stories that make me seem like a saint. I wish the meetings were in person so I felt more motivated.
Escaping out of the wine vortex again. Day 1. Hopefully for the last time ever.
Not even sure why I went back again. I’m just not giving sobriety enough time. I’ve got to practice patience and endurance when the AV comes calling. I hate myself right now, but I know I’ll feel better tomorrow.
Not even sure why I went back again. I’m just not giving sobriety enough time. I’ve got to practice patience and endurance when the AV comes calling. I hate myself right now, but I know I’ll feel better tomorrow.
Sunday morning here. I'm about to have a shower and get ready to head to the family birthday pub lunch. I'll check in here when I arrive and during. I'm driving myself rather than car pooling so I can leave whenever.
Freedomfries - do you play pokemon go? I think of all the eggs I could hatch if I walked 10k a day and I'm a little jealous!
Erica - what are you crocheting? I knit plain blanket squares for a charity that makes them into blankets but I haven't done any in a while. I have a book of crochet square patterns but I've never mastered crocheting.
Freedomfries - do you play pokemon go? I think of all the eggs I could hatch if I walked 10k a day and I'm a little jealous!
Erica - what are you crocheting? I knit plain blanket squares for a charity that makes them into blankets but I haven't done any in a while. I have a book of crochet square patterns but I've never mastered crocheting.
I love the Weis bars too. Never seem to see them around much now tho.
Here are some ideas for dealing with social occasions
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...val-guide.html (Social Occasion Survival Guide)
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Here are some ideas for dealing with social occasions
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...val-guide.html (Social Occasion Survival Guide)
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Sunday morning here. I'm about to have a shower and get ready to head to the family birthday pub lunch. I'll check in here when I arrive and during. I'm driving myself rather than car pooling so I can leave whenever.
Freedomfries - do you play pokemon go? I think of all the eggs I could hatch if I walked 10k a day and I'm a little jealous!
Erica - what are you crocheting? I knit plain blanket squares for a charity that makes them into blankets but I haven't done any in a while. I have a book of crochet square patterns but I've never mastered crocheting.
Freedomfries - do you play pokemon go? I think of all the eggs I could hatch if I walked 10k a day and I'm a little jealous!
Erica - what are you crocheting? I knit plain blanket squares for a charity that makes them into blankets but I haven't done any in a while. I have a book of crochet square patterns but I've never mastered crocheting.
It's 2:35am now. So say 10. Domuble digits! Unfortunately had another cookie binge. Need to quit that addiction if I'm to lose weight.
Congrats on getting through that first awful day Jewel72.
I went for a ride up in the mountains to see the fall colors. We went to a lake I have never been to before. It was a very nice day 13 for me. Haven't had time to read everyone's posts here yet. Hope all is well with everyone.
I went for a ride up in the mountains to see the fall colors. We went to a lake I have never been to before. It was a very nice day 13 for me. Haven't had time to read everyone's posts here yet. Hope all is well with everyone.
I couldn't check in at the pub because I couldn't get internet coverage. Didn't drink and now on my way home.
Freedomfries - I love pokemon go. I've played it in multiple countries and there is a nice community around it online.
Freedomfries - I love pokemon go. I've played it in multiple countries and there is a nice community around it online.
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Fell back asleep. Awake now at 5:35am and ready to start my day. Going to do w1d3 of c25k at 6am and then a short walk for a total of 4km. Then have some protein for breakfast. Not going to beat myself up for my cookie binge. My diet starts today.
I hear you on the sob stories. Something that was recommended to me was to go to Step meetings, Big Book Study meetings and similar rather than general sharing/ID meetings. If I had to sit and listen to people talk about how they drank, it makes me want to drink - no matter how bad things were for them. I find the Step and literature study meetings quite interesting.
Not far off a month now. Things have been moving in the right direction and overall I feel much better. Yesterday I signed up to do a self improvement course which a friend has been trying to get me to do for ages so I'm looking forward to that. There's prospect of work on the horizon too which would be a bonus.
However, I'm still carrying around this feeling or frustrated resentment which I don't like but I'm hoping that will resolve itself the more positive steps I take to improve my lot.
Hope you have all had a nice weekend.
However, I'm still carrying around this feeling or frustrated resentment which I don't like but I'm hoping that will resolve itself the more positive steps I take to improve my lot.
Hope you have all had a nice weekend.
What is the course sharkez? I was just reflecting that I've always been keen on self help books and the like. There are still things about myself I'm working on but overall my self esteem is pretty healthy these days.
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Dee that social occasions survival guide is really good and would recommend to anyone worrying about a social occasion coming up wether you’re worried about it or not always worthwhile to be as prepared as possible thanks dee and stay strong all srf and ss 🤗
I couldn't get with AA either. I found them to be morose, self indulgent affairs but also occasionally funny. I just didn't like the format of one person talking at a time rather than a having a debate. The fundamental nature of being labeled as a powerless addict for life was unacceptable to me. I also struggle with the label of addiction as a disease. For me it's a response to trauma but you still have to choose to use. I understand that may be an unpopular opinion but there you go.
I hear you on the sob stories. Something that was recommended to me was to go to Step meetings, Big Book Study meetings and similar rather than general sharing/ID meetings. If I had to sit and listen to people talk about how they drank, it makes me want to drink - no matter how bad things were for them. I find the Step and literature study meetings quite interesting.
Whatever works I am open to. I'm always interested in hearing how people achieve long term sobriety. It has been elusive for me to this point.
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