Class of October 2018 Part 1
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Join Date: Oct 2013
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Thanks guys
It was such a bad idea. Now my gut hurts and I've not gotten any of the work I brought home done.
I have to get the mindset of "no matter what" back. I once had it but I just don't stick to it. It has to happen though--I don't know how many more quits I've got in me at this point.
It was such a bad idea. Now my gut hurts and I've not gotten any of the work I brought home done.
I have to get the mindset of "no matter what" back. I once had it but I just don't stick to it. It has to happen though--I don't know how many more quits I've got in me at this point.
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Join Date: Oct 2018
Location: Los Angeles, California
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Thank you, Green Sweater. I adore my pups.
Hawkeye, I am originally from the October class of 2011. Today is day one for me and all day I read all of our classes posts from back then.
A lot of truly horrible things happened over the years that took me right back to drinking, but I am back and ready to quit, again. I never thought I could quit again but I'm not ready to give up on myself. I hope that you don't give up either.
Hawkeye, I am originally from the October class of 2011. Today is day one for me and all day I read all of our classes posts from back then.
A lot of truly horrible things happened over the years that took me right back to drinking, but I am back and ready to quit, again. I never thought I could quit again but I'm not ready to give up on myself. I hope that you don't give up either.
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Nope, not giving in. I was in an October class some years ago too, but I'm darned if I can remember the year Pacheeky.
I'm making a fresh cup of tea and going to get some of what I had schedule done before bed.
I've got two sweet pups as well. They make it all worthwhile
I'm making a fresh cup of tea and going to get some of what I had schedule done before bed.
I've got two sweet pups as well. They make it all worthwhile
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Join Date: Jun 2011
Posts: 543
Originally Posted by Kaily 
Sorry everyone, I have failed! Got to day 6 and then drank, same old story that always ends the same way. Hopefully one day I will get the happy ending.
Stay strong and learn from my mistakes.
Stay strong and learn from my mistakes.
103 days to my trip to California... I need to prove to myself and my wife that I have earned this trip!
I also cancelled my health club membership last week and found another one I think I will like a lot better. It is on my way home from work, has a healthy sandwich/salad place next door, and the owners seem so much more attentive. I want to lose 20 more pounds by January and it will be so much easier if the empty beer calories go away.
I'm reading up on recovery planning as well. As time goes on... the more and more I realize that I need to work through ALL of the steps that people on this forum have suggested doing.
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Madison, WI
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Still here and still sober.
Kaily and Hawkeye, I'm glad you're back.
Hawkeye, that 'no matter what' mentality is so important to me I got that phrase tattooed on the inside of my arm. It's my first tattoo. I got it after 2.5 years sober to remind myself every day of the importance of a total 100% commitment to sobriety, recovery, and showing up and being present in my life.
Then I dove headlong into anywhere from 1/2 to 3/4 a liter of vodka every night for a year and a half. I hated myself for being there again. I thought I had it under control. I was so wrong and was sure I had lost myself for good this time.
Now I'm 3 weeks sober again. I was thinking about that 2.5 years earlier today. I usually say those years were a failure. I was a dry drunk all that time. I refused to accept the way things were in my life. I made up stories about how I would like things to be instead and lived as if my stories were reality. Denial was a way of life even as I told myself I couldn't possibly be in denial because I knew and accepted that I was an addict!
But I'm starting to see that no quit attempt, short or long, has ever been a waste. I learn from all of them. Eventually I'll get it, or I'll die. 'No matter what' has come to mean that I never stop stopping.
Kaily and Hawkeye, I'm glad you're back.
Hawkeye, that 'no matter what' mentality is so important to me I got that phrase tattooed on the inside of my arm. It's my first tattoo. I got it after 2.5 years sober to remind myself every day of the importance of a total 100% commitment to sobriety, recovery, and showing up and being present in my life.
Then I dove headlong into anywhere from 1/2 to 3/4 a liter of vodka every night for a year and a half. I hated myself for being there again. I thought I had it under control. I was so wrong and was sure I had lost myself for good this time.
Now I'm 3 weeks sober again. I was thinking about that 2.5 years earlier today. I usually say those years were a failure. I was a dry drunk all that time. I refused to accept the way things were in my life. I made up stories about how I would like things to be instead and lived as if my stories were reality. Denial was a way of life even as I told myself I couldn't possibly be in denial because I knew and accepted that I was an addict!
But I'm starting to see that no quit attempt, short or long, has ever been a waste. I learn from all of them. Eventually I'll get it, or I'll die. 'No matter what' has come to mean that I never stop stopping.
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Join Date: Jul 2017
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Checking in Sunday night. Still sober and becoming happy !
Went to the best guest speaker meeting today. Such a sad story for a young woman, been on the streets since 11y old.
I am just starting to realize how to fee grateful.
I was f up for a long time in my thinking.
Thank you Higher Power for everything you have done for me.
Please help all my dear friends in SR who are fighting with me.
Warm regards,
whitejay
Went to the best guest speaker meeting today. Such a sad story for a young woman, been on the streets since 11y old.
I am just starting to realize how to fee grateful.
I was f up for a long time in my thinking.
Thank you Higher Power for everything you have done for me.
Please help all my dear friends in SR who are fighting with me.
Warm regards,
whitejay
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Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: London, England
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Morning everyone. Here I am back on Day 1 but on a more positive note I have had 5 out of 7 October days sober and today will be the 6th!
Once the drinking thoughts come into my head it is like a compulsion that I can't control. All sense and reason goes out the window. I really don't know how to gain control.
Here's to a happy sober Monday everyone.
Once the drinking thoughts come into my head it is like a compulsion that I can't control. All sense and reason goes out the window. I really don't know how to gain control.
Here's to a happy sober Monday everyone.
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Morning everyone
Day 6
Glad you came straight back kaily and Hawkeye.
Teejayverm you tick them sober days off your calendar until your trip, it will be worth it and your wife will be so proud of you
My husband started to speak to me a little yesterday afternoon, small but positive steps that I'm working on
Have a great day class
Day 6
Glad you came straight back kaily and Hawkeye.
Teejayverm you tick them sober days off your calendar until your trip, it will be worth it and your wife will be so proud of you
My husband started to speak to me a little yesterday afternoon, small but positive steps that I'm working on
Have a great day class
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Day 5 almost done. Feeling blah today. The big boss wanted a one on one with me. I passed my 6 month probation last week (no idea how with all the Mondays and more that I taken as sick leave due to booze). We went to a coffee shop for close to 1 hour. He said how proud he was of my work and mentioned the several complimentary emails he had received from agents regarding my service level. I work in airline sales. It was totally the opposite to what I was expecting. I felt very good afterwards. this is a good job woth good benefits and pay. It is up to me not to blow it. Good night gang xx
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Originally Posted by sydneyman
Day 5 almost done. Feeling blah today. The big boss wanted a one on one with me. I passed my 6 month probation last week (no idea how with all the Mondays and more that I taken as sick leave due to booze). We went to a coffee shop for close to 1 hour. He said how proud he was of my work and mentioned the several complimentary emails he had received from agents regarding my service level. I work in airline sales. It was totally the opposite to what I was expecting. I felt very good afterwards. this is a good job woth good benefits and pay. It is up to me not to blow it. Good night gang xx
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Once the drinking thoughts come into my head it is like a compulsion that I can't control. All sense and reason goes out the window. I really don't know how to gain control.
I thought my compulsions were out of my control too but that wasn't true. I just hadn't worked out what else I could do but drink.
Its worth thinking about those other options - what else can you do with awkward or strong feelings, or awkward situations?
There's always other options.
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