Class of February 2016 Part 22
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Thank you so much August. I do need a hug. I am better today but to be honest I am down over it. I have some BS at work going on too so I am not in the best position to handle it. It reminds what despair feels like. Ill be fine though. I have lots of support! And my hug I just received gives me energy. I just have to process and wait it out.
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Morning all-
Bit of a funk or something yesterday. Basically, out of the blue insecurity about...Cliff. Seriously? If I could pinpoint it- and what I told him when he called immediately responding to a text that I felt insecure- is that I worried we were going backwards. Ridiculous. I am parsing words and was looking for a problem for some reason. Over it today.
The best thing that happened yesterday was at the noon meeting!! Y'all might remember me sharing (back in the summer, probably July) that I had my first program friend go back out. We were supposed to have lunch one Sun and her response to my text about what time was to tell me she almost OD'ed and was going to rehab. She chaired the meeting yesterday!! She was in treatment for 5 months (hence never hearing from her when I tried to follow up and see how she was) and is doing well! So happy to see this; feels a little strange that when I met her, I was several months behind her in sobriety (I remember talking about my step 4 with her) and now am "ahead." Lots of take aways from this one- so grateful for where I am.
Take care of yourselves today-
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Bit of a funk or something yesterday. Basically, out of the blue insecurity about...Cliff. Seriously? If I could pinpoint it- and what I told him when he called immediately responding to a text that I felt insecure- is that I worried we were going backwards. Ridiculous. I am parsing words and was looking for a problem for some reason. Over it today.
The best thing that happened yesterday was at the noon meeting!! Y'all might remember me sharing (back in the summer, probably July) that I had my first program friend go back out. We were supposed to have lunch one Sun and her response to my text about what time was to tell me she almost OD'ed and was going to rehab. She chaired the meeting yesterday!! She was in treatment for 5 months (hence never hearing from her when I tried to follow up and see how she was) and is doing well! So happy to see this; feels a little strange that when I met her, I was several months behind her in sobriety (I remember talking about my step 4 with her) and now am "ahead." Lots of take aways from this one- so grateful for where I am.
Take care of yourselves today-
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Congrats PHRD and Lee!
Badger, I join in on the hugs. I can see how it would be a punch in the gut reminder of the dark places. Leaving his wife and kids is very very sad
A friend of mine committed suicide in high school. Secretly suffering from what we never knew, or an impulsive decision?
Were both "Stuck in a moment "as Bono wrote about Michael Hutchence? That song hit me about
suicide.
Badger, I join in on the hugs. I can see how it would be a punch in the gut reminder of the dark places. Leaving his wife and kids is very very sad
A friend of mine committed suicide in high school. Secretly suffering from what we never knew, or an impulsive decision?
Were both "Stuck in a moment "as Bono wrote about Michael Hutchence? That song hit me about
suicide.
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(Early) morning all-
Looking forward to all weekend off. Turns out C and I needed to have a conversation to clarify a few things and share where and why each of our thoughts and expectation (there's that word!) about how all of what we are trying to do will develop. Feel much better- we do'nt sleep in his room when his daughter is home so I joked this morning that The Great Couch Sleepover showed his commitment to making me see where he's coming from a little quicker and more clerly, and that I can be secure in everything.
Still contacted my sponsor yesterday since I was spinning and we are getting together this morning. That's what a good AA-er does
Haven't had an afternoon movie date and leisurely night in ages so pretty excited for my day.
Hope those stressed out are less so - take care of yourselves today, all-
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Looking forward to all weekend off. Turns out C and I needed to have a conversation to clarify a few things and share where and why each of our thoughts and expectation (there's that word!) about how all of what we are trying to do will develop. Feel much better- we do'nt sleep in his room when his daughter is home so I joked this morning that The Great Couch Sleepover showed his commitment to making me see where he's coming from a little quicker and more clerly, and that I can be secure in everything.
Still contacted my sponsor yesterday since I was spinning and we are getting together this morning. That's what a good AA-er does
Haven't had an afternoon movie date and leisurely night in ages so pretty excited for my day.
Hope those stressed out are less so - take care of yourselves today, all-
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That's great you have the weekend off Aug! I'm recuperating from a National Meeting this weekend. On fancy night I tripped on the trolley going back to the hotel and hurt both my knees. This used to be a common occurrence when drinking.
Maybe time to check out a movie this afternoon too. I didn't see one that was nominated....Sad!
What's everyone else up to?
Maybe time to check out a movie this afternoon too. I didn't see one that was nominated....Sad!
What's everyone else up to?
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Ouch Penny! Hope your knees are ok. God, I had SO many bruises ALL the time when I was drinking.....and that was the least of m injuries (one time I broke the left side of my face at the cheekbone....another time the tiny 5th metatarsal on my foot....). Glad injuries are infrequent and wouldn't be due to drinking anymore!
We are going to see The Shack. Mom said it's depressing, C thinks it sounds interesting. I'm game for whatever!
Laters all-
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We are going to see The Shack. Mom said it's depressing, C thinks it sounds interesting. I'm game for whatever!
Laters all-
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Thanks, OOTT. That's what we've done over the past couple of days and are in a good place, emotionally and plan-wise. He's even gotten a written plan (so him) for the next 90 days of getting rid of his three dogs (YAY) and getting the house ready for sale. He also told me he has a day picked out and a plan for proposing (again, so him) and well, emotional needs are being met all around. I am calm and safe.
Re the Shack: I found it tedious bordering on trite. I tried to relate it mainly to working my program because the "religious" part is already essentially how I believe and conceive of the Trinity. He definitely enjoyed it more and got a lot out of it as far as how men deal with tragedy, responsibility and such. It was also LONG at 2+ hours.
Church and lunch with my greatest mentor and his wife and family today. Very excited for them to meet Cliff and see them all.
Happy Sun all-
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Re the Shack: I found it tedious bordering on trite. I tried to relate it mainly to working my program because the "religious" part is already essentially how I believe and conceive of the Trinity. He definitely enjoyed it more and got a lot out of it as far as how men deal with tragedy, responsibility and such. It was also LONG at 2+ hours.
Church and lunch with my greatest mentor and his wife and family today. Very excited for them to meet Cliff and see them all.
Happy Sun all-
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