Anna

SP, is there someone who can stop in and check on you, maybe cheer you up a bit. I think living in that horribly toxic environment you are in is going to be slowing your recovery. Try to keep your mind in a positive space. Your husband doesn't deserve any space in your mind as you are working on healing. I'm sorry about the pain popping up again. I really thought things would be better today.

Soberpotamus

It's evident who my true friends are here at SR. That's also an interesting new piece of information and example of people revealing who they truly are.

I want to thank all of you who've supported me through this ordeal.

You know who you are.

Xoxo

Soberpotamus

I don't want to call anyone, Anna. Except maybe my Dad.

Soberpotamus

I don't have close friends here. Only a few acquaintances. I'm not from here originally. There's no one I'm close to here.

Soberpotamus

I texted an acquaintance/friend just now about what's going on. She said she hopes I feel better soon. No one truly cares when things get tough. I think it's why I never depend on others if I can help it.

People generally disappoint.

courage2

Soberp, I'm sorry you still have pain today. From your posts, though, it sounds like you have a little more energy and clarity -- that will help you take care of yourself, since your husband won't take care of you & there's no one else.

Stay hydrated, get all the nourishment you can tolerate, taper to ibuprofen as soon as possible, and focus on things that sustain you -- can you read?

xxxooo

Soberpotamus

I've called my Dad. He will come help me get through this.

Pondlady

Could you ask your ex to bring you a bouquet of daffodils, to brighten your room? Maybe try walking around your room and doing some gentle stretching ? Their are apps ( Calming App ) etc, that could help you relax. If you have a smart phone, you could listen to Pandora, or downloaded music, by placing the phone under your pillow....like your own soft speaker

I think it's clear you can't count too much on your husband, which is a terrible shame, but you're strong.

Anna

I'm glad you made the call to your Dad, SP.

I think it will do you much good to have him around for a bit to cheer you up and make sure you're okay.

MidnightBlue

Hi, SP.

Sorry you are in so much pain now - both physical and emotional.

But, please, don't lose faith and hope!

Your husband's behaviour is ...strange to say the least. Apparently it triggered some of his own issues which he is taking out on you now, as far as I can see it.

But, please, remember that physical pain will be gone soon. One day you'll wake up and feel better. That is for sure. You'll feel stronger and more again able to take care of yourself. And doesn't matter what's your husband attitude to this, you will be proud of yourself and will not have this gnawing regret that you didn't have something you wanted to just because of someone's insecurities.

What do you think - can it be a good idea to consider for you dad to have a talk to him and explain that you really needed this surgery and it has nothing to do with you "not listening to him" or whatever his problem is.

Don't hesitate to ask your doc about worries about choking. Just talking it over with the doc can help to calm your worries about this.

Your husband may be slamming doors and and giving you s***ty treatment right now, but you did it your way, and it's worth a lot.

I'd say "keep your chin up" , but I'm afraid it would hurt you right now.

Do you have Lucy and Katie near?

Don't lose faith, ((SP. ))

brynn

Here you are! (((Potamus))) sweetie....do not lose hope. Focus on one thing at a time and right now that would be taking meds on time and keeping your tummy full. You get to see your dr on Tuesday and that's a good thing. Dad being there will help put a cushion between you and mr p and you'll be better able to focus on healing.
Sorry if this has been mentioned, but could you have a nice soak in the tub? It would really help to relax all that tension and feel really good.
Xoxoxo

lunar

You'll be getting better on a daily basis, exponentially, now.
Every day will much better.
I've been praying for you.

Soberpotamus

Haven't been able to see dogs yet. They're keeping them out of the room.

Soberpotamus

Tom is here. Making Butternut squash soup. I drank some without choking.

Called Dad, cried. Face puffy. Told him about Brian being mean and he asked to speak to him. Brian refused.

MidnightBlue

Do you know when you are allowed to see your doggies again, SP?

MidnightBlue

SP, it's really emotional nightmare.

Is there any possibility at all to stay with your dad till you recover enough to take proper care of yourself?

trachemys

brian being the "husband"? Don't you have a cast iron pan? Wait till he's asleep.

Tom's the ex? Next question is "Why?"

Soberpotamus

He is a drinker, Trach. He emotionally deserted me when my mom killed herself. He is also controlling. We were together six years. Known one another for 13 years. He is better as a friend.

He appears to care more than Brian does.

Soberpotamus

I made him leave after my mom died.

Soberpotamus

Might try to see the dogs today after I finish eating.