anewpage

So. There is an AA meeting near me tonight at 7. I have a number of a woman who runs that or whatever, and I just took 2 klonopin and a vicodin to gain the courage to call her. it went straight to voicemail so i'll try again in an hour or so. i'm just so worried that if this AA thing is a bad experience for me, I'll fall back. Today is Day 7 for me and I feel my cravings getting stronger.

Huntingjman73

I wouldn't stress. I think like all forums, you here bad experiences more than good. People don't discuss good. AA isn't that successful with tons of bad mtgs.

anewpage

I am SOOOO proud of myself right now! I have major social anxiety and I usually cannot make phone calls without being drunk first. Well, I just called the woman from my local AA and asked her questions about what they do at the meetings. She was very nice, very reassuring to me, so I'm definitely going to the meeting tonight.

Upward2Enlightenment

I would advise you not to take the vicodin for courage. You DO NOT want to go down that road, I know.

Have a good time at your meeting.

anewpage

Oh, I definitely am not going to make a habit of it. I was given vicodin for an injury a few weeks ago, but they gave me very few and it's not like I can get more anyway.

RecoveringMay

Congratulations on a week anewpage, I hope I am where you are on Thursday. Good luck with your meeting

Dee74

I agree with UP on the Vics.
Glad you won't be making a habit of it anewpage.

I'm sure it will go well - but can you see how you were opening the door to giving yourself possible permission to slip here?

Noi matter what happens, you don't need to fall back anewpage

Minion09

Day almost 3... had a good day at work, little anxiety but managed. Now my bewitching hours... feeling little cravings but drov right by the liquor store... phew. Tomorrow at 2pm will be 72 hrs.. 1 min at a time till then. Hope everyone is doing ok.

rbotlove

Finally tapering off stocked up on Gatorade for electrolytes! Next week I detox completely and go to rehab!

anewpage

Well I survived my first AA meeting and got my first sobriety coin! I'm feeling much more hopeful now.

Dee74

good news anewpage

great to hear from you too rbotlove

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Badger4

Hi All,

Day 1 for me. Came home over lunch hour and poured every bottle out. Tonight I had a volunteer meeting where drinks were being served, but went with water instead. So a good start, but I have the feeling the urge will get stronger for awhile.

Minion09

Welcome Badger! Ddd the same thing on Saturday... proud of u. This si a great place to get support, advice an encouragment...

dSober

That's what AA is all about. Other alcoholics sharing their experience, strength and most of all, hope.

Lyrel

Hi all,

Would like to join May group.=)
Been on and off for about 18 months. About 50/50 on and off, but these 50 is enough to make me hate myself and to make my husband hate me. Hope to make it 0 on /100 off again.

ReadytoBeme79

Welcome to the class, Lyrel. We're all here trying to make it 100%!

rbotlove

Welcome

Sunflower92663

Day 3 for me here, I'm back from having a month sober, then trying to moderate for 2 months. It became scary to see the old pattern emerge again, only this time wine wasn't doing anything for me and it became Vodka. Moderation is not an option for me, no matter how much my AV lies to me that it is. Keeping the faith and taking it one day at a time. Love the support here!

Dee74

Welcome Lyrel and sunflower

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Lyrel

hey Sun, just got back from a year of "cough" moderating. Good you noticed the old patterns early. With vodka it could get very ugly very quickly. Good luck, and day 4 is almost here.=)