BoozeFree

Woohoo EQ way to go!

Just checkin in enjoying another sober day!! Off to work

Orbea

Yay BF for another day of success!

EQ please post even if you don't think you have anything to contribute. You just letting us know what you did today, even if it seems trivial, please post!

Orbea

EQ so glad you had a great night at te concert! So refreshing when you get a surprise or two when you least expect t! Did you know that barbara Streisand rarely performs live bc she has terrible stage fright?

One of my personal faves was getting to sing onstage w bobby mcferrin in an impromptu voicestra at a concert. He is AWESOME to see.

Other great concerts include Pat Methany and Winton Marsalis. Yo Yo MA is my favorite live performer.

EternalQ

Wrote a long note but it disappeared. : ( Too tired to repeat it.

Got cavities filled in front teeth today. He drilled without novacaine but it didnt hurt.

Went to bed early and now up. Watching Craig Fergusen. I love him. He is talking about his rehab 20 years ago. So funny. Before that was King of the Hill. Bill turned his home into a halfway house for alcoholics. Spot on. Seems to be a theme.

Because the new boxspring would not fit up the steps on Saurday I have been sleeping on a.mattress on a floor ever since. New split queen box springs are delivered Thursday. Then I can sleep in my new bed. In my newly painted bedroom. Like a normal person.

Still thrilled to have seen Chris Botti last night. I am telling you, his playing is SICK. In the best way.

Good job BF. Your progress is excellent.

Best and thanks to you all...

Dee74

I wish you and Chris every happiness EQ.... LOL

D

EternalQ

I am laughing long and out loud, Dee. That was sooo funny. :rotfxko

Now if any of the ladies here have ever seen Chris Botti, you will see he is an adonis. Looks like a male model, for real. And world famous. Just what I was looking for in a second husband. Ha!

That laugh did me good, Dee, thanks.

EternalQ

Made plans with Dad. Friday early is a Mass being said for Mom. Then we go out to breakfast. Then we go to the local history museum. Lunch at the casino, watch some races. Then dinner. (He and I are spending day together).

Then Saturday we all meet at cemetery. (death anniversary). Then everyone out to lunch with her priest.

I am already getting upset and I don't want to be. I am at work.

EternalQ

Orbea, I am sorry but I don't know when surgery is.... Is it today? Thinking of you.

Bf, how are you feeling?

BoozeFree

EQ that's neat that you have some family time coming up.

I've been ok. Kinda unmotovated and want to just hide for a few days and focus on staying sober. Oh well

EternalQ

Bf, in those early months i had days at a time with no concentration or energy to do anything. I think it is common. I hated feeling that way but taught myself not to take it as a set back. I figure sobriety is like getting completely different vision. So we kind of have to learn to walk and talk and feel all over again only now it is with the new vision. Anyway dont know if that makes any sense. But just hunker down and accept it. It is part of the healing. It is just the way it is. And healing, you ARE!

Orbea

For me when my energy is down b12 help. I take it sublingual.

EQ my surgery consult is next Wednesday.

EQ- please keep checking in w us. This weekend will be difficult for you.

TriGirl

Glad everyone is hanging in there. Sounds like we're all going through some life stuff. I'll bet that a year ago none of us would've believed we'd be going through it sober. :-)

EternalQ

Orbea, thank you..

Besides the surgery, how else are you? (Or is that like saying: Aside from that Mrs. Lincoln, how else was the play?)

TG, you have overcome so much, it amazes me. Still can't believe you got yourself back in the theater. Prior to that you were saying you couldn't go back this year to protect your sobriety.

Bf, how is that I Phone? I think it is so fun to play with a new phone. They can do so much.

Whenever my Mom and I had to wait for bloodwork or Dr etc, I would play her an older song from the slacker radio in my phone, and she would guess the artist, etc... It came in handy.

EternalQ

My box spring(s) arrived!! Bed is put together and made up in brand new queen size threads. It is so nice and high!! I put on an extra deep, very pricey mattress cover so that when the dog throws up in the middle of the night, (which has happened a couple times in the five years he's been with me) the mattress will be protected. This mattress is one of the most expensive (single object) things I have ever bought myself, apart from a car or a house. That and the hot water heater. Fortunately this moves with me. Ha. I bought the bed frame off the floor as is. I highly recommend it for the budget concious. It was 75% off with harmless small flaws. (No I don't work for Boscovs.)

So decent and civilized. Now my bedroom is all freshly painted in coral and grey, (patting myself on my sore back) and it sports a new bed and mattress (to help my sore back).

If I were still drinking neither of those things would have happened. And I would treat my sore back with vodka. I drank at the first pulse of pain. Of all kinds. I would still be in my grandmothers broken full bed, on a 25+ year old mattress, in a room with chipped ceiling paint, with blue ceiling and walls, with a broken TV and broken lamps, drinking. Like an old scary degenerate motel room.

BoozeFree

Hope you sleep great in the new bed and rest that back!!

Yes I am enjoying the new phone. My old one was the 3GS.

Very tired today already in bed. Been focusing a lot on my sobriety and reading different stuff around here on SR. Tonight I've been listening to episodes on kleanradio.com where they discuss sobriety and have different weekly people talk.

&& guess what? It actually cooled down today and we had rain! I love colder weather. This weekend it's supossed to be back in the 80s though

EternalQ

Got through the Mass and breakfast. Dad and I cried. My Mom's priest wore special vestments that a friend of family gave him (in Mom's honor) when she died. Inside my Mom's name is embroidered. Mom would like that if she knew.

The priests Mom now has cancer and is getting treatments at the same cancer center we took Mom to. Wicked disease. But brave strong people bearing it with grace.

Now Dad picking me up for us to go do something. I would rather lay down and cry but that won't help either of us. Sigh. Grief is so heavy of a feeling.

Dee74

I know you have the strength and courage to get through all this EQ

D

EternalQ

Thank you for the support, D.
Means a lot.

Orbea

Big hugs to you EQ!!!

I bet the vestments looked lovely, especially in honor of your mom. I am sure she is looking down upon you smiling with love and pride!

Sometimes I wonder if my mom's spirit is around. Super boy's toys go off randomly.

EternalQ

Thanks a lot Orbea. Your words are very comforting.

Yes my sisters and I Also have a whole host of peculiarites along the lines of SB's toys. I have many... Some of mine were truly amazing.

Though they don't seem to happen anymore and I've also had no more dreams of her since July.

I feel numb as though I'm holding back a flood of jumbled emotions. Can't name them and can't feel them. But won't drink them away.