Class of October 2011 pt 2
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Hi everyone, Day 3 today. I have been super tired, I think i slept like 10hrs last night. Today I woke up did some stuff around the house and then went out and bought Duff McKagans new book about dealing with his addiction and the rise n fame of GNR. I read about 70pgs, pretty good so far. This killer headache kicked in this afternoon that I cant shake. I remember the other times getting sober and dealing with some pretty bad headaches.
Honepie glad you chose the pacman over drinking!
Nvrbeentospain I def agree with the 4 day weekend! or atleast 3. The weekends never seem long enough to me.
Honepie glad you chose the pacman over drinking!
Nvrbeentospain I def agree with the 4 day weekend! or atleast 3. The weekends never seem long enough to me.
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Interesting about the Headaches, as I said before, last night I had a severe headache that I couldn't get rid of (and had no aspirin!) and didn't know if it was from not drinking or from something else.
Today was alright, I didn't do much today but I DID watch football and watched my Packers win a nail biting game all without drinking alcohol! I think I went through 4 quarts of water however haha (better than 4 quarts of alcohol, eh?). I really didn't have any real big cravings so I did a-okay and I'm all set to go to bed and wake up for my 8th day sober
. I'm just ending the night right now with some music! The Doors, T-Rex, Explosions In The Sky..etc etc.
Great posts everyone, you're doing great!
stevie88 - Sorry about your emotional day, however as Dee said I would figure out a way to break your cycle in case something else emotional comes up.
Goodcheer - Stay strong and don't fall for the poison's trap, you've been doing great so far!
Today was alright, I didn't do much today but I DID watch football and watched my Packers win a nail biting game all without drinking alcohol! I think I went through 4 quarts of water however haha (better than 4 quarts of alcohol, eh?). I really didn't have any real big cravings so I did a-okay and I'm all set to go to bed and wake up for my 8th day sober
. I'm just ending the night right now with some music! The Doors, T-Rex, Explosions In The Sky..etc etc.Great posts everyone, you're doing great!
stevie88 - Sorry about your emotional day, however as Dee said I would figure out a way to break your cycle in case something else emotional comes up.
Goodcheer - Stay strong and don't fall for the poison's trap, you've been doing great so far!
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Hey all,
Just got back from a three day river trip -- which I did sober!
I expected this to be harder than Vegas, and in many respects it was. If you've ever been rafting, you know it's a drinking sport -- starting at 10 am and usually going til midnight. And sure enough, for a dozen of my friends (excepting me) it was.
But after the first few hours and the urge to crack a beer at the put-in, the urge passed. And Friday evening as I sat around the campfire with a dozen very drunk people, I realized I don't think I've ever been sober around drunk people before. It was what you'd expect -- alternately amusing and irritating, but over all fun.
This morning I laughed, however, when I woke up next to the campfire and my first thought was -- "Holy s***, did I get plastered last night?" Nope. Just laid out beneath the stars in my sleeping bag (nice meteor shower last night, BTW), with a warm fire on one side and my dog on the other.
Between Vegas and the river, I feel like I've overcome some big hurdles this week. And this weekend was the first time hanging out with friends (hard partying friends, at that) and no one blinked an eye. In fact, the friend whom I'd least expect it from, when I told her I hadn't brought any liquor or beer on the trip and would be sober, surprised me by saying, "Good for you."
Just got back from a three day river trip -- which I did sober!
I expected this to be harder than Vegas, and in many respects it was. If you've ever been rafting, you know it's a drinking sport -- starting at 10 am and usually going til midnight. And sure enough, for a dozen of my friends (excepting me) it was.
But after the first few hours and the urge to crack a beer at the put-in, the urge passed. And Friday evening as I sat around the campfire with a dozen very drunk people, I realized I don't think I've ever been sober around drunk people before. It was what you'd expect -- alternately amusing and irritating, but over all fun.
This morning I laughed, however, when I woke up next to the campfire and my first thought was -- "Holy s***, did I get plastered last night?" Nope. Just laid out beneath the stars in my sleeping bag (nice meteor shower last night, BTW), with a warm fire on one side and my dog on the other.
Between Vegas and the river, I feel like I've overcome some big hurdles this week. And this weekend was the first time hanging out with friends (hard partying friends, at that) and no one blinked an eye. In fact, the friend whom I'd least expect it from, when I told her I hadn't brought any liquor or beer on the trip and would be sober, surprised me by saying, "Good for you."
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sigh
I don't get this I really don't. I posted yesterday about how bad I felt for drinking, and I did feel awful, but I drank last night and again tonight. what is it going to take? why do I keep doing this? part of me thinks I should just give up and stop even trying, but I know how good I felt when I wasn't drinking, I do not want to give up. Help please--why can't I be normal?
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Samwitch I'm sorry you're struggling. I think when we feel awful it's easy to just go whole hog and *really* screw the pooch.
What do you plan to do tomorrow so that you don't drink? My only suggestion is to have a plan. It worked for me this weekend, so it's all I've got in the advice department.
Like Microbio, last night I went to a really great restaurant with a friend that doesn't serve alcohol. That made it easy. Then I went to a movie--Moneyball. Not alot of drinking in that movie, interestingly enough.
And, I went for a run today with my sister in law before my irritable mood kicked in. (I get irritable at about 4-5pm like clockwork. It's when I would have had a drink). I'm trying to schedule myself so that I have alternatives to drinking for stress relief and entertainment. So far...this week...it's worked. I'm hoping it will continue because this is freaking hard. ((hugs))
What do you plan to do tomorrow so that you don't drink? My only suggestion is to have a plan. It worked for me this weekend, so it's all I've got in the advice department.
Like Microbio, last night I went to a really great restaurant with a friend that doesn't serve alcohol. That made it easy. Then I went to a movie--Moneyball. Not alot of drinking in that movie, interestingly enough.
And, I went for a run today with my sister in law before my irritable mood kicked in. (I get irritable at about 4-5pm like clockwork. It's when I would have had a drink). I'm trying to schedule myself so that I have alternatives to drinking for stress relief and entertainment. So far...this week...it's worked. I'm hoping it will continue because this is freaking hard. ((hugs))
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Samwitch dont give up! I can totally relate, I have got stuck in that cycle way to many times. Try planning ahead of things to do to keep you busy. Maybe try AA or something else? Posting and reading threads here is a good distraction or maybe a good book.
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Hey everyone!
I'm right in the middle of making myself dinner - getting water to a boil. I'm back at my loft for the rest of the week, and I have my cat (his name is Kuroi - looks like the cat in my signature) faithfully laying next to me. Here in MN, it's starting to get pretty cold at night, and since I'm not ready to close my windows, he snuggles until bedtime, and then curls up so I can spoon w/him; looks like I won't be needing a boyfriend anytime soon, lmao!
I feel oddly tired tonight. I feel like just wasting some time.... might go play some online games :/
I'd like to go back through the thread and respond to some of the stuff you guys have posted today/tonight, but cooking is taking up the remainder of my energy. SORRY!
Take care everyone; sleep tight. Oh, and for those across the pond in the UK, have a great day!!!
I'm right in the middle of making myself dinner - getting water to a boil. I'm back at my loft for the rest of the week, and I have my cat (his name is Kuroi - looks like the cat in my signature) faithfully laying next to me. Here in MN, it's starting to get pretty cold at night, and since I'm not ready to close my windows, he snuggles until bedtime, and then curls up so I can spoon w/him; looks like I won't be needing a boyfriend anytime soon, lmao!
I feel oddly tired tonight. I feel like just wasting some time.... might go play some online games :/
I'd like to go back through the thread and respond to some of the stuff you guys have posted today/tonight, but cooking is taking up the remainder of my energy. SORRY!
Take care everyone; sleep tight. Oh, and for those across the pond in the UK, have a great day!!!
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hi everybody...so good to hear from so many Octobers!
deserto..welcome back. your achievements are awesome. the description of the river trip is amazing. i love hearing from so many friends around the country and around the world here in our little group. what day are you on now?
spain, gerbosko, boozefree, cardio....so glad to hear from all of you. hang in there. i think headaches might come from residual dehydration, without the alcohol to medicate them.
samwitch...thank you for your honesty. the reason you are posting here is that deep down you want to quit. this is a serious addiction. if you need face to face support, please seek out an aa meeting or an addiction counselor. i believe you can do this. we are here to support you.
day 14....didn't pick up a drink, went to an aa meeting, and going to bed sober. i also spent the day with my girls and opened my heart, tried to be present with them. my younger came over and gave me a big hug today and said, no more wine mom, ok? i said, no more wine honey i haven't had any for two weeks. i think they notice i am more there and smiling more often. or so i hope. thanks for reading.
sending peace and strength.
deserto..welcome back. your achievements are awesome. the description of the river trip is amazing. i love hearing from so many friends around the country and around the world here in our little group. what day are you on now?
spain, gerbosko, boozefree, cardio....so glad to hear from all of you. hang in there. i think headaches might come from residual dehydration, without the alcohol to medicate them.
samwitch...thank you for your honesty. the reason you are posting here is that deep down you want to quit. this is a serious addiction. if you need face to face support, please seek out an aa meeting or an addiction counselor. i believe you can do this. we are here to support you.
day 14....didn't pick up a drink, went to an aa meeting, and going to bed sober. i also spent the day with my girls and opened my heart, tried to be present with them. my younger came over and gave me a big hug today and said, no more wine mom, ok? i said, no more wine honey i haven't had any for two weeks. i think they notice i am more there and smiling more often. or so i hope. thanks for reading.
sending peace and strength.
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The key for me was always looking at what I was doing for my recovery.
If it's not been enough to keep you sober, I think you look at what more you could add to yr recovery Samwitch
I really don't think this is beyond anyone - don't give up!
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If it's not been enough to keep you sober, I think you look at what more you could add to yr recovery Samwitch
I really don't think this is beyond anyone - don't give up!
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The key for me was always looking at what I was doing for my recovery.
If it's not been enough to keep you sober, I think you look at what more you could add to yr recovery Samwitch
I really don't think this is beyond anyone - don't give up!
D
If it's not been enough to keep you sober, I think you look at what more you could add to yr recovery Samwitch
I really don't think this is beyond anyone - don't give up!
D
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Wow. You guys and gals are just awesome.
Somehow I managed to avoid drinking tonight. It was tougher than it's been in a couple weeks. I was SO SO crabby and irritable all day. And out of sorts. And everything in me was just screaming out for a glass or two of cold white wine. Just craziness. And I wept.
So, I played Pacman and read posts on SR, then I forced myself to put on sneakers and run, then I continued with laundry and other housework, then made dinner and drank 2 huge glasses of cream soda (bought for teenagers but look who is drinking it!) and ate a big meal and watched TV and thought, wow, I made it, somehow. I didn't drink tonight and I really wanted to.
Samwitch it may be like that for you too - where you know you are going to drink but if you just keep putting it off and telling yourself the urge will pass, it is temporary, just do something ELSE and then five minutes later do something else again. Over and over until you're safe in bed.
Deserto you are a rock star! Vegas now camping with beer swilling friends! Staying sober. Hats off to you and to everyone else who is doing this so successfully! I wish so much my cravings would disappear. Hoping soon!!
We are all in it together. Thanks again for the support.
Somehow I managed to avoid drinking tonight. It was tougher than it's been in a couple weeks. I was SO SO crabby and irritable all day. And out of sorts. And everything in me was just screaming out for a glass or two of cold white wine. Just craziness. And I wept.
So, I played Pacman and read posts on SR, then I forced myself to put on sneakers and run, then I continued with laundry and other housework, then made dinner and drank 2 huge glasses of cream soda (bought for teenagers but look who is drinking it!) and ate a big meal and watched TV and thought, wow, I made it, somehow. I didn't drink tonight and I really wanted to.
Samwitch it may be like that for you too - where you know you are going to drink but if you just keep putting it off and telling yourself the urge will pass, it is temporary, just do something ELSE and then five minutes later do something else again. Over and over until you're safe in bed.
Deserto you are a rock star! Vegas now camping with beer swilling friends! Staying sober. Hats off to you and to everyone else who is doing this so successfully! I wish so much my cravings would disappear. Hoping soon!!
We are all in it together. Thanks again for the support.
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thanks all. I'm starting to see a counselor. Addictions specialist, so that should help. I'm going to pour out the left over wine, and start fresh tomorrow. I appreciate all your help and kind words. At least I'm still part of the October class.
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Day 2 for me! I am a weekend drinker though so my real day 2 will be after I get through next Friday and Saturday night...looking forward to not feeling guilty and tired this time next week.
samwitch- I wish you luck! I think that seeing a counselor will put a lot of things into perspective for you.
Goodnight everybody.
samwitch- I wish you luck! I think that seeing a counselor will put a lot of things into perspective for you.
Goodnight everybody.
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Starting to realize that drinking isn't actually my real problem, its the reasons I drank in the
first place that are my real issues. I guess its a sad awareness. I'm kinda coming down from my pink cloud and noticing I have more things I need to sort out, along with staying sober. I'm depressed about it, but I know drinking won't make anything better....I guess
first place that are my real issues. I guess its a sad awareness. I'm kinda coming down from my pink cloud and noticing I have more things I need to sort out, along with staying sober. I'm depressed about it, but I know drinking won't make anything better....I guess
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Originally Posted by samwitch 
I don't get this I really don't. I posted yesterday about how bad I felt for drinking, and I did eel awful, but I drank last night and again tonight. what is it going to take? why do I keep doing this? part of me thinks I should just give up and stop even trying, but I know how good I felt when I wasn't drinking, I do not want to give up. Help please--why can't I be normal?
From the Big Book, Page 152
"Some day he will be unable to imagine his life with alcohol or without it. Then he will know loneliness such as few do. He will be at the jumping off place. He will wish for the end."
I think when you get there, you just know. I could be wrong. I got there.
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Greetings Octobers
Alaska, I am happy you are better today. It’s true that everything is better after a good night’s sleep. But, it’s more than that, I think. No, I really believe, that if we all just keep coming back here that we will succeed.
GoodCheer, Sounds like it was a little rocky at the restaurant, but you kept your game face, and made it safe to morning. You rocked it. I like to think that every time we dig in and really refuse to give in or give up, that we get that much stronger for the next challenge. The harder the challenge the greater the victory.
Honeypie, You did it too! You refused to let go. Victory is yours. Are you feeling strong now?
General, Love the October Banner. very creative
Seethroughblue, Pulling for you from here. Hold on, a new day is coming.
Iwantmeback, Stevie, Samwitch… Don’t give up. Don’t give in! Keep checkin in.
Thanks to everyone for your posts. Reading our thread is like being thrown a Lifeline.
Alaska, I am happy you are better today. It’s true that everything is better after a good night’s sleep. But, it’s more than that, I think. No, I really believe, that if we all just keep coming back here that we will succeed.
GoodCheer, Sounds like it was a little rocky at the restaurant, but you kept your game face, and made it safe to morning. You rocked it. I like to think that every time we dig in and really refuse to give in or give up, that we get that much stronger for the next challenge. The harder the challenge the greater the victory.
Honeypie, You did it too! You refused to let go. Victory is yours. Are you feeling strong now?
General, Love the October Banner. very creative
Seethroughblue, Pulling for you from here. Hold on, a new day is coming.
Iwantmeback, Stevie, Samwitch… Don’t give up. Don’t give in! Keep checkin in.
Thanks to everyone for your posts. Reading our thread is like being thrown a Lifeline.
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Ok here we go....New day,new week,new start.....After my awful day yesterday im ready to jump back on the waggon....I only had a few beers yesterday so today i dont feel too bad....Just having a mug of tea,gave the kids breakfast while i let the wife have a lie in in bed......Gonna take the dog for a walk soon and im gonna try and keep active today so that i dont think about booze......Day 1 here we come......
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