Class of November Part 3
Sober since 9th May 2008
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Head down - get on with it
Thats the way I'm trying Wibble, works for me just now as well, soon as I had a few weeks behind me I knew I'd a chance of doing this, not easy though ..................
Don't mean this to sound threatening but how much do you want it ?
I posted the other night the series of events that led to my decision to stop drinking, didn't stop that night but the motivation all started from there.
Took me nearly 2 years to get where I am now, 2 years of really wanting to stop though and a lot of hurt along the way.
I believe though that anyone can make it as long as they want it enough.
There's no quick wins though and the trip isn't always the fun you'd hoped for, bit like driving the length of the country for a football match for it to be 0 - 0 .
Thats the way I'm trying Wibble, works for me just now as well, soon as I had a few weeks behind me I knew I'd a chance of doing this, not easy though ..................
Don't mean this to sound threatening but how much do you want it ?
I posted the other night the series of events that led to my decision to stop drinking, didn't stop that night but the motivation all started from there.
Took me nearly 2 years to get where I am now, 2 years of really wanting to stop though and a lot of hurt along the way.
I believe though that anyone can make it as long as they want it enough.
There's no quick wins though and the trip isn't always the fun you'd hoped for, bit like driving the length of the country for a football match for it to be 0 - 0 .
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Fizz, how much do I want it?
Mate, I have to want it as much as is humanly possible mate. Without it i'm fooked. I'm a long way away from some of the desperate stories I hear at meetings but i know i'm on the road to them.
If i can finally stop lying to myself and know that these experiments lead to nothing other than the horror i'm feeling at the moment. I just feel dog tired, bad headache and a feeling that yet again i've screwed up.
Got to stop lying to myself. Got to
nands, I've been to meetings but i wouldn't say i "go" to meetings. I've been twice. I need to start making regular trips.
Thanks for all your concern.
Mate, I have to want it as much as is humanly possible mate. Without it i'm fooked. I'm a long way away from some of the desperate stories I hear at meetings but i know i'm on the road to them.
If i can finally stop lying to myself and know that these experiments lead to nothing other than the horror i'm feeling at the moment. I just feel dog tired, bad headache and a feeling that yet again i've screwed up.
Got to stop lying to myself. Got to
nands, I've been to meetings but i wouldn't say i "go" to meetings. I've been twice. I need to start making regular trips.
Thanks for all your concern.
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I figure it's friday evening over there...what's everyones plans? I have a meeting right after work and then home to wraps some presents and stuff...tomarrow will be very busy....
LB- whats up with you? feeling any better?
hi pixie
expect cg and i will cross paths here tonight....
LB- whats up with you? feeling any better?
hi pixie
expect cg and i will cross paths here tonight....
OMG everything's real
Join Date: Sep 2008
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Feeling ill, but at least it is Friday and I can rest at last! When I feel better, I want to start taking some pride in myself again. Get fit again, like I was about 10 years ago, before all this stuff started.
Today I was in the shop getting mayonaisse and cash back for the fish and chip shop. This woman in her 50's I would guess, came in in her track suit and slippers for a bottle. And I saw my future!
Today I was in the shop getting mayonaisse and cash back for the fish and chip shop. This woman in her 50's I would guess, came in in her track suit and slippers for a bottle. And I saw my future!
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Today I was in the shop getting mayonaisse and cash back for the fish and chip shop. This woman in her 50's I would guess, came in in her track suit and slippers for a bottle. And I saw my future!
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So......I guess I'll log on out for a spell......
tomarrow...full body massage and hair cut at 10am!!!!!!!!!
Probably the noon meeting (ughhhh)
hope we all connect....nite nite sleep tight...see you in the morning....well afternoon for you all :ghug3
tomarrow...full body massage and hair cut at 10am!!!!!!!!!
Probably the noon meeting (ughhhh)
hope we all connect....nite nite sleep tight...see you in the morning....well afternoon for you all
:ghug3
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Hi pixie and CG
hi cg...i was a good girl and went to bed early as I have a lot to do besides lay in bed today.
just popped in to say hi to folks...probably go back to bed for a few more hours in a minite....sure is dead around here....but pixie might be here looks like
Hi pixie....how are you this fine nice morning?????
just popped in to say hi to folks...probably go back to bed for a few more hours in a minite....sure is dead around here....but pixie might be here looks like
Hi pixie....how are you this fine nice morning?????
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I woke up drenched in sweat, and freezing...the back door blew open.....
I had really bad sleep patterns when I drank..they are mostly well now, but occationally they get wierd again...I think having such an emotional week caused a little flair up.
For the most part I sleep through the night now.
I had really bad sleep patterns when I drank..they are mostly well now, but occationally they get wierd again...I think having such an emotional week caused a little flair up.
For the most part I sleep through the night now.
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How are we all today?
I have a busy day today. Meeting my friend for lunch and taking our daughters with us.
My 13yr old has new found freedom and is off to the Cinema. My partners sons are over later and they and my youngest are off to the stables to sort the ponies out for me.
Oh and it's the X factor final tonight :bounce
I have a busy day today. Meeting my friend for lunch and taking our daughters with us.
My 13yr old has new found freedom and is off to the Cinema. My partners sons are over later and they and my youngest are off to the stables to sort the ponies out for me.
Oh and it's the X factor final tonight :bounce
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I keep waking up cause I can feel a cat is running across the bed. I sit up and there is nothing there. I do have a cat but hes not in the room as I get up and check. How odd?
Nands your prob right you have had an emotional week and it messes with your head.
Nands your prob right you have had an emotional week and it messes with your head.
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expect your at lunch with your girlfriend pix....I sure hope that is going well. I will be thinking of you. :ghug
I'm debating not getting the back rub.
Well...you know 2 years ago I would have drank half a litter when I woke up at 4:30 am.....and would have been probably up until about now and then would have been off to bed till about noon when it would have been time for another drink after a run to the liquer store for 2 liters so that I could make it through till the liquer stores open monday. Now I would have also had to go to work late monday and very shacky as the liters wouldn't have probably left enough for Monday morning....been at the store at 9am when they open hoping no one from work or AA would see me. stopped at mcdonalds to buy a coke to take to the bathroom there...do a quarter bottle and leave...trying to slip my bottle into the trunk of my car without being obvious cause there are sometimes police in the parking lot....then off to work, brush my teeth in the ladies room, chew some gum and come in whining about how the dogs got loose and I spent the morning chasing them down.
My dogs have never gotten loose....have nver fessed up to that one at work. or the friend who didn't die and whos funeral i neve went to.
So you know...today is a very good day after all.
I'm debating not getting the back rub.
Well...you know 2 years ago I would have drank half a litter when I woke up at 4:30 am.....and would have been probably up until about now and then would have been off to bed till about noon when it would have been time for another drink after a run to the liquer store for 2 liters so that I could make it through till the liquer stores open monday. Now I would have also had to go to work late monday and very shacky as the liters wouldn't have probably left enough for Monday morning....been at the store at 9am when they open hoping no one from work or AA would see me. stopped at mcdonalds to buy a coke to take to the bathroom there...do a quarter bottle and leave...trying to slip my bottle into the trunk of my car without being obvious cause there are sometimes police in the parking lot....then off to work, brush my teeth in the ladies room, chew some gum and come in whining about how the dogs got loose and I spent the morning chasing them down.
My dogs have never gotten loose....have nver fessed up to that one at work. or the friend who didn't die and whos funeral i neve went to.
So you know...today is a very good day after all.
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