Fizz, how much do I want it?
Mate, I have to want it as much as is humanly possible mate. Without it i'm fooked. I'm a long way away from some of the desperate stories I hear at meetings but i know i'm on the road to them.
If i can finally stop lying to myself and know that these experiments lead to nothing other than the horror i'm feeling at the moment. I just feel dog tired, bad headache and a feeling that yet again i've screwed up.
Got to stop lying to myself. Got to
nands, I've been to meetings but i wouldn't say i "go" to meetings. I've been twice. I need to start making regular trips.
Thanks for all your concern.