Class of July 2008 Part Six
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Join Date: Oct 2008
Location: East Coast
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Hi All,
I like the George Carlin saying.
I need alot more insight until I would be able to try to drink socially.
I'm not sure if it is my alcoholic mind but I told myself yesterday that maybe I would give myself to next Christmas to decide to try. I immediately felt relieved almost happy. Although I drank like one for a period of time I am really still not convinced that I am an alcoholic nor am I convinced that I am not. I figured if I can't give it up for at least a year I will assume that I am. I just don't want to continue to be miserable. I really don't know how I am going to get through the holidays but if I tell myself it is just this one at least maybe I can not be so obsessed with it. Does anyone feel like this? Is there anyone else that this is there first time quitting?
I like the George Carlin saying.
I need alot more insight until I would be able to try to drink socially.
I'm not sure if it is my alcoholic mind but I told myself yesterday that maybe I would give myself to next Christmas to decide to try. I immediately felt relieved almost happy. Although I drank like one for a period of time I am really still not convinced that I am an alcoholic nor am I convinced that I am not. I figured if I can't give it up for at least a year I will assume that I am. I just don't want to continue to be miserable. I really don't know how I am going to get through the holidays but if I tell myself it is just this one at least maybe I can not be so obsessed with it. Does anyone feel like this? Is there anyone else that this is there first time quitting?
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
Posts: 99,797
My little dog is doing very well the last few days. Climbing the stairs and walking just fine. I am grateful for all your positive thoughts and prayers for him. I know it helped.
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Join Date: Nov 2007
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Philly...it isn't my first time getting sober, but seems to me that if not drinking for a year motivates you and improves your spirit, thats fine.
That period of time would give you a chance to review your own drinking history with clearer eyes and to see how much you do or don't obsess about drinking when you aren't drinking....those things might help you to determine whether or not you consider yourself and alchoholic and wether or not drinking or druging really is something you really want to start up again.
It sounds like "one year at a time" is doing for you much the same thing that "one day at a time" does for others.
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That period of time would give you a chance to review your own drinking history with clearer eyes and to see how much you do or don't obsess about drinking when you aren't drinking....those things might help you to determine whether or not you consider yourself and alchoholic and wether or not drinking or druging really is something you really want to start up again.
It sounds like "one year at a time" is doing for you much the same thing that "one day at a time" does for others.
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Join Date: Oct 2008
Location: San Diego, CA
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Hi all today is my 117th day sober and this last week has been hell! The cravings have been overwhelming and I actually had a break down in my AA meeting on Tuesday. I got a sponser a week and a half ago and we did step one today. She asked me if I believed I was totally powerless over alcohol and if my life had become unmanageable. Instead of a simple YES which is the case....I had to blabber on and say I was confused because of the obsession that has been eating away at me. And to be honest I don't find my sober life much more manageable at this point due to cleaning up all the wreckage! I am bored...working a job way beneath me....trying to sell my house so my AEXH and I don"t have to live together anymore! I am really trying to live in the now and the positives. The gifts I have been shown and live in the gratitudes. I am just finding everything to be such a hard task. Lately, I am so happy when it is time to go to bed. I know this too shall pass...I am in what I consider my most dangerous relapse place...each time it has gotten shorter but I have made it a month longer than last time so that is good. Thanks for letting me ramble and vent!
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
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Sassy, ramble and vent all you like. We're here to support ourselves and each other. If venting here keeps you sober, we're glad to listen and glad you're staying sober.
Today is my 125th day sober! Tomorrow (Sunday) makes 18 weeks! That makes me feel so good cause I never thought I could stay sober this long. But I got here one day at a time and I'll move forward one day at a time!
It's a rainy day here but at least I woke up feeling better than I had been feeling.
Today is my 125th day sober! Tomorrow (Sunday) makes 18 weeks! That makes me feel so good cause I never thought I could stay sober this long. But I got here one day at a time and I'll move forward one day at a time!
It's a rainy day here but at least I woke up feeling better than I had been feeling.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Yokohama, Japan
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Originally Posted by ananda 
feeling pertty wierd.....my zen preist once told me to look for the space to be...
I'm gonna be considering that thought today
later
I'm gonna be considering that thought today
later
"Make me one with everything."
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Monastery Life
A young monk arrives at the monastery. He is assigned to helping the other monks in copying the old canons and laws of the church by hand.
He notices, however, that all of the monks are copying from copies, not from the original manuscript. So, the new monk goes to the head abbot to question this, pointing out that if someone made even a small error in the first copy, it would never be picked up! In fact, that error would be continued in all of the subsequent copies.
The head monk, says, "We have been copying from the copies for centuries, but you make a good point, my son."
He goes down into the dark caves underneath the monastery where the original manuscripts are held as archives in a locked vault that hasn't been opened for hundreds of years. Hours go by and nobody sees the old abbot.
So, the young monk gets worried and goes down to look for him. He sees him banging his head against the wall and wailing, "We missed the " R" ! , we missed the " R" !"
His forehead is all bloody and bruised and he is crying uncontrollably.
The young monk asks the old abbot, "What's wrong, father?"
With A choking voice, the old abbot replies, "The word was... CELEBRATE !!! "
A young monk arrives at the monastery. He is assigned to helping the other monks in copying the old canons and laws of the church by hand.
He notices, however, that all of the monks are copying from copies, not from the original manuscript. So, the new monk goes to the head abbot to question this, pointing out that if someone made even a small error in the first copy, it would never be picked up! In fact, that error would be continued in all of the subsequent copies.
The head monk, says, "We have been copying from the copies for centuries, but you make a good point, my son."
He goes down into the dark caves underneath the monastery where the original manuscripts are held as archives in a locked vault that hasn't been opened for hundreds of years. Hours go by and nobody sees the old abbot.
So, the young monk gets worried and goes down to look for him. He sees him banging his head against the wall and wailing, "We missed the " R" ! , we missed the " R" !"
His forehead is all bloody and bruised and he is crying uncontrollably.
The young monk asks the old abbot, "What's wrong, father?"
With A choking voice, the old abbot replies, "The word was... CELEBRATE !!! "
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That sounds like good fun scoob! and you can warm up with hot coco.
not much going on here this weekend.....I'm fresh out of humor, but happy and feeling like I am making progress on changing my life now that I am sober and half way through the clearing away the wreckage of the past (which includes the wreckage of my house
)
not much going on here this weekend.....I'm fresh out of humor, but happy and feeling like I am making progress on changing my life now that I am sober and half way through the clearing away the wreckage of the past (which includes the wreckage of my house
)
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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RhinoGal, that's four months!! Way to go girl!!:ghug3
Scoob, the sledding fun stirs up my best childhood memories of winter at the farm. I remember being quite cold and wet but of having fun in the snow - lots of it - and hot chocolate and hot coal stoves too. What fun it was....
My love to all my classmates/friends/fellow travellers.:ghug
Scoob, the sledding fun stirs up my best childhood memories of winter at the farm. I remember being quite cold and wet but of having fun in the snow - lots of it - and hot chocolate and hot coal stoves too. What fun it was....
My love to all my classmates/friends/fellow travellers.:ghug
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